So at the time of my writing this post I have exactly 1 month 3 hours and 5 minutes until I take Step 1. During this time it is impossible to talk to any second yr. medical student that doesn’t have this test on their mind for a good part of the day. There is just an amazing amount of information that you are responsible for, and the NBME can pull a question from anywhere; and God forbid if your school has a subject that generally sucks in terms of quality of teaching because that makes it all the harder to get a grasp on the subject (and trust me, every medical school has one of those subjects). So you days are left with paraoxymal anxiety, optimism that everything will work out, despair over why you even decided to attend medical school, happiness that 3rd year is approaching, and sadness that Step 1 must occur before 3rd year can start.
Through all of this it is quite easy to forget where God has a hand in all of this. I can absolutely say, without a doubt that my wife and I are both in medical school together only through a miracle. We had some serious obstacles to both getting in and the Lord cleared those away. When I was a senior in college and I saw the seemingly insurmoutable challenges we had to getting into medical school I lost faith in His ability to work things out more than I’d like to admit. And when we finally saw everything fall into place we just knew that it was God, and our faith was strengthened. Now both me and my wife face a seemingly insurmountable obstacle called Step 1, and it is so hard to remember that the same God that got us through our previous challenges can get us through this one. It’s easier said than done, but I want to truly not fret about this test anymore. I’m going to do my best and know that my best will get me where God would have me to be.
Yea I feel like that sometimes too. Sometimes You forget what God brought you through. But if He got You AND your wife into medical school, No doubt that he will see both of you guys through. I know it’s hard to see it now but later on you can look back on this and see how amazing GOD is.