Resident Stuff

April 13, 2012 by DoctaJay

So I noticed that over the past couple of months I haven’t commented on what I’ve actually been doing as a resident. Starting in late December I began my general surgery rotations that are required as part of my orthopaedic surgery residency. It is kind of the luck of the draw in terms of which particular rotations you get but mine worked out to be 1.5 months of Vascular Surgery, 1 month of ICU, 1 month of Plastic Surgery, 1 month of Surgical Oncology and Endocrine Surgery, 1 month of Trauma Surgery, and 1 month of Pediatric Surgery. The last rotation of my intern year is actually anesthesia which is wonderful because its a low stress rotation and will allow me to rest up before the infamously terrible ortho PGY-2 year arrives.

Plastic Surgery

I already commented on my time on Vascular Surgery and ICU. Plastic Surgery was truly a pleasant surprise. I must admit that I had no true concept of the scope of operations that plastic surgeons performed, but my month plastics opened my eyes. They were doing masseter nerve transfers for kids who lost function of their facial nerve after a tumor was resected to breast reconstructions, to repair of carpal and phalangeal fractures to closure of complicated spinal wounds, to in utero repair of spina bifida defects, etc. They did so much more than just the characteristic comestic surgery and they truly do work everywhere on the body. I loved the variety of sutures and the realitive healthiness of the patient’s which is what also drew me to ortho. During one of my last days on plastics one of the attendings liked my closure so much that she said I should consider switching to plastics, lol. I must admit, there really weren’t many other fields I liked besides ortho but after this month I could definitely have seen myself doing it. I don’t think I had the medical school grades to get into plastics, but I found out that you can actually do a plastics fellowship out of any surgical residency, including ortho, ENT, general surgery, etc. Doing another 3 years of plastics after my 5 years of ortho really isn’t palatable to me, but it was nice to fancy the thought for a bit.

Surgical Oncology/Endocrine Surgery

If you lined me up beside 1000 other ortho and non-general surgery surgical residents I would likely be ranked close to number one in terms of my disinterest in bowel surgery. So clearly I was dreading have to go through all day Whipple cases. However I was somewhat pleasantly surprised that most of the cases I scrubbed in on during surgical oncology were related to liver resections and I had no idea how cool liver surgery was. Our attendings here both preferred open approaches so I got to look directly at the biliary system, hepatic veins, and portal venous system. One time we were resecting a tumor that had incorporated itself into both the liver and the IVC that ran through it. When we got the last piece of tumor out a small hole appeared in the IVC and boy…DAT MOFO CAN BLEED, lol. I definitely have to give it up to general surgeons who on a day to day basis deal with life and death situations and barely break a sweat. Coming into medical school I thought I wanted to be that guy, but I’m too much of a softey to have my patients die on a somewhat consistent basis. Ortho is definitely for me, but again I was pleasantly surprised by the Hepatobiliary Surgeons here.

As for Endocrine Surgery, I must admit that the thyroid is by far the least exciting structure in the body. I guess what really made me not like the cases was that the field was too small. Every tool was itsy bitsy tiny, and you had to constantly worry about retracting too much. This is probably the reason why hand surgery so far hasn’t appealed to me. Who knows, that could all change.

Trauma Surgery

This is the rotation that I am currently on and its amazing how variable my night could go (I’m currently doing 5pm to 5 am shifts). One night this past week, we had like 3 gun shot wounds come into the ER; they all came in as trauma arrests so the room is just full of people doing compressions, placing lines, putting in chest tubes etc. They all ended up passing away which was terrible…more dead black Baltimore 20 year olds. I can see how people who do this stuff for a career can get jaded. Moving on, last night, when I was on, there was not 1 trauma and the nurses decided not to page me for anything on the floor patients. So I stayed up and watched documenteries on Netflix and slept a couple of hours. You truly never know what the night will bring on trauma surgery. So far though I like it because again it teaches me how to take care of pretty sick surgical patients and it also gets me back to interacting with my ortho brethern since we consult them often.

Yesterday, Johns Hopkins dedicated its new, 1.1 billion dollar hospital:

We move into the hospital on the 29th of this month and guess who the administration has volunteered will wheel the patients from the old hospital to the new? Of course the interns; we have expertise in this sort of thing lol. Honestly though the process is supposed to be pretty straight forward in terms of when we are to transport a patient to the new hospital but I just forsee huge mishaps along the way. Its my hope that no patients get lost or misplaced :-) .

The hospital has 6 trauma bays decked out with all sorts of technology. The ER is huge and should hopefully alleviate me having to see patients in the waiting room as I have often had to do. What this means for me also is that after spending all intern year learning how the Hopkins system works and where to find everything, I will have to relearn it again 2 months before the new interns arrive. But you can’t impede progress and quite honestly it will be cool working with stuff that is finally brand new.

There there ya go, that has been my general surgery experience so far. In other aspects of my life, my wife matched into an OBGYN residency in Baltimore City so I am still praising God for that. We also are moving out of downtown baltimore and into the suburbs of the city which are much nicer than anything you have seen on TV about Baltimore. Anyways, I will report back on any new events that occur in my residency.

Trayvon Martin..My Son?

April 5, 2012 by DoctaJay

Above is an ultrasound of my next child, a boy! The excitement I have felt about this new addition to my family is somewhat hampered by the knowledge that I am “unfortunately” having a black boy. When I first saw the story about Trayvon Martin, the very first thing that entered my mind was that that easily could have been me. I know it sounds cliche, but when I take off my white coat and my scrubs at the end of the day, and walk out of the hospital in my hoodie and jeans, I look like any other black Baltimore man. And for many people that means I am more likely to try to rob to or attack them than give them fix their fracture. I’ve seen their eyes as I walk through the parking garage without my hospital garb. They clutch their purses tighter or the walk faster to the crosswalk that takes them to the hospital in hopes that they can get there before I “might” do something to them. It doesn’t matter that I have a terminal doctorate degree, that the last time I got in a fight was in 4th grade, that I’m more concerned about getting home to my family than going after their purse.

This event reminded me that still in 2012, another black child dead is less important than if it happened to someone of a fairer complexion. It reminded me that the world I am bringing my son into isn’t much different than the one world that Emmett Till grew up in. There are still many details to be discovered and it may very well be that Trayvon, after being approached (a fact which is not in dispute) went on the offensive. But even if he did, the fact that he didn’t have to be approached in the first place makes the loss for his mother even more difficult.

I’ve only been able to come this far secondary to all those who sacrificed their lives before me. If we don’t make a stand now and make sure that people know that they can’t get off easy by killing our sons then we have truly disgraced those who have sacrificed all before us.

First Black Resident

February 29, 2012 by DoctaJay

Like most residency programs, my program has a hall that has the pictures of resident classes dating back multiple decades. When I first arrived on campus I walked the hall in our department, looking to see when the first black resident was accepted.  It took me awhile, because everyone looks the same in black and white, but I finally found him in the picture below (can you pick him out?):

For the longest time I wished I could meet him, but I figured he was probably retired or dead. Well last month I got the chance to meet him by chance at a department homecoming of sorts. I got his number and couldn’t wait to hear his story; I just knew that he faced an environment similar to the Little Rock 9 kids who desegregated our public schools. Imagine, in a field as undiverse as orthopaedic surgery, being the first black resident at a place like Hopkins? His true story was actually quite different and less dramatic.

He told me that he was treated with nothing but respect from the orthopaedics department at the time. The only time that he ever received rascist remarks were from some of the general surgery attendings (who happened to be from the south) when he did his 2 years of general surgery that was required at the time. He also mentioned that whenever a patient made it clear that they didn’t want to be treated by a black orthopaedic resident, that their chairman would show the patient the door. We talked about a lot more but it was so amazing to hear that his experience was so pleasant, but in hindsight not really surprising at all. One of the main things that attracted me to Hopkins was that second to Howard University’s ortho program and perhaps UVA, Hopkins had just as many minorities and woman. To me it spoke of a program that took the best regardless of what they looked like. In honor of black history month, I think its important to remember all those who came before us to make our opportunities even possible. If that first black resident really sucked, who knows when Hopkins would have taken their 2nd one. In the same way, where ever we end up, we have to strive to not just be on par, but be the best, to continue opening up doors for those behind us. And when we reach the top, we have to remember to BE AVAILABLE as mentors. Okay, I’m off my soapbox :-) .

Losing Your First Patient

January 21, 2012 by DoctaJay

I’ve seen people die before. The very first post of my blog shows the first person that I saw die; he came in with a gunshot wound to his chest, a thoracotomy was performed, but he didn’t make it. Since that shadowing experience in college through medical school I have certainly seen patients pass away, but never was it MY patient. For the first time during residency this happened to me and it was the most sobering experience of my life.

Just 30 minutes before I was talking with the patient, reassuring him/her that they would be leaving the hospital the next day. We had already set up the rehab location and the patient was ready to finally leave the hospital. The patient didn’t show any signs that anything was wrong with him/her at that time; no chest pain, no shortness of breath, no change in mental status, no decrease in oxygen saturation, nothing. I walked out of his/her room and 20 minutes later I heard a nurse scream and call, “CODE BLUE, CODE BLUE!!!”. I was in the physicians work room and for a second I froze…although I was on the surgical floor, there were some patients who were being managed by internal medicine…perhaps it was one of their patients. But reality set in that 98% of the patient’s were mine on that floor or at least my cointerns’ and I at least needed to see who it was. Lo and behold people were running towards MY patient’s room.

I ran into the room and it took one look to realize that my patient wasn’t breathing…her eyes were wide open. I knew a code team was coming so I started doing chest compressions, praying…praying that he/she would come back. The code team arrived and followed the normal steps, 1) intubate 2) hook up defibrillator pads 3) analyze heart rhythm. He/she was in asytole; we gave him/her epi, atropine, we defibrillated him/her multiple times, we kept at it for 30 minutes, but he/she still didn’t have a pulse or a rhythm that we could defibrillate.

When the doctor running the code team called it I was still doing chest compressions. I know it sounds soft and ridiculous but I wanted to cry. This was MY patient, who was supposed to leave the hospital the next day. While he/she was in very poor health, most vascular patients are, and most of those people eventually leave the hospital. I talked it over with my chiefs and they all said it was just one of those times when an old person with multiple comorbidities just has a heart attack or a massive pulmonary embolism. There really aren’t many other explanations for sudden death like that. Of course the family of my patient did not want an autopsy, and how could I blame them. While the autopsy would have given me closure as a doctor, it delayed them being able to bury their family member by 3-4 weeks. If it was my mother/father I would have chosen the same thing.

When I left the hospital I had to drive around for an hour before I went home. There were too many emotions swirling around. The only solace I could take was that I hadn’t caused his/her death, but it did not take away the pain of losing someone you spent weeks taking care of. But unfortunately this is an experience that every resident will have. While it is hard to admit, I am not a superhero…I can not assure that I will be able to pluck all of my patient’s from the edge of death. It is hard not to view each death as a failure in your life’s calling, but if you do hold this view you will not last long in medicine.  It is one of the costs you pay for attempting to save the lives of people who would otherwise pass away.

General Surgery

December 31, 2011 by DoctaJay

For the past 2 weeks I have been on my first General Surgery rotation called BayView Red. The service is primarily composed of vascular surgery, thoracic surgery, and trauma surgery. Needless to say these patients are much sicker than the orthopedic patients and I can truly say that I’m learning how to keep patient’s alive. Just in the past 2 weeks I’ve had patients how couldn’t breath anymore or who had acute mental status changes or who were having a heart attack. These situations would have scared the poo out of me when I was on ortho, but I’m becoming much more comfortable with managing them now.

Before medical school I was really gung-ho about becoming a general surgeon because that was all that I had been exposed to initially. In particular I had been exposed to the trauma side of general surgery and I was completely enthralled. Then when I did general surgery as a 3rd year medical student I was put on a completely GI service with colostomies, anal abscess, etc and I vowed that I would never do general surgery. Since then I’ve had a mild distaste for the field primarily because of the bowel…I hate bowel. However these 2 weeks on the BayView Red have truly made me appreciate how diverse the field of General Surgery is. In a given day you could be in the OR dissecting through the neck to stop the bleeding caused by a gunshot or you could be doing a thoracoscopy to resect a lobe of the lung or you could be taking out a gallbladder. None of which involve the bowel, lol. I’ve been getting a lot of OR time on this rotation too, slowly honing my suturing and bovie skills. As a medical student watching residents use the bovie and the scalpel numerous times I always thought it would be easy to do it myself. But when the attending is looking at you and you are making the first cut its a whole different ball game, but its also exhilarating.

I’m slowly becoming a surgeon. Its an insidious process, but slowly you start to make decisions more definitively, slowly you are unfazed by taking 1 foot of gauze out of someone’s wound and repacking it, slowly arriving at the hospital at 4 am is becoming normal, etc. One day last week I was feeling really sad because all I wanted to do was be home with my wife and little girl, however when I went into the OR and did a couple of cases I completely forgot about my homesickness. Its experiences like this that have reassured me that I belong in surgery. But experiences like this have also reminded me that if I’m not careful, becoming a surgeon can destroy my family, which is unacceptable. Finding the right balance will be my life’s achievement.

Pathology/Radiology

November 30, 2011 by DoctaJay

Attending: DoctaJay, please describe this lesion.

Me: Well its a intramedullary lesion, with clear rings and stiples denoting cartilage. There also appears to be an oblique fracture traversing the distal femur.

Attending: What is the diagnosis?

Me: I would call this a fracture with an incidental finding of a enchondroma.
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This is what I did for the past month and I truly loved it. Our attending is a world reknowed bone pathologist who also did an orthopaedic surgery residency. He basically tells us to read a chapter from his book, let’s say on primary bone tumors. The next day, he gives us a couple of folders filled with x-rays and corresponding histology slides. He gives us an hour to come up with a diagnosis based on the xray findings and the histology. After that he comes in with another huge stack of xrays and pimps us on every single aspect of the various bone lesions.

This month was such a breath of fresh air as compared to the 3 months I spent on inpatient orthopedic surgery.When I was on ortho trauma I barely saw my family and barely got any sleep. This month on pathology I got to sleep in until 8 am, chill with my family all day, read about bone lesions (which I didn’t think I would find as interesting as I did), and just overall have a normal life. Rotations like this remind me of how lucky I am to be a resident here as not many ortho interns get introduced to ortho oncology so early. Anyways, next month I start general surgery, so the vacation will be over!

Choosing a Resident

November 6, 2011 by DoctaJay

This past week I witnessed and participated in something I would say is akin to the secretive and mysterious process of choosing a pope…ranking ortho sub-interns.

For the uninitiated, sub-interns are 4th year medical students from Hopkins or from other medical schools who spend 2-4 weeks rotating at our hospital to find out if they would want to spend the next 5 years here as a resident and to give the residents and attendings here a chance to see if we would want them here. There are a lot of things that go into doing a good job as a sub-intern but I will go into that in some future post.

The ultimate job of ranking sub-Is is done by the chairman and program director. However many residency programs value the input of the residents because we have had the most contact with them and we will have to deal with their shortcomings if they match here. Here at Hopkins we have a powerpoint presentation with the pictures of all the students who rotated at our program. As each rotator’s picture is displayed the residents as a whole have the opportunity to voice how much they liked or disliked the applicant.

It was truly a surreal experience to be part of this process because just 1 year ago I was still a 4th year medical student, rotating at Hopkins, hoping that I had impressed them enough for them to rank me highly. Seeing the process now as a resident I saw how easy it was to rise quickly to the top of the rank list or drop to the bottom. It lead me to offer this advice to MS-4s who are are rotating around the country for different residencies:

  • Try to get to know as many residents as possible at the program, because you want multiple residents vouching for you during the ranking process
  • It was very rarely mentioned that such and such student was smart but really couldn’t suture well. Don’t fret if you mess up once in the OR. That will not hose you as much as pissing off a resident or attending in some other way
  • Students rose to the top of the list when it was mentioned that they were 1) extremely hardworking not just in front of attendings but residents also and 2) were cool to hang with outside of the hospital
  • Students who’s pictures popped up and no one could really remember them rotating were shot down to the bottom of the list. Meaning, if you spent 1 month at a program and no one can remember it, you did not do a good job
  • Never ever ever lie. If you are caught in a lie while rotating you are finished.

Sitting through this process as a resident, I remember being a MS4 and fretting about messing up on a subcuticular stitch. After that day I was sure that I had completely destroyed my chance of matching at Hopkins. But there is a lot more to being a good rotator than perfect suturing skills. You will definitely learn those manual skills as a resident. What most programs seem to look for are hard workers who are fun to work with. I saw many  a high board scorer drop low on our list secondary to not working hard enough or having personality that wasn’t interesting to be around.  With that being said, if you have the combination of good scores and a strong rotation, then you are golden.

Part of me wished I could have been a fly on the wall last year when these same residents were discussing my rotation. Who liked me? Who advocated for me? I will never know, but I truly praise God for the favorable outcome.

Ortho Trauma Intern

October 14, 2011 by DoctaJay

Being an intern is like constantly being embattled. You are responsible for everything that happens to the floor patients, and every aspect of their care. If you miss something related to their care, no matter how small or big then “you suck”. Honestly, even on my best day, I miss something, and I tend to come down really hard on myself, which isn’t healthy because this is in addition to what I may get from my seniors. I arrive very early (usually get the first spot in the parking garage) and I leave late, and still things slip through the cracks. That is why medicine is composed of teams, so that whatever the intern misses, the PGY 2 or 3 will catch. And then whatever they don’t catch, the PGY 5 will catch, or the attending. It doesn’t however negate the fact that something was missed by the intern, and it doesn’t negate the pain inflicted upon the intern when it is brought to his/her attention.

With all that said, I really am thankful to God for being an intern here at Hopkins. The ortho service is actually really detail oriented here, and its training me to pay extremely close attention to every aspect of my patient’s care so that they have the best outcomes. Its a painful process however to be trained in this way, but it is better for me in the end…or at least I tell myself that every morning when I wake up at 3am, lol.

When I started this 2.5 month ortho rotation, I thought I would have time to read every night and spend time with my wife and child, etc. But that is just not the case. By the time I get home, I am so burned out and tired that  I have no time to study, or time to study but not time to play with my daughter. Thankfully the new intern work our rules have giving me about 8 hours, uninterrupted, to spend with my family each friday, which I am very thankful for. However the thought that next year when I am a PGY-2 and don’t have work hour restrictions that things will be worse is sobering. I can see how many divorces occur to surgical residents; and I just will not allow that to happen. I am still trying to find that balance between excelling at work and at family life, and I refuse to give up on that ultimate goal of doing well in both.

I am the only intern out of the 5 to do ortho trauma for 2.5 months straight without other rotations in between and it truly has been grueling. With that said, the rest of my intern year will be much more chill in comparison. My next month will be spent doing ortho pathology and radiology. My seniors have told me that by the end of that rotation I will be able to look at almost any lesion in a plan X-ray or any histology slide and diagnose the mass/tumor. We learn a lot of ortho tumor here and I really enjoy it actually. There is just so much to learn that I never even heard of in medical school in this field, particularly in orthopaedic oncology.

After my 1 month of ortho oncology, I start my 6 months of general surgery. And while anyone who knows me knows that I hate anything dealing with bowel, I have actually heard that life is much better for ortho interns on general surgery because 1)intern work hours mean that I have every Friday night and Saturday off 2)we are not pulled in 1000 directions as a g.surg intern as we are as a ortho intern. I will actually probably have more time to spend with my family during those 6 months of gsurg than I have had in the last 2.5 months. I really plan to read a lot during my g.surg time because I truly love ortho and I don’t want to be the least knowledgable in my class all because I have a wife and kid.

I had another ethical dilemma because the orthopaedic in-training examination (OITE) is coming up next month and it is traditionally always held on Saturday. The Lord blessed me to match at Hopkins I believe because I honored Him by not interviewing on the Sabbath when I was applying for residency. However I started to waiver again when I learned about the OITE only being held on Saturday. I didn’t want to be the only resident to cause “trouble” by requesting to take it on another day. But I also wanted to honor God and His Sabbath day. I was encouraged by a fellow Loma Linda classmate of mine who matched into ortho at Mayo. His words encouraged me to just sit down and talk with my PD about my faith and desire to take the OITE on another day. My PD was so receptive and within a couple days I was cleared to take the OITE on a Friday instead. Praise God!

This is another testament to standing up for your beliefs not matter what arena you are in. For all of you who are not in environments where God is talked about, don’t let others suppress your beliefs. Trust me, you will be respected more for adhering to your beliefs than wavering at the first sign of resistance. Honor God and He will honor you.

Hurricane Call

September 3, 2011 by DoctaJay

Last week I took overnight call for the first time as Orthopaedic resident and its was…exciting. It was exciting not only because it was my first call, but because Hurricane Irene was also bearing down on the East Coast, ready to bear all sorts of carnage. On the drive in to work, I saw this in my neighborhood:

Of course since I was driving in at night (I took this on my post-call day) I almost hit that tree, not expecting it in the streets of Baltimore. But this was only the continuation of my “exciting” call since when I woke up on my call day I had no power due to the hurricane showing Baltimore Gas & Electric who’s boss.

I finally arrived at the hospital, and at that time I got sign out from all the services, Trauma, Spine, Peds, Hand, and Sports. They all gave me their pagers, and I was left to fend for myself. Okay, just kidding, they also left a PGY-4 from Union Memorial to help me through my first call too, but it didn’t change the terror I felt of having 5 pagers on my waist. At around 5:30 pm all the pagers began to go off. Its a known fact that you get the bulk of your pages about floor patients around the time that nurses are getting ready to switch off. By 10 pm many of the patients started to go to sleep, so the pages that started coming in then were ER consults, because everyone with a fracture decides to wait until Friday night around 11 pm to come in to the ER.

The night was pretty eventful and the one thing I noticed immediately that was different from being a medical student on call was that the option of sleeping just wasn’t there. Often as a medical student when things started to slow down at around 2 a.m. the resident would tell me to get some rest. I wrongly assumed that the resident himself/herself were also heading to their call room for some shut eye. But this just is not possible; when you are not getting paged about floor patients  to come change Mr. X’s IV pain med to PO, or that Mrs. X started to get tachycardic and is complaining of 10/10 pain; and when you are not getting paged by the Adult or Peds ED to see such and such patient who they have been sitting on for like 3 hours before they call you, then you are typing up all the consults that are required to be done before 6 am the next day when the attending comes in to round on the new consults. In addition to that, you also have to present all the consults you saw at “The Board”. The Board is where the resident on call pulls up all the X-rays of the consults they saw in the ER or on the floor and describes the fracture/problem, and shows how they fixed it/splinted it, etc, and what the overall plan is. You are doing this in front of all the residents and a couple of key attendings. Most times this can be a stressful but benign event, however if your splint looks sub-par on X-ray, or you missed something important on X-ray, or you are asked a pertinent question about the fracture classification and don’t know it then the event can get particularly stressful. As a new intern, really just 2 weeks into being in the hospital, on my first call, I had to make sure that I had my presentations for The Board down pact.

So really all this equates to the fact that you just can not sleep at all when you are on call for ortho at Hopkins. There is too much to prepare for even when the ED isn’t harassing you. However this was the aspect of the program that I really liked as a student. I liked the fact that even though its an academic institution, you work very hard. Its better to put in the hard work now than suffer and stumble through things later as an attending.

I’m writing this currently after finishing my second call as an ortho resident and it was even more busy. Although I must say that I did learn a bunch; I learned how to put on a spica cast, I learned how to evaluate a deep laceration of the forearm for tendon and muscle damage; I put on a sugar tong splint and ulnar gutter splint without supervision, which is truly the only way to know that you do or don’t know how to put one on correctly; I learned how to deal with patients calling the on-call pager for pain scripts or cast care, etc. There truly is so much new information to learn in the field of orthopedics and I’m excited to even get the chance to do this. I’ve still be struggling with having devotion during this ortho rotation, but I know that at some point I have to make it a priority over other stuff I do in my limited downtime.

First Week on Ortho Trauma

August 20, 2011 by DoctaJay

So my honeymoon is over. This past week marked the beginning of my 2.5 months of orthopaedic trauma and it is a doozy. I had to think so much on my first day that I had a headache by 10 a.m. This past Friday was especially crazy since I had the floor pager, the ED consult pager, and my personal pager on my hip…all of them going off every 20 min. As I would be walking to a certain floor to check the wound of such and such patient, I would get a page on another pager about a patient in the ED with knee pain, then as I start walking towards to the ER I would get another page about patient so and so having lots of pain.

It was really challenging this week to decide which page would get my attention first. I suppose I will get more efficient at everything, but its pretty amazing how I never really understood how much you work as a resident until I started. After a full stressful day of floor work or ER consults, I can see how you can fall into the trap of using profanity all the time or drinking your sorrows away.

Either way I am just praying that God gives me strengths using these next couple of months.

July 1st 2011!!!!

July 3, 2011 by DoctaJay

So July 1, 2011 just passed and thus began my life as a resident. A lot of things happened before my start date including taking ACLS and ATLS certification classes, getting my LONG WHITE COAT (oh yeah baby baybay!), sitting through 1.5 weeks of orientation by the general surgery department, meeting the other surgical interns, learning about my schedule, having my ortho orientation, lots of free dinners and outings, and finally getting my pager and my ID badge. It has truly been a whirlwind, but I must say that the thing I’m most excited about is what I saw on Hopkins’ website on June 30th (see below):

Something about seeing it on their website made it a lot more official for me than even having the long white coat, lol. Anyways, during that orientation time they gave us a 1hr long lecture on social media and what we can and can not post on the internet. The general idea is to basically NEVER EVER NEVER EVER NEVER EVER mention ANYTHING about a patient. Even if I have completely deidentified a patient in my description, its still somehow a HIPPA violation. They gave me enough examples about residents being let go over social media issues that I certainly was scared into submission. So I will continue to blog but I really can’t talk about patient care at all. I do however plan to describe as much as possible about what it is like to be an orthopaedic surgery resident.

So how did my first day of work go? It was actually extremely cool. I got into the hospital around 4:45am along with my fellow ortho intern in order to work on the list. Normally it takes a seasoned intern about 30 minutes to get the patient list ready for the day. However since this was our first day, we wanted at least 1 hour to figure everything out and make sure our computer log ins worked. We got the list done and then met with our chief resident who divided the patients up among us. He thankfully didn’t assign the interns any patients and instead told us to follow a PGY-2 to see how its done. The first patient I saw we walked into their room and the PGY-2 introduced himself has Dr. So and So. For the past 4 years I’ve been introducing my self as the medical student or Student Doctor Brooks. This time however I said Dr. Brooks and I felt as if I had told the patient a lie. I know I graduated last month, but I still felt like I had to earn the title of Doctor, lol. Over the course of the day it got a little easier to say Dr. Brooks but the feeling of speaking incorrectly didn’t go away. After we saw our patients I watched the PGY-2 write a note for each of them. Hopkins is now completely electronic so instead of the quick hand written progress note that I wrote when I was a Sub-I here, we actually had to sit down and type everything out…times are a changin.

After the notes were written, we met with the chief again to give an update on our patients. Then we went to Boards, which is a session in which the on-call-resident presents all of the patients they saw overnight in the ED including their X-rays and the attendings have the opportunity to pimp the resident. When I start my ortho rotation in a couple of months I will be sitting in from of all those attendings doing the same thing….yeah scary, lol.

After Boards, the PGY-2s, 3s, 4s, and chiefs went to the OR and I immediately learned what interns primarily do…we take care of the floor. I vaguely understood this as a medical student but not really because as a student you go to the OR in order to spend as much time with the attendings who would be writing your evaluations. But now as an intern I write orders, write discharge summaries, order meds for discharge, check labs, and see consults down in the ED. If I’ve taken care of all of this THEN I get to go to the OR. Its going to be hard to get used to this new role but I’m sure it will be second nature very soon.

I really want have many interesting things to blog about this month because I am technically on PM&R which isn’t an ortho or general surgery rotation. In August when I start ortho I will have a lot more to say. Let me end with telling you what my schedule will look like for my intern year:

PM&R (1 month) –> Vacation (2 weeks) –> Orthopaedic Trauma/Oncology (2.5 months) –> Radiology/Pathology  (1 month) –> Vascular Surgery (1 month) –> Surgical ICU (1 month) –> Plastic Surgery (1 month) –> Surgical Oncology (1 month) –> Trauma Surgery (1 month) –> Pediatric Surgery (1 month) –> Anesthesia (1 month)

DoctaJay, M.D.

June 2, 2011 by DoctaJay

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On Sunday I left my short white coat behind and became a man, lol also known as a Doctor of Medicine. I walked across the stage, received my diploma and just like that became a doctor. After the ceremony many family members and friends asked me, “How does it feel to finally be a doctor?” And to be honest the only answer that really fit was, “It feels weird.”

I was sitting down talking with my wife who also got her M.D. this past Sunday about how she felt and she agreed with my answer. All our lives we have worked towards one goal, and that goal was to become a doctor. As we tried to get to that final goal of becoming a doctor we had multiple mini goals that had to be reached: 1. Go to a good college 2. take the required science classes and be at the top of the class 3. Do college research during the summer instead of chilling at the beach like your classmates 4. Get involved with some community service project in order show that your have a heart with that brain of yours 5. Study for the MCAT 6. Do well on the MCAT 7. Get into medical school 8. Do well on step 1 9. Do well on step 2 10.spend $5000+ applying for a residency spot 11. Match into a residency spot hopefully in the field that you prefer and hopefully in the city that you prefer.

I have always had a goal to look forward to, and now that I have reached the final one my mind screams, “What’s the next goal?” “Are you sure there is nothing more to stress about?!” Now of course there is still residency, and I am sure that Hopkins will give me enough goals to reach but it just isn’t the same as medical school. Residency will have much less tests (probably 1-2 per year) and will require more self learning.

Either way I am confident that I will not feel like a doctor until I get my long white coat and see my first patient on July 1st. But I praise God that He brought my wife and I through this process with so many positive experiences and so many testimonies. I earnestly look forward to the next phase in our lives and am excited to see what work God has for me at my new residency.

Something the Lord Made

May 1, 2011 by DoctaJay

I recently watched a movie called Something the Lord Made. It starred Mos Def playing the role of Vivien Thomas, a black carpenter who helped the famous Dr. Blalock of Johns Hopkins develop the surgery to correct Tetrology of Fallot. Vivien Thomas went just about his whole life without any official acknowledgement of his role in the process until finally, when racial tensions eased in the hospital he was given an honorary doctor and a painted protrait which hangs beside Dr. Blalock’s picture to this day. If Vivien Thomas could accomplish so much without a college education then how much more should I expect myself to accomplish? Overall, I was inspired by the story and would encourage any aspiring minority and non-minority doctors to see it if you haven’t already.

Viven Thomas helped to change the world through medicine, and while the movie didn’t delve too much into it, some of that change came at the cost of his family. And not just his…in the movie Dr. Blalock’s wife mentioned that their daughter wished she could be a patient so that she could see her daddy. I never want to her that from my wife or daughter, yet Dr. Blalock and Viven Thomas changed the world! There always seems to be the delicate balance. But the question I will be pondering for the day is: “Has there been anyone in history who has changed the world without sacrificing their family in the process?”

Good quote

April 20, 2011 by DoctaJay

So I was reading a paper written by Dr. Augustus White III, M.D., entitled: Compassionate patient care and personal survival in orthopaedics. A 35-year perspective. Dr. White is not only a prominent name among minority orthopods but in the entire field itself. With that said, I was reading his paper and he had a wonderful quote in it from a lecture that Sir William Osler gave at Yale in 1913 that I wanted to share because I plan to live by it for the rest of my career:

“I have held four professorships in medicine. I have written a successful textbook. You would think a man with these achievements might be some kind of genius or have some special gift, but this is not true. These things were accomplished without any unusual talent. I am going to tell you how I acheieved these things, and you may not believe me, but I am going to tell you anyway because there may be at least one person here who will believe me. I am not brilliant…What I have done is to simply follow this dictum: Do today’s work today.”

It is so true that we can accomplish so much more if we just do today’s work today, without the constant evil of procrastination. So this will be my mantra from here on out. If it worked for Dr. Osler it can certainly work for me.

Just Thought of This

April 5, 2011 by DoctaJay

I was talking with my mom and she was mentioning that the thing they love about me is that I don’t know how talented I am. In all honesty I don’t see myself as especially talented but I know all mothers probably think their kid is special. However I think her comment brought up an issue of humility, and how important it is to success in this world. So from her comment I came up with this quote:

“Always be consciously oblivious to how great you are, and you will continue to be great.”- DoctaJay

The Bible is riddled with examples of how much farther God will take you in life when you are humble. One parable that I just read is from Luke 14:7-11:

7 When he noticed how the guests picked the places of honor at the table, he told them this parable: 8 “When someone invites you to a wedding feast, do not take the place of honor, for a person more distinguished than you may have been invited. 9 If so, the host who invited both of you will come and say to you, ‘Give this person your seat.’ Then, humiliated, you will have to take the least important place. 10 But when you are invited, take the lowest place, so that when your host comes, he will say to you, ‘Friend, move up to a better place.’ Then you will be honored in the presence of all the other guests. 11 For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”

Humility is not something that comes easy to any person, particularly someone going into surgery, but I pray that I can hold fast to God’s word and remember that true greatness and success comes not from man’s praise but God’s.

Update

April 5, 2011 by DoctaJay

So it’s been a couple of weeks since match day and the euphoria is still there. I keep racking my brain trying to figure out what I did to match at my #1 program which just happens to be at a top hospital. As I think back, yes I worked very hard, yes I didn’t go home, yes I was easy to work with, but so were many other students. No matter how I hash it out the conclusion I keep coming to was Gods promise to those who keep his Sabbath as described in Isaiah 58:13-15.

God is truly amazing and it is slowly setting in that I will be an official resident at Hopkins, lol. On match day I just about cried when I saw the letter. I couldn’t believe that after all of those hours away from my pregnant wife and all the disappointments about interview invitations or scores, that God still allowed me to match at an amazing program.

So with that said I have been busy filling out all the forms that they have been sending like the contract, temporary license, long white coat order form(oh yeah), background check, etc. This is really happening and I am excited to see what God has in store for me at my new job.

BTW I just found out that I am the first med student from LLU to match at Hopkins for ortho. I could let that go to my head but I know that God had 99% of the responsibility for this so instead I will continue to give him the glory.

My daughter is doing great….growing quite big. Below you can see me already grooming her into a future orthopod lol:

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March 22, 2011 by DoctaJay

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I matched at Hopkins!!!

March 17, 2011 by DoctaJay

God is just awesome!!!

I matched!!!

March 14, 2011 by DoctaJay

6 Messages a Med Student Could See on Black Monday

March 9, 2011 by DoctaJay

Black Monday Messages

1. Congratulations, you have matched!
2. Congratulations, you have matched to an advanced position but not a first year position!
3. Congratulations, you have matched to a one- year position!
4. We are sorry, you did not match to any position.
5. You are NOT matched because you did not submit a certified rank order list.
6. You are NOT matched because you are withdrawn.

Source: http://www.nrmp.org/res_match/special_part/ind_app/match_results.html

NRMP Rank List Deadline: 2/23/11 @ 9 p.m. EST

February 23, 2011 by DoctaJay

The deadline to submit my rank list on the NRMP website just passed about 2 hrs ago, and I am truly relieved that now neither myself or the programs can change our lists. Now we both wait to see if the Match process will give us who we want. Of course it is no secret that I want to match at Johns Hopkins. I believe that God has already worked this out, so now I just need to wait and pray. The computer has probably already run the match algorithim and finished matching everyone. So why does it take another 3 weeks to get us our results? Well from what I have heard, they double check everything to make sure that when I open my letter on March 17, that the right program appears there. Also, its the NRMP that prints out the match letters and they mail it to every medical school. So I guess all that mailing and shipping takes time too. Honestly, we should just find out immediately via computer. No need to drag it out and have an official ceremony, but such is life. So with that said, below is my final certified rank list:

 

I got a total of 15 interview invitations. The places I turned down were Hamot, NYMC-Westchester, University of Maryland, and Wayne State University. I had to turn down the first 3 programs because they only interviewed on the Sabbath and would not change their date for me. And Wayne State’s interview conflicted with another program that I preferred more, so I had to cancel that one. Looking at the AAMC Charting Outcomes document, if I had actually gone to all 15 interviews, I would have had about a 97% chance of matching. However, because I honored God by deciding not to interview on the Sabbath, I believe that I now have a 100% chance of matching.I really can’t wait to see what God is going to do in 3 weeks!

Phone Calls

February 23, 2011 by DoctaJay

Its been a crazy couple of weeks, so sorry if I haven’t had the chance to blog in a while…but some really amazing things have happened during that time. About 3 weeks ago I was driving home from the gym when I got a call from some unknown Maryland number. I picked up the phone and it was Dr. X from Hopkins! My heart started to race, but I tried to calm myself down as much as possible in order to sound normal over the phone.

Dr. X asked me if I had any questions about Hopkins and overall after our talk I had better understanding how they felt about me.

Now who knows…perhaps I could have read too deep into my convo with Dr. X. If that is the case then maybe I won’t match there, but if Hopkins doesn’t come through I have a strong feeling that UVA will. So either way hopefully I will get the opportunity to get closer to my family. But I now feel foolish for thinking this way; if I prayed to God for something, and told Him in my prayers that I had faith that He would answer it, then why am I so pessimistic when I seems like God has answered my prayer in the most clear way? So for here on out, I have an unwavering faith that God will allow me to match at Hopkins. And when I do match at Hopkins I will tell everyone of His goodness, and how He keeps the promises made in Isaiah 58: 13, 14:

13 “If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath
and from doing as you please on my holy day,
if you call the Sabbath a delight
and the LORD’s holy day honorable,
and if you honor it by not going your own way
and not doing as you please or speaking idle words,

14 then you will find your joy in the LORD,
and I will cause you to ride in triumph on the heights of the land
and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob.”

For the mouth of the LORD has spoken.

When I made my decision to not interview on the Sabbath, I was sure that it was what God wanted me to do, but I was unsure if I would still match after turning down 4 programs. But in God’s word He tells us that for those who honor His holy day, He will elevate them to heights they never thought and bless them. If I believe that God’s word is true, then there is absolutely no need to worry. In fact, my chances of matching probably increased significantly because of my decision to keep the Sabbath instead of interview. Now I am not saying that God doesn’t bless folks who break the Sabbath by interviewing; I know of plenty of Adventist students from LLU that interviewed on the Sabbath and matched into great programs. However, I believe that God offers a special blessing to those who strive to keep the Sabbath; I believe that blessing for me was not just matching into ortho (I probably could have done that by attending all 15 of my interviews), but matching into my #1 choice, which is an opportunity that not everyone gets.

So now the countdown begins. I have about 3 weeks until match day. I can’t wait to confirm what I believe God has already shown me.

Rank List Certified!

February 19, 2011 by DoctaJay

 

So with one click of my mouse, I have certified my rank list on the NRMP website…its now up to God! Man so much has happened since my last blog post…serious testimonies regarding this whole match process. But I’ve learned a lesson the hard way (a story I can’t share on here), that I have absolutely no idea who reads my blog, and therefore I need to restrain from mentioning certain things on here. So with that said, I will certainly take the password off of my posts once I match, but for things related to my workplace, I will have to be much more vague and careful. With that said, I entreat your prayers as I continue to pray to God for His blessings on March 17!

I’m a Dad!

January 29, 2011 by DoctaJay

My little girl was born on January 3, 2011. I got to deliver her!

Interview Updates

November 22, 2010 by DoctaJay

So below is my overall interview and rejection tally that I have been running. The first category list programs that haven’t emailed anyone yet about interviews so I still have a chance at 32 places…hopefully. The next category lists programs that have either invited other applicants for interviews or rejected them, neither of which I have received so this means that I am waitlisted at these programs, but still have a chance there. And the last 2 categories list my interviews and straight up rejections. So I am actually pretty encouraged that I technically have a chance at 51 more programs. To be honest, I really only want like 3-5 more interviews to be content. I know that God doesn’t need me to have 15 interviews to match, but I guess personally it would make me feel better. So yeah, I will keep my ears posted for anymore emails from programs….pray church :-) .

Haven’t Sent Out Interviews

  1. Albany Medial Center
  2. Brown University Program
  3. Dartmouth-Hitchcock Medical Center Program
  4. Drexel University College of Medicine/Hahnemann University Hospital Program
  5. George Washington University Program
  6. HSS
  7. Kalamazoo Center for Medical Studies/Michigan State University Program
  8. Lenox Hill
  9. Long Island Jewish
  10. Los Angeles County-Harbor-UCLA Medical Center Program
  11. Maimonides Medical Center Program
  12. Medical University of South Carolina Program
  13. Monmouth Medical Center Program
  14. Mount Sinai School of Medicine Program
  15. New York Medical College- Westchester
  16. NYU-HJD
  17. Palmetto Health/University of South Carolina School of Medicine Program
  18. Rush University Medical Center Program
  19. Seton Hall University School of Health and Medical Sciences Program
  20. Stanford
  21. Temple University Hospital Program
  22. UMDNJ-New Jersey Medical School Program
  23. UMDNJ-Robert Wood Johnson Medical School Program
  24. Union Memorial Hospital Program
  25. University of California (Irvine) Program
  26. University of California (San Diego) Program
  27. University of California Davis
  28. University of Florida College of Medicine Jacksonville Program
  29. University of Maryland Program
  30. University of Pennsylvania Program
  31. University of South Florida Program
  32. University of Texas Houston

Not Rejected Yet

  1. Allegheny General Hospital-Western Pennsylvania Hospital Medical Education Consortium (AGH) Program
  2. University of Tennessee Program
  3. Carolinas Medical Center Program
  4. Duke University Hospital Program
  5. Emory University Program
  6. Geisinger Health System Program
  7. Grand Rapids Medical Education and Research Center/Michigan State University Program
  8. McGaw Medical Center of Northwestern University Program
  9. Orlando Health Program
  10. Penn State University/Milton S Hershey Medical Center Program
  11. University of Connecticut Program
  12. University of Florida Program
  13. University of Pittsburgh Medical Center Medical Education Program
  14. Virginia Commonwealth University Health System Program
  15. University of Vermont
  16. Thomas Jefferson University Program
  17. Hamot Medical Center Program
  18. Detroit Medical Center
  19. University of Tennessee College of Medicine at Chattanooga Program

INTERVIEWS

  1. Atlanta Medical Center Program
  2. Baylor College of Medicine Program
  3. Henry Ford Hospital Program
  4. Howard University Program
  5. Loma Linda University Program
  6. University at Buffalo Program
  7. Wayne State University Program
  8. Johns Hopkins University Program
  9. University of Texas Medical Branch Galveston
  10. University of Virginia Program

REJECTIONS

  1. Albert Einstein Healthcare Network Program
  2. Georgetown University Hospital Program
  3. New York Presbyterian Hospital (Columbia Campus) Program
  4. Stony Brook (Downstate)
  5. University of Chicago Program
  6. University of Michigan Program
  7. University of North Carolina Hospitals Program
  8. University of Texas Southwestern
  9. Wake Forest University School of Medicine Program
  10. Yale-New Haven Medical Center Program
  11. University of Miami
  12. Tufts Medical Center Program
  13. Greenville Hospital System/University of South Carolina School of Medicine Program
  14. Massachusetts General Hospital/Brigham and Women’s Hospital/Harvard Medical School Program
  15. University of Southern California/LAC+USC Medical Center Program

Interviewing on the Sabbath

November 20, 2010 by DoctaJay

Happy Sabbath! Praise God that this hour not only marks the beginning of the Sabbath, but also the last orthopaedic surgery away elective that I will take as a 4th year medical student. I had a great 3 months, but being away from my pregnant wife has truly been harder than I imagined. I board the plane back to Cali tomorrow and look forward to 2 months of vacation and interviewing.

When I decided that I wanted to pursue a career in orthopaedic surgery I began to peruse different websites like orthogate.org/forums. As I looked at various threads from last years match, I realized that a lot of programs that I might be interested in only interviewed on the Sabbath. Immediately a conflict started to build up inside of me. I knew more than anything that I wanted to become an orthopaedic surgeon, but I wasn’t quite sure whether it was important enough to interview on the Sabbath for it. For a month I went through a mental battle, convincing and unconvincing myself that interviewing on the Sabbath was a means to an end. I reasoned that surely God healed on the Sabbath and so I would have no issues working as a resident on the Sabbath, and interviewing on the Sabbath was simply a means to that end. But something deep inside of me just felt uneasy about the prospect…I couldn’t discern whether it was God or just the strict concept of the Sabbath that I formed at Oakwood University. Either way I had to figure it out for myself, so I set out on a month long Bible study where I looked at every text in the Bible related to the Sabbath. I wanted to find out what God’s word said about the Sabbath, to make sure that the way I was feeling was based in the Bible and not in tradition or man’s word. I looked at each text and jotted down what message I felt that God was trying to teach me. Below are the texts that caught my attention:

Isaiah 1:13: God really lays into Israel in this whole chapter. He starts off in verse 11 basically saying why do you even waste your time making sacrifices to me? I really don’t take pleasure in the blood of lambs. He goes on to mention that many of the ordinances and celebrations (like the Sabbath) really lose their value when they are being kept by people who have rebelled against God. I think this is interesting, because as important as the Sabbath is, God calls it an “evil assembly” when it is being kept by people who have rebelled against him. So while the Sabbath is an important and holy day, set aside by God, He is not impressed if I show him lip service by going to church to “keep the sabbath”, yet I have not yielded my whole life to him. Also, God once again stresses what he truly deems important to him. He is tiring from the New Moon celebrations and sacrifices that are performed. Instead he tells the Israelites to Stop doing wrong, to Seek Justice, to encourage the oppressed, the Defend the cause of the fatherless, and to plead the case of the widow. Overall He is telling them that it is by these actions that I see that you are a truly follower…not necessarily by making blood sacrifices are attending Sabbaths and New Moon festivals. He God doesn’t say at all that the Sabbath isn’t important, however He is trying to get the Israelites to move away from the thought that they are saved by those actions. The savior is not the day, its the relationship between me and god, which should reflect in my day to day character.

Isaiah 56: 1-6: This is a good text because it basically starts off telling us to be just, because God is coming soon. And then it transitions immediately to talking about if we do this, and don’t desecrate the sabbath, the we will be in God’s favor. But I think the most important part is when he says that the Eunich or the stranger who know God should not think that simply because of their social status or their heritage that they wouldn’t be able to partake in God’s blessings. God clearly said that if you serve Him, and don’t desecrate His Sabbaths (whether you are a jew or a stranger) then He would welcome you into His arms. As to what it means to desecrate the Sabbath I do not fully know. The passage seems to imply that being just and doing what is right is a part of not desecrating the Sabbath, but it is still a vague term. If I had to think about it a little longer…..I know that the Sabbath is a day where we worship and reflect on God and serve others. If you aren’t doing that 24/7 are you desecrating the Sabbath?

Isaiah 58:13, 14

The message bible translation: “If you watch your step on the Sabbath and don’t use my holy day for personal advantage, If you treat the Sabbath as a day of joy, God’s holy day as a celebration, If you honor it by refusing ‘business as usual,’ making money, running here and there—Then you’ll be free to enjoy God! Oh, I’ll make you ride high and soar above it all. I’ll make you feast on the inheritance of your ancestor Jacob.” Yes! God says so!

Amplified Bible:   13If you turn away your foot from [traveling unduly on] the Sabbath, from doing your own pleasure on My holy day, and call the Sabbath a [spiritual] delight, the holy day of the Lord honorable, and honor Him and it, not going your own way or seeking or finding your own pleasure or speaking with your own [idle] words 14Then will you delight yourself in the Lord, and I will make you to ride on the high places of the earth, and I will feed you with the heritage [promised for you] of Jacob your father; for the mouth of the Lord has spoken it.(E)

NASB:  13″If because of the sabbath, you (AL)turn your foot

From doing your own pleasure on My holy day,

And call the sabbath a (AM)delight, the holy day of the LORD honorable,

And honor it, desisting from your (AN)own ways,

From seeking your own pleasure

And (AO)speaking your own word,

14Then you will take (AP)delight in the LORD,

And I will make you ride (AQ)on the heights of the earth;

And I will feed you with the heritage of Jacob your father,

For the (AR)mouth of the LORD has spoken.”

Out of all the verses that I have read so far this one seems to most closely advise me against interviewing for orthopaedics on the Sabbath. Particularly where it talks about not going “my own way” on the Sabbath, or “doing as I please”. The next question that comes to mind is whether interviewing on the Sabbath actually counts as pleasure? Does interviewing count as something that will please me, or is it just a means to an end? The message bible (or whatever it is) mentions that I should not use that holy day for “my personal advantage”. I feel that interviewing on the Sabbath is using that day for my personal advantage because I am doing it in order to of course see if I would be happy at that institution and also doing it to garner enough interviews so that I can be more confident that I won’t have to scramble. On another note though, if I truly had faith in God that he would allow me to match, the number of programs that I rank wouldn’t make a difference. But yeah, I could also argue the opposite that interviewing on the Sabbath is actually a way for me to know more about the program I will potentially be matching at, allowing me to make an intelligent decision as to where I will be spending the next 5 years of my life at. If I am unhappy for 5 years straight, I can’t see how my family life or overall psyche will be any better. However I think the most important part here is what I read in the Message Bible version…it says that by not doing as I please on God’s holy day or speaking whatever I want, that I can then enjoy God! I think that is an important point because by filling the Sabbath day with all of these extra things that are for my personal advantage I take my focus off of God and therefore I truly can’t enjoy the day set aside for my communion with God. Its an important concept that doesn’t just apply to ortho interviews but for my whole life. The point of the Sabbath day is the use it for what it was made for, communing with, enjoying, and worshiping God.

Jeremiah 17:19-27: The most important message I got from this passage was that the Sabbath is not a day to bear a burden, whether that be a literal burden in terms of working or just a burden of life. Even if my burden is something that is just psychologically troubling to me, I need to give that up to God and let it go on the Sabbath. I think this text further points out that God would not have me do whatever work I desire on His day. Another important issue here is that just like in Isaiah 58, God promises certain blessings if His people obey His Sabbath command. He promises Israel that if they do not carry and loads or burdens on the Sabbath that He will make sure that a descendant of David is forever on the throne and that the city of Jerusalem will reign forever. However curses come also if the Sabbath is not obeyed…He says that Jerusalem will be consumed in an unquenchable fire. So does this only apply to the Israelites or all of his people, even in this modern day? Does it apply to me?

Ezekiel 22:8,26: This text points out a couple of important points. First, God wants us to make a clear distinction between the holy and the common, as He did himself. I think that too often I personally let some things go by doing common things on a holy day, but God won’t tolerate that. He also will not tolerate me closing my eyes to keeping the Sabbath, particularly when I know and have been taught that I should. But overall, the distinction between holy and common and clean and unclean is important to make. Because when Satan can convince that all are the same, then you truly have stopped “remembering to keep it holy”.

Ezekiel 44:24: The actual verse was not very helpful for expanding my understanding of the Sabbath day. However verse 23 highlights an important concept. It says: They [the priests] are to teach the people the difference between the holy and the common. This is a concept that is important to the Sabbath also. If I am unable to discern what is holy and what is not, there doesn’t seem to truly be a way that I can keep the Sabbath as God would want me. Back in creation, God himself made the Sabbath day holy. There is nothing I can change about the holiness of that day. So what happens when I do common things, on a holy day?

Matthew 12:1-12: It is so refreshing to finally hear from Jesus himself what the Sabbath should be about. Jesus and his disciples were picking grain in the fields on the Sabbath, and the Pharisees called them out on it and told them that they are not allowed to pick grain on the Sabbath according to the 4th commandment which says not to work. Jesus gave them 2 examples where the ”the law” was seemingly broken, but in the end, it actually was not because mercy was shown.

The first example was when David entered the temple and ate consecrated bread (1 Sam 21:1-6). Now this was clearly a law being broken here because only the priests were supposed to eat this bread. But you have to understand what happened before this. In the previous chapters Saul has just tried to kill David and he fled away. Then he talked with his good friend Jonathan asking him to confirm whether Saul was still is angry with him and wants to kill him or not. Jonathan confirms that Saul is still hot with anger (after he almost killed Jonathan for just mentioning David’s name) and tells David he must go forever because Saul is very angry. So David set’s off with his men to flee from Saul. It is clear that God is leading David throughout all this, and that Saul is filled with the anger of Satan. So during all of this running away, David and his men have no food and are getting weak. So they come upon a temple, and David walks in alone and asks for some food to eat. The priest tells him that they have no normal food, but they do have the consecrated bread. Rather than the priest sticking to the rule of the law and denying David and his men bread, he shows MERCY and feeds them, so that they might have energy on their treacherous journey. In this case MERCY was more important.

The next example is where the priests are charged with going into the temple on the Sabbath day, which inherently is breaking the Sabbath. Yet, God allows them to make a sacrifice on the Sabbath to cover this. Again, MERCY is shown over sacrifice.

So in the same way, would the Pharisees rather that Jesus and his disciples starve on the Sabbath or that they eat? Jesus encouraged them to see MERCY before their blind sacrifice to God, which wasn’t event acceptable because they refused to show mercy to the innocent. In fact, Jesus quoted 3 different times in the Old Testament about what he esteems ABOVE sacrifice:

Hosea 6:6: For I desire mercy, not sacrifice and acknowledgment of God rather than burnt offerings

Micah 6:6-8: With what shall I come before the Lord and bow down before the exalted God? Shall I come before him with burnt offerings, with calves a year old? Will the Lord be pleased with thousands of rams, with ten thousand rivers of oil? Shall I offer my firstborn for my transgression, the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul? He has showed you, O man what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

Matthew 9:13: Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners? On hearing this Jesus said, It is not the healthy who need a doctor, But the sick. But go and learn what this means: God desires mercy, not sacrifice.

Even after all of this teaching, when Jesus saw a man in the temple with a crippled hand, the Pharisees looked at him again, questioning whether it was lawful to heal others on the Sabbath day. And Jesus had to point out their hypocrisy. They would easily pick up a sheep from a hole on the Sabbath, but they were questioning whether to help a human. Jesus answered that yes, it is okay to heal and help others on the Sabbath. And even more importantly, he mentioned who was the Lord of the Sabbath..Jesus. If Christ reigns over that day, then he would have the final word over interpretation as to what is breaking the Sabbath or not.

So what does this mean? Does it mean that I can now interview for orthopaedics on the Sabbath because my focus should be on helping others and not following every rule of the law? I do not necessarily think this is the case, and I think that would be warping what I just learned. Jesus did not say that everything else is permissible on the Sabbath as long as you show mercy. He still wants me not to “go my own way” as Isaiah 58:13-15 says. However, if I am presented with a situation where I have to chose between “breaking the Sabbath and showing mercy” or “not breaking the Sabbath by not showing mercy”, I should chose mercy, because Jesus is the Lord of the Sabbath and he would have me act no other way.

Matthew 28:1: This text once again clearly shows me how much importance that Jesus put on the Sabbath day. Reading the later portion of chapter 27 makes it very clear that jesus died at like 9am on friday morning….well before the sabbath. and he rested in his tomb throughout the sabbath, and then ended his rest on sunday, the day clearly labeled in this verse as the first day of the week. So this made me think…if God finds the Sabbath so important that He himself chose the rest on that day (a 2nd time, because the first time was at Creation) then is there anything more important that i would purposely chose over resting on the Holy Sabbath day? I mean clearly there are things that God would have me do on the Sabbath, especially doing good and showing mercy, but i need to have a pretty good reason to step outside those bounds. No matter how i reason with myself there is absolutely no way that interviewing on the sabbath is important enough to not spend that day of rest with God. If God thought that day important enough to rest himself, even in death how much more myself in my menial tasks and appointments.

Mark 2:23-28: The most perplexing phrase in this passage is that of “The sabbath was made for man, and not man for the sabbath, even so the son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath”. I have reread this text in its various translations:

The original Greek says: 27 And he said to them the Sabbath for sake of man came into being And not man for sake of the Sabbath 28: so then Lord is Son of man even of the Sabbath

TNIV: 27 Then he said to them, “The Sabbath was made for people, not people for the Sabbath. 28 So the Son of Man is Lord even of the Sabbath.”

WE: 7Jesus went on to say, `The Sabbath was made for the good of man. Man was not made for the Sabbath. 28So the Son of Man rules over the Sabbath day.’

WYC: 27 And he said to them, The sabbath is made for man, and not man for the sabbath; 28 and so man’s Son is Lord also of the sabbath.

AMP: 27And Jesus said to them, The Sabbath was made on account and for the sake of man, not man for the Sabbath;(B) 28So the Son of Man is Lord even of the Sabbath.

MSG: “The Sabbath was made to serve us; we weren’t made to serve the Sabbath. The Son of Man is no lackey to the Sabbath. He’s in charge!”

I like how the worldwide english version says it, because it makes it clear that the Sabbath was made for the Good of man…for the betterment of man. This seems to fit within the context of this passage where Jesus and his hungry disciples were berated by the Pharisees for picking grain on the Sabbath when they were hungry. From my previous research on this same passage in Matthew it is clear that Jesus prefers Mercy over anything else. So it makes sense that he would stress that if mercy could be shown on the Sabbath then do it, because that is what the Sabbath was created for…for the good of man. Now does that mean that everything is permissible? No. But then the question arises, “What is considered to be ‘for the good of man’?” By me interviewing on the Sabbath, I will increase my chances of matching home close to my family, which will increase my chance of having family assist my wife and I with our baby, which will also in turn allow me to help others with orthopaedic conditions, not just during the week, but on Sabbath also. So is it now permissible? The fact that I just went through multiple logical steps to explain interviewing on the Sabbath shows that I am forcing the issue.

Mark 3:1-6: This text basically repeats the scene in Matt. 12 where Jesus goes into the synagogue to teach and while there he heals a man with a withered hand. The Pharisees wanted to accuse him but he asked them which was better to do on the Sabbath day? was it better to do good or evil? It was a very simple question that they refused to answer seeing the trap in any response.  It is very clear that God is stressing how important it is to treat the sabbath day not just as a day that you enjoy and spend with him, but also as a day where you show mercy to others. A day where you give life and help others. So i praise God that my profession makes that pretty easy to do. However I have wondered if it is possible to go too far in doing what my profession calls for on the Sabbath day. While setting a bone or going to the OR is just fine, is holding a formal teaching session okay also? Going to research conferences? Interviewing future residents? It all seems like a fuzzy line that basically allows anything to be permissible if you let it.

Luke 16:11-17: This is perhaps the same example as in the other gospels but it sounds different. Again Jesus is teaching in church on the Sabbath, and there is a woman who has been bent over for 18 years due to an evil spirit. Jesus heals her, and the Pharisees object, citing that there are 6 days to work, and people who want to be healed on the Sabbath should instead come back on another day. Jesus called them out on their hypocrisy, by citing how they would have no problems untying their donkey to water them on the Sabbath, but they were taking issue with Jesus untying that woman from the binds of Satan. I think in addition to the Pharisees having a wrong view of the Sabbath, I could also see an air of, “Stop looking at Jesus…look at me” thing going on. These people prided themselves on the honor and attention that THEY received on the Sabbath, and with Jesus healing on that day even that was taken away from them. I think this is also a warning in my ministry to not get so caught up in the attention that I receive that I can’t even recognize when Satan has overtaken me. I must humbly seek God each day, knowing my true state of character. Doing this will prevent me from ever going down that bad route. Overall, this passage once again proves that God by his example says its good to help others on the Sabbath.

Luke 14:1-6: This is basically the same story of whether it is lawful or not to heal on the Sabbath. But reading further on notice how this time Jesus is actually eating at a prominent Pharisees house. When Jesus notices how the guests were choosing the seat of honor he told them a parable about how choosing a seat of honor for yourself can certainly lead to humiliation but allowing someone to give you the seat of honor leads to honor. He basically ends with a quote that i need to internalize during the entirety of my life, “For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted”. People may exalt me but i must always learn to humble myself, and perhaps then God would see fit to have me exalted. But if I seek exaltation then I am setting myself up to be humbled, which is never fun. In this interview and away rotation process I need to make sure that my humility is what shows, not my need for recognition or my pride.

Luke 23:54-56: This is another recap of when Joseph of Arimethea asked Pilot for the body of Jesus and buried it in a tomb. The women who had come from Galilee were with Joseph as he laid the body in the tomb, marking the place. They ran home and prepared spices to put on the body of Jesus, but verse 56 explicitly says that they restrained themselves from rushing back to the body of Jesus with the spices, and instead they rested on the Sabbath day, “in obedience to the commandment”. So clearly, even after the death of Jesus his followers are still adhering to the Sabbath commandment.

John 5:9-18: Basically this is another story of Jesus healing someone on the Sabbath and the Pharisees taking issue with it. Besides the obvious points that can be brought up about how the Pharisees were more concerned about what could and couldn’t be done on the Sabbath than the fact that a man had been healed. I found it very interesting that in verse 6, Jesus asked this crippled man, “Do you want to get well?”. This man had been crippled for 38 years of his life, and Jesus asked IF he wanted to be healed. It seems an odd question to ask a man who is sitting by a pool that is rumored to offer healing properties when the water is stirred. It seems obvious that the man would not desire to be in his current condition anymore…but is it? If I look at my life, there are numerous times where I continually simmered in my own sin, waxing and waning between gaining the victory “supposedly” and sliding back into sin. It was not until recently, that I am sure God asked me the same question, “DoctaJay, do you want to be healed?”. Or in other words, do I want to stay in my same situation, or am i willing to do what it takes to finally gain the victory overnsin. I even see this behavior in the clinic or the hospital. A patient has a chronic disease which can probably be put at stay if they would just adhere to treatment, and yet they don’t. And yet this patient still refuses to take their insulin, or they refuse to check their sugars, or they refuse to exercise or quit smoking or quit drinking. And to those patients, I am sure sometimes as a doctor you want to ask them, “Do you want to be healed?”. “Are you happy in your current state?” I think that by asking this question, Jesus is putting the ball back in our own court. He is certainly capable and definitely willing to heal us…to heal me, but do I want to be healed? Do I actually want to rid myself of this sickness called sin? Because if I am, God is ready to take it away forever.

John 7:22,23: This is basically another side of the whole story of Jesus healing on the Sabbath. Jesus is at a feast in Judea and he gets up to speak in front of the crowd. He tells them that they were so worked up because he healed on Sabbath, yet they had no issues circumcising a man on the Sabbath according to the law of Moses. So why do you have no problem healing one part of a man, but have a problem when I heal the whole man. It was a simple question that once again forced the Jews to figure out whether they understood the spirit of the law, or whether they were enforcing something that God had never quite intended in the beginning. For me, it is quite clear in so many ways that God has no issues with me healing on the Sabbath.

Interestingly, after going through all the Bible texts about the Sabbath, I still needed to talk with a mentor of mine who was a practicing physician and a pastor. I felt that talking to a pastor alone wouldn’t be helpful because they only have one perspective and they wouldn’t have been able to understand how crazy the Match is. So I talked with him and about 2 minutes into my explanation to him of my Bible study he cut me off. He told me that I could read every text on the Bible but what this was really all about was my faith and trust in God. Did I trust God enough to put Him in complete control of my future by not interviewing on the Sabbath? Did I trust that regardless of how many interviews I ended up with, that He would provide me with a spot in the end? The fact was that I DIDN’T, and I hated the reality of it. Despite all of God’s previous examples in taking care of my obstacles, when this new one popped up, I started to lose trust again. But God is good because He pointed out my weakness, and showed grace, allowing me to come to Him for the strength that I lacked. So after much prayer and deliberation, I decided to not interview on the Sabbath because in it, I wouldn’t be worshiping God or helping others, just myself. I decided to give it all to God, and leave it to Him to open the doors that need to be open.

Up until this past week I hadn’t received any interviews from programs that interviewed on the Sabbath. I thought this was God’s way of allowing me to avoid the situation all together, but it turns out that that wasn’t the case. This past Tuesday I received an interview invitation from the University of Virginia,  a program that I had been interested in ever since I met 2 of their residents at the AAOS conference in New Orleans. When I saw that they only interviewed on the Sabbath my heart sank because I really wanted to check out their program and knew that they were too big of an academic program to care about accommodating me. But nevertheless I sent them the following email :

Hi Ms. XXXXX. This morning you sent me an invitation to interview at your program for either December 11 or January 8 which I am extermely happy to have received. My first introduction to UVA was at this this past year’s AAOS meeting in New Orleans. At that meeting I had a long conversation with 2 of your residents, XXXXX and XXXXXX who really got me excited about your program. Since then I have been anxiously awaiting an interview because I am positive that I would be really happy there. I think it would be a perfect fit for me due to its proximity to my family in Maryland and because of the amazing training that your residents receive there.

My only issue is that I am a Seventh-day Adventist Christian, which means that I go to church on Saturdays (similar to the Jewish faith). As much as I am amazingly excited about the prospect of interviewing at UVA, I know that I can’t because I would only be helping myself, whereas my faith calls me to help others on Saturdays. Because my faith calls me to help others on Saturdays, I would have no issue at all as a resident working in the hospital on the Sabbath (Saturday), but interviewing on Saturdays doesn’t really fall in the same category.

So I am writing this email to you to ask you, Dr. Chhabra, or Dr. Abel if there is anything that could possibly be done in my situation? Like I said before, I have waited for a while to interview at UVA and would gladly come on absolutely any other day besides Saturday, whether that is early in the morning or late at night. I know that this process is competitive and there are likely 10 other people lined up to take my interview spot, but I wanted you to know how much I did want to interview at UVA. If there is any other day I could come, even if its just me meeting with your program director or chair by myself, without the residents or without a tour I would be greatly appreciative. If this isn’t possible then I suppose I would have to understand and regretfully decline my interview day.

Thank you in advance for reading this email and I look forward to hearing from you!

I am really not very articulate so I prayed to God before writing and sent it off. In my gut I just knew that they would reply back saying that they would not be able to interview me on any other day. I mean UVA is a top 20 program, so why would they offer to set up a whole other interview day for one applicant when they could easily replace me with 30 other applicants who wanted my spot? But either way I tried to show a little faith and see what God had in store. The next day I received an email from UVA asking me if there was anyway that I would be able to attend the interview on Friday, the day before!!! They explained that this would allow me to interview Friday morning while still making the pre- interview dinner that night.  I responded back quickly and they said they would start contacting interviewers to get everything set up! Just like that my faith in God was strengthened because I just saw Him do something that was quite improbable.  I truly do serve a good and gracious god who cares about even the smallest aspects of our lives. God truly worked the interview day perfectly.  In the morning I get to interview and later that evening I will go to the pre-interview dinner where I get to meet the applicants that are interviewing on Saturday and all of UVA ‘s residents. Praise god!!

Now I may get another interview on the sabbath and that school may reject my request, but it doesn’t matter. Where ever God wants me I will end up. I will be quite honest though, when I first received the interview invitation I began I waver in my decision. Various thoughts started to run through my mind about how I was probably being way to strict with the Sabbath, or how other Adventist from my school had interviewed on the Sabbath and successfully matched into ortho, or how I didn’t even keep the Sabbath fully on a normal basis so why now all of a sudden for such an important application process? I called my wife knowing that it was Satan who was reasoning with me and not God. However I knew that by myself I was too weak to beat the deceivers logic. I praise God for my wife. I told her that I received the interview and the conflict with the Sabbath. I also told her why I was considering accepting the Sabbath interview invitation. She listened patiently and then began to remind why I had decided to not do Sabbath interviews in the first place. My last argument to her was, “What if I do all this thinking that I am pleasing God and in the end it doesn’t really matter to Him?” She responded back to me with a famous quote, “If you live your life as if there was a God and there ended up not being a God then you’ve lost nothing. However if you live your life as if there was NO GOD, and it turned out that God did exist then you’ve lost everything, especially eternal life.” That quote was what needed to hear for sure and it helped me to make my final decision to email UVA to ask for an alternate date.

I hope my struggle with this and my testimony will help other Sabbath keepers in their resolve to hold to God’s word.

Howard University: Experiences so Far

November 13, 2010 by DoctaJay

So I must admit that my first week at Howard started off really rocky. I think a major reason was that I was borderline depressed because 1) I missed my wife 2) was not looking forward to 2 more weeks of trying to impress people 3) felt like I was wasting my time rotating at a place for only 2 weeks that barely knew me. It didn’t help that my first 2 days with the Chairman here seemingly went terribly. The second day, I was in the OR with him for just one case, but 2 other residents were scrubbed  so all I could do was stand and observe.

Another thing that has kind of sucked so far is that there are like 4 other medical students on the service so it is almost impossible to get great facetime. Couple that with the fact that I am only here for 2 weeks and you can see how I started to feel like I wasted my time being here. Also, from what I have noticed, their overall operative volume “seems” low at the main hospital, so much so that this past Friday we only had 3 patients to round on! But from talking with the residents I found out that while it is true that they don’t operate as much at Howard, they only spend 3 months of each year at Howard. The rest of the time you are either at Providence Hospital, VA Hospital, Children’s Hospital of DC, or at the Washington Hospital Center. So you do get a good well-rounded experience and great operating time in those hospitals. Next week I actually switch over to Providence Hospital to see what the experience is like over there. The residents are the coolest thing about Howard…they are funny, laid back, smart, and just overall great folks. In the end, when you spend 5 years with someone you need to like them, and I don’t think I would have an issue with that at Howard at all.

After falling in love with Hopkins, its truly hard to even look at another program, even though I have to. I am honestly just ready to be done with these rotations. I feel like I am on empty in terms of energy and I am missing out on really important events in my wife’s pregnancy. I knew that it would be hard being away but this is pretty agonizing. So yeah, I’m looking forward to my last day of ortho as a medical student next Friday.

Taking the good with bad

November 13, 2010 by DoctaJay

So with the end of another week comes more rejections from SUNY-Stoney Brook and University of Chicago. Rejection, no matter how much its expected still hurts, but I refuse to look at the glass as half empty.God has truly blessed me with some great interviews and I will certainly cherish those. Just this week I was invited for an interview to the Baylor College of Medicine! I am definitely stoked about the interviews and despite the palpitations that it gives me to think about Match Day, I think that seeing each program will be a great learning experience. In order to tally everything, I still haven’t heard a rejection or acceptance from 56 of the 76 programs that I applied to. My interviews and rejections are  below:

INTERVIEWS

1. Johns Hopkins- Dec. 3
2. Loma Linda University- Jan. 13
3. Howard- interview while rotating due to sabbath conflict
4. Atlanta Medical Center- Dec. 9
5. Wayne State- Jan. 14
6. University of Buffalo- Jan. 6
7. University of Texas Medical Branch- Galveston- Jan. 10
8. Henry Ford- Dec. 7
9. Baylor College of Medicine- Dec. 10

REJECTIONS

1. Albert Einstein
2. Georgetown
3. Columbia
4. Stoney Brook
5. University of Chicago
6. University of Michigan
7. UNC- Chapel Hills
8.  UTSW
9.  Wake Forest
10. Yale

So praise God it looks like I am running almost equal with the interviews and rejections, but lets be honest…when you apply to 76 places, you have to expect a ton of rejections just due to regional bias. Interestingly enough, I haven’t really received a whole bunch of interviews from places that I thought I would. 2 of my interviews are from programs in Detroit, MI and 2 are from Texas, which are states that I haven’t even been to before. Whereas I was rejected from Georgetown which is a program in my home area. Its been described that where you get interviews is quite random and I am experiencing that. So far most of the northeast and california schools haven’t sent out invites yet, so I’m hoping that between now and Dec. 3, that I will get at least 7 more interviews. All I can do is wait and pray.

End of Hopkins. Interviews. Rejections.

November 7, 2010 by DoctaJay

So this past Friday marked my last day of rotating at Hopkins. I really really really really had a great experience there and I am so sure that it is my top choice. The Lord really blessed with some positive feedback too. The chief resident told me that all of the residents had great things to say about me, and that no one who worked with me had anything negative to say. In fact, on my last day when I had already said goodbye to everyone and was walking out of the hospital, one of the PGY-2s told me to wait up for him cause he wanted to walk me out. He told me that he wanted to walk me out just to let me know that he thinks I did a great job and the other residents who worked with me on my team thought the same thing. He said that I worked very hard and it was noticed and overall I did all the right things. He said at this point that I just need to make sure I don’t mess up my interview, and that should hopefully increase my chances of coming here. Now these are the words of man, which don’t quite matter because I know that God holds my future, but it was comforting to here that the residents were enthralled with me like I was with them. I pray that God would let me match here, but I want to be open to His will also. So yeah, we will see how it all turns out.

On another note, God has blessed me with more interview invitations, but with good there is always bad, so I have received rejections also. The rejections kind of hurt, but I honestly knew I would receive a lot of rejections because I applied to 76 programs. I would be happy with 25 interviews in the end, which means that 51 programs need to reject me, lol. So yeahI will take the good with the bad, as long as it means I will be an orthopaedic resident next year. Where I am getting interviews also seems quite random. I got some from places that I have no connection to and rejected from others that I have connections to. This process truly is random. So below is a tally of my current interviews and rejections:

INTERVIEWS

1. Johns Hopkins- Dec. 3
2. Loma Linda University- Jan. 13
3. Howard- interview while rotating due to sabbath conflict
4. Atlanta Medical Center- Dec. 9
5. Wayne State- Jan. 14
6. University of Buffalo- Jan. 6
7. University of Texas Medical Branch- Galveston- Jan. 10
8. Henry Ford- Dec. 7

REJECTIONS

1. Yale
2. Georgetown
3. Wake Forest
4. UNC-Chapel Hill

Tomorrow I start my 2 week rotation at Howard and to be honest I am almost burned out. I have been waking up ridiculously early for 2.5 months and I just want to see my pregnant wife. But this is what I need to do in order to have a job at the end, so I will grin and bear it. I just may pass out once I finish my Howard rotation.

Another interview invite!

November 2, 2010 by DoctaJay

God is truly good. Yesterday marked the day that the Dean’s letter went out and that traditionally orthopaedics interviews are supposed to start flowing in. Well yesterday I got nothing. But this afternoon when I finished a case in the OR I checked my phone at this message was awaiting me:

The University at Buffalo, Department of Orthopaedic Surgery would like to invite you to interview for a PGY 1 position for the academic year that begins in June of 2011.

Our interview dates for this year are Thursday, December 02, 2010 and Thursday, January 06, 2011.  Our interviews start at 7:30 am and will conclude no later than 4:00 pm.

We have a social hour the evening before so that you can meet our current residents and ask them questions about our program.  We encourage spouses and significant others to attend. This is held from 7:00 – 10:00 pm………….

So I am definitely ecstatic and grateful to God for one more interview. I’ve never been further north than New York City, so it should be interesting to see what Buffalo is like. So far my interview tally is: Loma Linda, Atlanta Medical Center, Hopkins, Howard, Wayne State, and now Univ. of Buffalo, bringing the total to 6! Praise God!

Step 2 CK and CS!!!

October 22, 2010 by DoctaJay

Okay, so I definitely got my Step 2 CK scores back like 2 months ago, but I am just getting around to sharing the testimony about it! God truly is so good and He listens to even our smallest prayers. I knew that I didn’t do too well on a lot of my 3rd year clerkship boards, so I was really hoping for a good grade on Step 2 CK to prove to myself and to the residency programs that I knew my clinical information. Unfortunately though when I was studying for Step 2 CK with UsmleWorld I was really struggling. I was getting a lot of questions wrong and getting really discouraged. But despite my discouragement, I prayed a simple prayer to God:

“Help me to get 10 points higher on Step 2 than I did on Step 1. ”

And God answered my prayer exactly!!! I really should have prayer for 20 points higher, lol. But it was just so encouraging to pray a specific prayer, and actually have God respond with such a blessing. It reminded of his ever present care for me and gave me strength to trust in Him during future obstacles.

So now that I have passed Step 2 CK and CS there is really nothing left that will prevent me from graduating!