So today I took the Comprehensive Basic Science Examination (CBSE) that basically every medical school in the U.S. gives their students. The CBSE is supposed to test and evaluate how well you know all the basic science you should have learned in your first 2 years of medical school. So in essence, the CBSE is almost like a pre-Step 1 test, and many have said that you tend to score within 5 points of your CBSE score. The test actually wasn’t too bad except for the fact that every since question was expansive and wordy with unneeded lab values. The test was 4 grueling hours and 200 questions long; I finished with barely any time to spare and now I have to wait about a week to get my scores back. The funny part is that I take Step 1 on the 15th, so I may not even get my CBSE scores back in time to see whether I need to push back my Step 1 date. If I do receive t before I take Step 1, I may not even look at it, because if it is low, it may depress me and cause me to jinx myself on the real deal.
At times I feel at peace about Step 1, and other times I have freak out sessions. Like today, I completely destroyed the Microbiology Subject Exam, but my Pathology Subject Exam was average. They say Pathology makes up most of Step 1, so I started to freak out, thinking that I need to push back my Step 1 date and really get on top of Pathology. After 1/2 hours of freaking out I decided to actually start trusting in God again; trusting that He will do what He has always done for me and my wife. Its so much easier said than done but I think right now that it is the only thing that will keep me sane. Anyways, I will surely enjoy my Sabbath, and then as soon as sun sets tomorrow night, I plan to hit it again, non-stop until June 15th!
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