MCAT results in

October 17, 2005 by DoctaJay

Life has been good so far. I’ve kind of gained my drive back. Gross anatomy is getting kind of hard since the teacher only believes in essay tests, not multiple choice. Anyway, Plant biology is actually becoming bearable, so yeah, we’ll see how things go. The MCAT scores came out on Friday, but I left for a NAPS retreat that day so I couldn’t post them then. So yeah here’s my break down: PS: 8, VR:9, BS: 10 = 27N

Many people may feel sad for me, but I’m pretty happy. I studied as hard as I could, and I did pretty well. My diagnostic was a 19, so I guess Kaplan does have some merit, LOL. Yeah, at my school, the highest I’ve heard so far in my class was a 30, but most of us fell in between 26 and 29. My goal was a 30, but sometimes goals aren’t always reached. But honestly, I am happy with my score. I think the Lord knew what I needed. My score is just high enough that I’m happy, but not so high that I start feeling like I’m a super genius. But yeah, I’m still a junior so I’ll apply with these scores next year. I could write more but I have a butt-load of tests this week, so I’ll have to write later. TTYL.

Ah yes, a lot of time has passed since I last posted and I have

October 1, 2005 by DoctaJay

Ah yes, a lot of time has passed since I last posted and I have to admit that I’ve been a little busy. I’ve been perusing the MCAT forum on SDN and I found out that the August 2005 MCAT scores will be viewable online on October 14, 2005!!!I’m actually really excited but also scared at the same time. I’ve told a lot of my friends that I don’t want to know their scores and I won’t tell them mine. This may seem weird by I just can’t see how any of the “What did you get?” conversations would turn out well. Either someone is going to have a higher score than me, and I’ll feel inadequate, or I’ll have a higher score than them and they’ll feel bad. I’m pretty sure its not that serious, but I’m an obsessive pre-med so you have to expect that from me.

Anyway, school is going pretty well so far. I missed the mission trip with NAPS (The National Association for the Prevention of Starvation) when they went to Biloxi, Mississippi after Hurricane Katrina; so when Hurricane Rita was looming I promised myself I would make that one. So we left last Saturday night and came back this Thursday and it was a truly amazing and blessing experience. We went down to Lake Charles, Louisiana and truly it just seems like the poor get the bad end of the stick during disasters. I’ll give you a couple of examples:

First of all, a lot of the poor neighborhoods had trees down on their houses, no power, etc. The thing about the trees was that in the upper class neighborhoods, the Asplunde trucks (a company that clears trees) were busying clearing up the neighborhoods while the poor neighborhoods had nothing.

Another bad thing was that in a lot of the poor neighborhoods, the local officials had cut off the water in the area before the hurricane hit in order to conserve water. But when Hurricane Rita hit, a lot of the water reservoirs were destroyed. So basically the people in these neighborhoods had no water before, during, or after the hurricane hit. That really broke my heart.

Another really frustrating thing we noticed was that there were cops at every exit into Lake Charles, and they weren’t letting residents back into the area. So if there was a tree on their house, and it rained then everything inside their house also would get destroyed. Now they did this to everyone but the problem is, is that most of the poor can’t afford insurance, so if everything inside their house is destroyed, they’ve lost everything they owned, while the upper class can just get an insurance check to cover it all.

Honestly, this isn’t a white/black thing, it’s a poor vs. rich thing, and its sad that its taking place in this country.

Well, anyway, besides all that, the gratitude that was shown by the people we helped was just amazing. The Lord opened up so many doors its was just amazing. As we were driving down there, we were listening to the news and all we heard was how there were cops at every exit and they were even turning away even Red Cross trucks. Sometimes the devil tries to discourage you when you are trying to do the Lord’s work, and we realized that, so we kept driving. When we got to the exit for Lake Charles we stopped, showed the cops our school identification cards, and they stepped back, saluted us, and waved us in. Now trust me, we are much smaller than the Red Cross but it just goes to show you how the Lord will work things out. So yeah, we go in to Lake Charles and the damage was pretty extensive. We drove into one of the poor neighborhoods, broke out the chain saws, and started cutting trees off peoples houses. The hugs and the tears from the people really made it all worth while. We drove through a middle class neighborhood, and we saw humongous tree in this couple’s roof. The husband was just standing outside shaking his head. We jumped out (all 30 of us) and started helping him cut down the tree. He told us that what would have taken him 3 weeks to do, we did in 2 hours, and he was so happy. The wife was so elated that she immediately started calling all of her friends and testifying. She was saying, “My husband and I didn’t know what to do with this tree in our house. We didn’t have any money to pay people to take it out, and the tree was causing more and more damage the longer it laid on top of our house. We didn’t know what to do, and all of a sudden these angels from Huntsville, Alabama arrived and truly came to our rescue.” She said more, but you basically get the point. The gratitude was so genuine, and it just reassured us that we did the right thing in leaving school and coming down there to help.

We also hooked up with the group called the Convoy of Hope, and worked with them. Basically they set up in a Wal-Mart parking lot and passed out a certain amount of ice, water, and food to each car. Their intentions were pure, but once again the poor got the short end of the stick. You see, they only give out a certain amount of water, and ice per car. But most of the poor people with no cars, have to catch a ride with their friends. So, many cars pulled up with two families represented but the Convoy of Hope was only allowed to give water enough for one family. On the flip side, we noticed that there were families with 2 or 3 cars, and they brought all the cars in order to get as much as they could. So really the haves got more, and the haves not got nothing. Besides that, many were blessed.

Honestly, I think my perspective is really changing on what I want to do. If someone gave you a week and $1,000, and they told you that if you invested wisely, they would give you $100 trillion dollars, how would you spend that week? I kind of look at life in the same way. How many years am I going to have on this earth; 90, maybe 100 years? How many years is eternity? Me being a logical person, it seems to me that if God gave me 90 years, and depending on how I spend those 90 years, I can have eternity; I think I should spend those 90 years working to get eternity. Saying all that; I’m really trying to figure out how to use my future M.D. degree to serve the Lord; simple as that. I don’t just want to go to school to learn how to treat the only 7% of the world’s population that can afford medical care. I want to learn also how to be out there in the jungles of Brazil, the rice fields of China, or the rural areas of Africa, treating people also. I don’t know, it just seems like the traditional medical training in America doesn’t really prepare you to help people out on the mission field. Now I’m not saying that I’m going to change my focus and because some naturalist. But I think it would be nice if you learned out to treat people when we don’t have any outlet to plug your EKG machine or your MRI machine in.

Ok, now that I’ve gotten that off of my mind.

I’m doing fine at this point. I’ll probably have much more to post once MCAT scores come out on the 14th. I’ll be a little scared to post them on here since, some of my classmates may secretly be reading my online diaries, lol. Anyway, until them…Peace.

I think I’ve lost my mojo

September 15, 2005 by DoctaJay

I think I’ve lost my mojo. You know that drive and excitement that you have at the beginning of school to get all your work done and go to class? It’s gone for me. I’ve talked to a bunch of my friends, and we’ve all agreed that the culprit is the MCAT. We studied ALL summer long, really intensely for this MCAT test. We took the test on August the 21st and school started on the 25th. So we really didn’t have any kind of vacation or break to recuperate from the previous school year or from the MCAT prep course. So yeah, I don’t feel like going to any classes, I don’t feel like being at school, and our MCAT scores are still about 60 days from arriving. Okay, so that was my vent. The only thing that is really keeping me going is the Human Anatomy class. I’m really loving the dissecting, and the learning of the insertion points, origins, innervations, actions, structure, etc of all these muscles. This class really reminds me that medical school is right around the corner, and that I can make it there if I just hold on. We had our first real quiz today and it was pretty cool. The quiz was over all the back muscles, their origins, insertions, innervations, blood supply, and actions. We also had a practicum where the lab coordinator basically had pins with numbers taped on to them stuck into the muscles we learned. I’m pretty sure I did alright on most of it, but she had a pin stuck in the area where the greater occipital nerve and artery lie. This artery and nerve are pretty intertwined and she had the pin stuck under both of them. Its really vague crap like that that can get slightly annoying, but overall I love it. We have to wear scrubs to class, so I just wear it the whole day; people look at me like I’m already a doctor (I love it, lol). But really I hate dressing up anyway, so having an excuse to where scrubs all day is great for me.

In the beginning of this post I vented about not wanting to do anything, but I’m realizing that if I need to get good grades in any year, it’s this year, my junior year. This year will be included on the transcript that I submit to AMCAS next summer, not my senior year, so I really need to keep my grades up.

But yeah, after coming from studying for the MCAT, nothing else really seems hard. I don’t feel like doing it, but its not hard. Like in Plant Biology class on Wednesday, our teacher put a question up on PowerPoint that she took from a Biology GRE book. She put it up to go through it and to show us how we should be thinking when we come across questions on standardized tests. She took like 15 minutes going through it when I along with the other people that took the MCAT figured it out in like 45 seconds. Its going to be a long semester.

I truly HATE PLANT BIOLOGY. The only interesting thing we learned is what plants would be helpful if we are stranded in the wild. Everything else is truly annoying. I can’t comprehend why I have to learn the scientific names of dozens of plants. I’m never going to be walking in a park and scream, “Oh my gosh, that’s a Digitorum Perposus!!!” But I guess since I’m a Biology major they are training me to be a scientist, not a doctor. Anyway, I’m happy, content, bored with school, anxious about the MCAT, homesick, and ancy to buy a new gadget. So yeah, everything is pretty much like always. I’ll write again when something interesting happens.

Life is good

September 8, 2005 by DoctaJay

Life is good. This post won’t be too long; I just wanted to update you all on what’s happening. I moved in with my Aunt who lives down here in Huntsville. Even though I’m paying $50 more in rent, it’s a much better spiritual environment, and its closer to campus. I won’t have to worry about people I don’t know rolling weed in the living room, or people stealing my stuff. Its pretty nice over all. The semester has gone pretty well so far. I’m only taking 14 hours this year because I’m trying to work on saving up for Brittany’s engagement ring, so we’ll see how that goes. Human Anatomy class is so freakin cool!!! I feel like I’m in med school for real! Our teacher has required us to buy blue scrubs, so while we dissect the cadavers we really look like doctors. I know it doesn’t help you know the information better, but it really does make you feel better. Its so cool isolating the muscles, and learning the insertion and origin points. Right now we are only dissecting the back, but the more and more we dissect I realize how fearfully and wonderfully we are made. God really took care in just the forming of our muscles. Yesterday we isolated the serratus posterior inferior and superior muscles and it just amazed me how they were so thin, but functioned in pulling down/up our ribs. The muscle was just about thinner than paper but it was so powerful…I don’t know, it just spoke to me of God’s power.

Anyway, NAPS was gone for the better half of this week in Mississippi to help with the Hurricane relief. They told me that they saw a lot of houses with X’s painted on them, designating that there were dead bodies inside. It was really sad and the people there were really hungry. NAPS had a lot of feedings were (lol, just as we did in the foreign missions) we cooked food in a humungous pot and dished it out. My girlfriend (who actually went with them) told me that it literally looked liked a 3rd world country down there, which is really sad. Anyway, my prayers go out to them.

I’m trying my best not to think about the MCAT, and I just hope that I get anywhere over a 26. But I’m pretty sure that I don’t want to go through this test process again, so whatever the Lord gives me, I’ll take.

Anyway, that’s what’s going on with me. A lot of evacuees are arriving tomorrow in Huntsville, so a bunch of us are going out to pass out food and just bring love to them; so I can’t wait for tomorrow. Anyway, I’ll write later.

Oh yeah, my b-day was last Sunday and my girlfriend (who’s a corn bread American) made me some curry chicken and rice and peas; lol, I was so proud of her. 🙂

THE MCAT IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

August 23, 2005 by DoctaJay

IT’S OOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m a tad excited to say the least that the MCAT is finally over. I truly felt the prayers of my family, friends and readers because I had absolutely no anxiety while taking the test. For some reason, it felt like just another practice test.

I had test form DG, and honestly, the sections weren’t crazy hard. The Physical Sciences section was like most AAMC Physical Sciences sections on the practice tests. One thing I liked about the PS section on the real test was that it didn’t have a crap load of calculation. Most of it could be estimated or it was conceptual. I actually finished the section which was a blessing.

The verbal section was kind of alright too. It didn’t have any art philosophy passages which did my heart well, because I just wouldn’t have read it, lol. I did have a really hard time getting through the section because each passage had like 6 paragraphs and 2 passages had 10 questions which are usually the bad ones because if you don’t comprehend the passage you get a lot of questions wrong. Anyway, when the proctor called 5 minutes, I was just finishing the first paragraph of the last passage so I really had to rush that one.

I was pretty happy with the proctors. They actually had snacks, orange juice, and water waiting outside the room for us during the breaks. Anyway, the writing section as alright. My first question was, “Current popular music must shed the conventions used in music in past generations” or something like that. Anyway, I thought the question was crap and I really wrote 2 pages of articulate BS. Anyway my second question was on how television has changed what we cherished forever or something like that. I liked the question and wrote I good essay I think.

The Biological Sciences section was alright. It had hardly any organic on it, and nothing was really hard. I finished with a little time to check over some stuff. Overall, I felt good about my MCAT test.

Its really amazing though. All the crying, stressing, self-doubt, and anger that went into this test and now its done, and I actually don”t feel like I even took it. Right now I don”t even feel like I was studying all summer. I’m just very glad that I didn’t have any anxiety through the test because that would havecrapped me up. But taking so many practice tests got me so used to the whole process that it really felt like another practice test, just a little longer than usual.

Anyway, I certainly don’t feel like I busted a 38 or anything, but I feel like I didn‘t regress. I’m expecting anything from a 25 to a 30. And honestly, I don‘t care where in that range I fall (although a 30 would certainly have me smiling for a couple of weeks).

School starts tomorrow, so hopefully I’ll get so wrapped up in my studies that I won‘t think about when my scores will arrive.

Night before MCAT poem

August 20, 2005 by DoctaJay

Twas the night before the MCAT, and all was at rest….
Everyone was asleep so they could do their best….
Lol, naw I’m not that bored. Anyway, the MCAT is tomorrow for me and I’m actually pretty calm. I’m going to treat it like any other day. Today we had a potluck with everyone that has been studying for the MCAT this summer. It was nice to get together and talk about everything but the MCAT. Anyway, I’ll write tomorrow on how I thought the test went. Thanks once again for your prayers.

I know I said I wasn’t going to write until the MCAT was over

August 14, 2005 by DoctaJay

I know I said I wasn’t going to write until the MCAT was over but this crap is pissing me off. This is why I and most black guys hate cops, because of sh!t like this. An hour ago, I get a call and this is what I hear. There was a drug bust going on in an apartment building across the street from my friends apartment building. My friends heard the cops beating the hell out of someone so they ran out onto the balcony to see what was going on. They see this black guy all bloody and hand cuffed being kicked while he’s on the floor. At the same time, the handcuffed guy’s girlfriend and sister are yelling and cussing telling the cops to stop beating the guy since he’s already handcuffed. The sister asks the cop what his badge number is and the cops tries to arrest her too. Well the sister and the girlfriend begin to run away and one of the cops kicks her in the back to make her fall and handcuffs her. Well all the while my friends our on their balcony watching what’s going on. One of the cops on the street tells them to go back inside, and so they do. 30 seconds later my friend’s sister hears a group of people running up the stairs to their floor. The next thing you know, someone is kicking down their door. Well its her door, and she doesn’t want it kicked down, so she runs to it to open it up. Six white cops rush inside and arrest all the guys inside the house screaming and yelling asking who said “Fuck the police”. Now mind you, just about everyone in that building was outside on their balcony, so how did they narrow it down to that specific apartment? Well anyway, while my three male friends (two of which have been studying for the MCAT along with me the whole summer) are handcuffed on the floor, they are of course cussing because they have no idea why they are being arrested. No one inside that apartment said anything to any cop so they are all confused as to while they are handcuffed. One of my pre-med major friends that is handcuffed is screaming asking why they are arresting him and the cop kicks him in the face. When his sister asks the cop for his badge number and name, the cop tells her to shut the fuck up and punches her in the throat. They drag all the guys outside and put them in the police car. Their rights were never read to them; they never resisted arrest; they never yelled “fuck the police”. So now, with the MCAT 6 days away, they are sitting in jail. The suggested charge is “Disorderly Conduct” which is the most vague charge in the world. The bail bondsman was saying that you can’t even fight that charge because even blinking your eyes the wrong way could be just cause to be charged with disorderly conduct. They haven’t officially been charged yet because the cops have signed anything yet. So now they can be held up to 24 hours until the cops come. This is total bullshit. This is the shit that black guys have to deal with every day. Did the cops have any right to kick down their door? NO. Did the cops read anyone their rights? NO. Did the cops have any right to kick and handcuff a teenager, especially when no one resisted arrest? NO. Did the cops have just cause for even entering the apartment? NO.

So I was at the precinct for an hour trying to figure out whats going on. The bail (even though there isn’t a charge) is $400 per person. These guys who should be getting ready to do Kaplan section tests tomorrow are sitting in a jail cell for no freaking reason. The bail bondsman said that for all we know, when the cops get there, they could just drop all the charges and let them go, since they were really after the guy in the drug bust. But can they drop the black eyes and bruises that were left on my friends face? NO. This shit is ridiculous. I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve been pulled over for absolutely no reason. I guess they just want to see why a black guy is driving a BMW. Or the time my roommate had police shotguns pressed into his back on his way home from school all because he fitted a profile for someone they were looking for who was black and over 6 feet tall (that counts me in). I’ll probably be up all night until I’m sure what they’ve been charged with. These guys are good guys. GPAs all over 3.7, biology majors, studying for the MCAT. But I guess in this hick down of Huntsville, Alabama we are just good ole niggas. 60 years ago they probably would have been strung up on a tree somewhere, especially in Alabama.

The Land of the Free huh? Bull shit.

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UPDATE: Hey everyone. Thank for your prayers and advice and we will definitely follow up on that. We all agreed that after we take the MCAT on Sunday, we will head up to WAFF (an affiliate of NBC) down here, and give them all the information.

Anyway, I actually got to talk to one of my friends that was locked up a couple of minutes ago, and he basically told me how incredibly fast everything happened. He told me that most of the cops that had rushed their apartment had actually just arrived on the scene. So when they saw one cop running towards their apartment, all the recently arrived cops hopped out and followed him. So basically the cops that had just arrived kind of thought that my friends were part of the drug bust too. But all this was based on assumptions.

He also let me know that when they were in jail, and they were talking to the magistrate (the person who decides whether the charges will stick or not) the magistrate (who was black) was telling them that these 4 white cops bring up crap charges like this all the time. He told them that since he always throws out their crap charges, they will probably wait until 1:30 a.m. when he changes shifts with this white lady magistrate and push the papers through then for their case. And my friend (Donell) said that right on time at 1:32 a.m. the 4 cops came in and handed in their paperwork to the white lady who pushed the charges through.

He also told me that they watched the cops as they were writing up their report change their story 3 times (as in they balled up the paper and started over again). They twisted the story up tremendously. First they wrote that my friends were resisting arrest, but one of the cops wouldn’t go along with that, so they threw that out. Then they said the girls in the house for being disorderly, but since none of the girls were arrested they couldn’t go with that. Then they agreed on a story saying that they had told my friends to go back inside their apartment 3 times (which they didn’t, they told them once and my friends went inside) and as they went inside on the 3rd order, someone yelled from the apartment “Fuck the Police”. Now mind you, about 70 people were also outside on their balcony watching this, so there is no way they could have been sure it was them, and it wasn’t them. But that’s the story they wrote.

So yeah, we are just going to cool down at this point. They went to court at 8:30 this morning and pleaded not-guilty to their disorderly conduct charges. So now they have to work on getting lawyers and witnesss and crap. So yeah, pray for them.

Studying for the MCAT has been the most humbling experience in my life

August 7, 2005 by DoctaJay

Studying for the MCAT has been the most humbling experience in my life. I’ve been to Africa and helped baptize 803 people; I’ve gone to national research conferences and won the highest prizes in neuroscience; I’ve aced Organic, Physics, G.Chem, Genetics, Microbiology, General Biology, etc; but this MCAT process has taught me so much. All the previous stuff I mentioned I know I accomplished only by the grace of God. And I’ve come to the realization that Lord has been teaching me something this whole summer. In my last post, I was quite frantic about this whole test. I didn’t understand why the Lord would allow me to do so well in school, but not do well on the MCAT. After a good amount of prayer, the Lord revealed to me the reason. If I was busting 35s on my practice tests I would no longer be giving God the glory but myself. As I read the Bible more and more, it becomes very clear to me how serious God is in wanting all glory to Himself. And I think its safe to say that He deserves it. Anyway in layman’s terms, if I was doing too well I would be way too confident in my own abilities and not dependent enough on God. Even though it was rough at times, it was a good lesson to learn.

Another thing I’m realizing is that this MCAT test is truly not determinate on whether you or I will get into medical school. As I was doing to myself, too many people beat themselves up because they aren’t reaching to target MCAT scores during practice; it’s a very unhealthy thing. So I haven’t reached 30 yet, how will getting discouraged help me? When I’m managing my patients in the SICU they won’t be asking me how I did in verbal reasoning. Or when I’m taking a bullet out of a patient he’s not going to wonder whether I aced my Physical Sciences section. The MCAT does not determine whether you can make it through medical school. It is just another of the myriad of tests that we will have to take. When we are taking our Step 1 boards we are going to laugh at how stupid it was that we stressed so much about the MCAT, and when we are taking our Step 2 boards we are going to laugh at how stupid it was to stress so much about our Step 1 boards, and when we take are oral boards we can all stress together, lol. And if it so happens that you have to take the test again, don’t worry about it. If it so happens that you might have to apply for a post bac or accept one of the schools at the very bottom of your list, don’t worry about it. Nothing in this world is a breeze. But in the end, you’ll be a doctor.

So yeah, I’ve been serene for this past week. I’ve been in Maryland this whole week hanging with my family and studying for the MCAT. I was frequenting the Kaplan Center in College Park by the University of Maryland, but they don’t open til 2 p.m., so I started going to the Washington, D.C. Kaplan center. After paying $12 for parking on the first day I decided to take the train into the city for the rest of the week, and it worked out fine. The D.C. Kaplan center is humongous, but its really good for studying. With 2 weeks left before the MCAT I’m basically doing section tests and AAMC Full Length Tests. I’m also not trying to be around other people that are studying for the MCAT because I don’t need to feel their nervous energy. By the time I take the MCAT I want to be so sick of taking full length MCAT tests that the real one feels like all the others. Anyway, here’s my updated list of scores:

Diagnostic: PS: 6 VR: 7 BS: 6 = 19
FL # 1: PS: 7 VR: 7 BS: 9 = 23
FL # 2: PS: 7 VR: 10 BS: 8 = 25
FL # 3: PS: 8 VR: 9 BS: 9 = 26
FL # 7: PS: 6 VR: 6 BS: 6 = 18, EDIT: PS: 10 VR: 8 BS: 7 = 25
AAMC 3R: PS: 7 VR: 9 BS: 8 = 24
AAMC 4R: PS: 8 VR: 10 BS: 11= 29
AAMC 5R: PS: 7 VR: 12 BS: 10= 29
AAMC 6R: PS: 7 VR: 8 BS: 12 = 25
AAMC 7R: PS: 8 VR: 9 BS: 9 = 26

Although my scores are not at my goal I’m still chugging on. You know one thing I realized that was causing me stress? My SDN Diary readers. I know this sounds crazy but its true. As many times as racist people have left me comments and e-mails saying I’ll only get in because I’m black, all the while as I was studying, I was thinking about how I have to get above a 30 to show those people that I got in at the same level they did. I’m not a crazy competitive person, but this really was on my mind. During this week I realized how incredibly stupid that was. I was trying to prove things to people that I don’t even know. That’s another thing that I want to advise anyone studying for the MCAT about. Don’t compare yourself to anyone else as you study for this test. If you do the best that you can do, then that’s fine. If the best I can do is a 27, I’ll be happy. And if God wants me to get into med school with a 27, I’ll be happy too, because in the end I’ll be a doctor. If my best is a 34 I’ll be really happy, but not significantly happier than if I had a 27. We really place too much emphasis on scores and not enough on things that really matter like service and a kind heart. Anyway I was just telling you how crazy studying for the MCAT can make someone; I can’t believe I even let that cause me stress.

Anyway, please pray for me yall, and I’ll pray for all of you out there that are studying also…WE’LL MAKE IT!!!!!!

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3 ½ weeks until the MCAT and I’m feeling very scared right now

July 27, 2005 by DoctaJay

3 ½ weeks until the MCAT and I’m feeling very scared right now. I feel like I’m not studying enough. I’m studying consistently, but I feel like I should be waking up at 4 a.m. and studying till 10 p.m. I’ve just about given up on improving on the PS section. I’m just not going to get higher than a 7 or 8 on that section. I’m really trying to beef up on my BS and VR sections, but I’m not making much gains in that. The last full length test I’ve taken is FL #3, and I got a 26 on that test. I’m improving but its just kind of stressing. I took a stab and Kaplan FL #7 and I scored so low I decided not to even review the answers. I’m really trying to figure out how to approach these last few weeks. I’m thinking that I might just forget the Kaplan tests and just do the AAMC full length tests. I also might only do Kaplan section tests. Here’s my break down so far:

Diagnostic: PS: 6 VR: 7 BS: 6 = 19
FL # 1: PS: 7 VR: 7 BS: 9 = 23
FL # 2: PS: 7 VR: 10 BS: 8 = 25
FL # 3: PS: 8 VR: 9 BS: 9 = 26
FL # 7: Don’t even wan to mention LOL

I’m scared and that’s kind of hard for me to admit, but I truly am. I know that God is going to help me, but I’m scared that I haven’t done my part. Now trust me, I’m not partying every night, but through out the day, I just zone out and surf on the internet. I haven’t done it too much but…I don’t know, I guess I’m just really feeling the pressure now that the test is so close. My goal is a 30, 31, or 32, but I guess I would be happy with a 28 or 29. I’m really wondering whether the AAMC full length tests would more or less tell me how I would do on the real MCAT. I don’t want to feel like I didn’t do enough on the 21st. Anyway, I’m rambling now; I hope everyone else is doing well in their studies.

O yeah, I’m drowning my MCAT sorrows by buying things for my car. Some girls buy ice cream, I buy new shocks and smoked corner lights. I’ll post pictures when I make the switch. Also, I’m thinking of getting personalized plates for my car. I want to see if you all can tell what it is saying. Here is is:

SCPLPLZ

Mission Trip Journal

July 15, 2005 by DoctaJay

BACKGROUND
Hey everyone. This is just a little background information in case you just started reading my diaries. Last summer I went on a mission trip (for 6 weeks) to Zambia, Africa with the National Association for the Prevention of Starvation (NAPS). It’s a mission group that is based in my Biology department. Whenever we can get a doctor or nurse to come with us, we provide medical care, but if not, like on the mission I’m talking about, we just focus on ministry and spreading the gospel of Jesus Christ. About 26 of us went, but we were broken up into smaller groups and spaced out across Zambia. I was stationed in one of the United Nation’s refugee camps. These refugee camps housed Angolans who left their homes when a civil war broke out. Many of the refugees were part of the resistance, so many of them were missing limbs. Anyway, Angolans speak Portuguese and they are pretty nice people. It was my first mission, and actually my first time going to Europe and Africa, so you’ll notice my amazement at everything. If there are some things in my journal that I know would confuse you if you weren’t there, I’ll explain further in bolded brackets like this: [………..] .
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I didn’t really keep a journal in the beginning, so this is a summary of what has happened so far in this Zambia/Refugee Camp mission.

We loaded all the bins on the buses and set out for the airport [in Huntsville, AL]. I already kissed my parents good bye. After unloading all the bins, the security checkpoint people began to go through all the bins. We were told to stop because our flight was cancelled due to bad weather in Dallas. That was very disappointing but Justin [a senior NAPS member] pointed out that this would be a great mission because Satan was hitting us early. We spent the night at Doc’s [Dr. Paul, the chair of our Biology department and the president of NAPS. We all call him Doc though.] house and our flight left early in the morning. The blessing is that because we already had all the bins at the airport when our flight was cancelled, they let us keep them at the airport overnight, meaning that no bins were weighed. This was a serious blessing because we would have had to pay over $5,000 in overweight luggage had they weighed them [Whenever NAPS goes on a mission (whether it be for 6 weeks or a year), everything each person personally needs should fit in their hiking bag. Everything else we bring is put in numerous bins. Items we put in bins include generators, bibles, peanut butter, food materials, chain saws, evangelistic material, items for the children’s program, etc. We pack all this stuff in about 60 bins and put them on the plane. Usually these bins weigh much more than the allotted weight, and we have to pay extra to put them on the plane, but the Lord used the cancellation of our flight to save us money; money that could be used to buy more useful things in Africa.]

We left Huntsville for Dallas. At Dallas, my group flew to Chicago en route to London (Heathrow). People were interested in what we were doing [They saw our NAPS uniforms] and it was a blessing telling them about our mission. The other group flew into London (Gatwick), and they took a train over to our airport. We had a 12 hour layover at Heathrow which was spent worrying about where Courtney was and where our bins were; we should have rested knowing God was in control [First the story about our bins. Huntsville is a small airport with small planes. Apparently, they couldn’t fit all of our bins on our plane, so they had to send half of them on another plane. Well, the other half didn’t get to Dallas in time for our flight to London, so half of them were delayed in the U.S. This was stressing, because we really couldn’t complete the mission without all the bins. So during this 12 hour layover, we are trying to find the status of those bins, hoping they would get to London in time for our flight to Kenya. Now the story about Courtney. Courtney is a NAPS member who was going with us to Africa. The week before we left for Africa, when we first started taking our malaria pills, she had an adverse reaction to the pills and had to be rushed to the hospital. This was very troubling because we would have to take a malaria pill every week while we were there in Africa. So Doc told her that she wouldn’t be able to go because it might be too dangerous for her to have another reaction to the drug, especially because we won’t be near to any hospital. Well she took that pretty hard, but we left for Africa anyway. During our layover in London, we get a call from the NAPS director in our U.S. NAPS office, and we are told that the doctors cleared Courtney for the trip; and that somehow, she bought a same day ticket to Africa for about $5,000 and is headed to London as they speak. Well, this was also very troubling, first because Doc had not authorized her to come, and second because no one knew what flight she was coming into and whether she would make it to London before we left for Kenya. So also, during this time, we are running around the airport trying to determine which airport she’s flying into (Heathrow or Gatwick), and what flight she came in on. So yeah, we didn’t get too much rest during this time.] Everything was super expensive in the airport, especially because the pound was worth more than the dollar. Seemingly all at one time, we found Courtney and our bins were found.

Next we flew to Nairobi, Kenya. While we were still in the air, I was looking out the window and I saw something very odd. We were flying above all the clouds, and all I saw was blue sky at the top and white clouds on the bottom of me. But not too far, I saw a humongous, dark, cone shaped object jutting up from the clouds. I asked a flight attendant what that was, and she told me that it was Mount Kilimanjaro (I think its one of the tallest mountains in the world). You really realized how tall the thing was when you saw it sticking out from the clouds. Anyway, it felt so good to finally be in Africa. At the airport we met two young (white) missionaries who were coming back from a mission and we had worship with them. Next we flew to Lusaka, Zambia. We unloaded and realized we were missing about 5 bins and some drums. We came out the airport and a skit was performed by a group of people that were supposed to be meeting us. The skit stressed how we should give, and come back to our motherland. One thing that surprised me was the fact that we were in a city, in Africa [All I had ever seen of Africa was on National Geographic when they showed the bush and the animals]. The roads were good, there were stores, buildings, etc.; no grass houses (In fact, if I had been blind folded and brought to Lusaka, I could have easily mistaken the place for an American city). We stayed at Cynthia’s house and had a good meal. Mostly, if you have a house in the city of Africa, you have a huge wall surrounding it, I guess due to the crime. I got a chance to meet my Zambian NAPS friends, Kennedy, Boston, Kabu Kabu Vera, Rose, and others. They gave me my Losi [a dialect spoken there] name, Mutanga, which means servant. I got the chance to stay at Ombati Mwencha’s house also. His father was the Secretary General for over 21 African countries. He had to be approved by the President’s of 21 countries before he could have his post; so needless to say, Ombati was basically RICH, but he was very humble and not spoiled which I respect. His house was so beautiful but his driveway (like many local roads) was HORRIBLE. If you live in New York and think your potholes are bad, come to Africa. The main roads were fine, but when you turned off into a community nothing was paved and at one time we were riding on the road at 45 degrees!!!

Next we left for Zam Seed, which was a huge farm owned by a Seventh-day Adventist Zambian. He allowed us to stay in a little farm house for a couple of days. While there, we got a taste of what being on a mission was like. The kids there LOVED to sing and it was just such a blessing to hear them. We left for the refugee camps and sent those on the Mongu mission on their way [ not all of us when to the refugee camps. There were about 26 of us, and we split into 4 groups, some going to the refugee camps and some running missions in other parts of Zambia.]. We drove for like FOREVER (about 18 hours) and then pulled into Livingston. The Lord is good, we got a chance to go to Victoria’s Falls (one of the 7 wonders of the world). It was by far the most magnificent thing I’ve ever seen in my life. The sheer power of the falls spoke of its creator. We all got soaked and I bought some souvenirs. The people running the mission in Chomo departed from there and we continued on to the refugee camps. The Lord is so good; to get to our destination, we had to cross the Zambezi River (the river that feeds Victoria Falls). Now normally, this is an almost impossible task, especially since the Zambezi was flooded, but praise God, they (just about 3 days earlier) opened up a brand new bridge across the Zambezi. That was one obstacle, the next was the road ahead. Doc had just received news that the road ahead of us was impassible, so we stopped for a bathroom break. Ten seconds later, Doc ran into the MP’s brother, and it was clear that that wasn’t a coincidence [the MP was the head official over the refugee camps. His brother was on his way there also, and just happened to run into us]. He assured Doc that the road was passable. So we went through town with the band and stayed the night. We set off in the morning and realized that although the road was passable, it was still quite horrible; and the funny thing was that is was one of their major highways. None of it was paved, and the sand practically caved in on us in certain places. After ten hours we reached the camp. Everyone was so happy to see us. There were so MANY kids.

Our camp had been prepared by Derrick [a Zambian NAPS member who had been at the refugee camp for awhile preparing the place for us.] and the local people. I went with Lackica [America NAPS] and Miato [Zambian NAPS] to get water at the water pump. The people there were so humble and kind. The water pump for the refugee camp shuts off at a certain time. Everyone was trying to get water to feed their families, but they moved their water buckets out of the way so we could get water. And then they wouldn’t’ even let us pump the water, they pumped it for us. Even though none of them were Christians, I saw true Christianity right there. We were there for a couple of days, and things were going great, but then I got sick. My stomach started to grumble during the night meeting and after that I threw up everything I had ever eaten in my life. I threw up 3 times that night and Doc gave me some charcoal to drink so I could get better. I guess I’m kind of a city boy, but when I get sick, usually I take pills. I had never taken charcoal to get better, but that bad boy is a crazy absorbent, and it like sucked the sickness out of me. I threw up again, this time it was all black. I also crapped and it was all black. Technically I was getting better, but I wasn’t feeling better. The next day, the group I was in moved to the other refugee camp. (From this point on, I’ll consistently keep journal).

5/23/04
I threw up all day yesterday, but this morning I felt much better. I packed for my refugee camp, still feeling queasy in my stomach. The people here are so nice, and so humble. I had a good devotion; today I read 1 Corinthians 9. Packing the van was hard for me because I was still very weak but Ernest and John helped me out. Our camp site is beautiful. The people here have worked so hard to prepare our church/compound, the least we can do is give them the Word of God. The evangelistic meeting went great also.

5/25/04
Today I got a chance to actually help someone. The people here are always putting our water buckets in front of theirs, even though the water cuts off at a certain time. They did it again today, but after my bucket was filled, I began to pump and fill their buckets. It felt so good!!! We were running low on gas and suddenly a truck pulled up with a note from Doc [he stayed at the other refugee camp with was about 5 miles away] calling us back to the main camp. It was so cool riding on the back of the truck, I felt like a real safari man. We played in the band there. So many kids came out that the sand was practically suffocating. In my mind I felt like I was presenting these souls to God (that’s the only way I could take my mind off of the pain of carrying the bass drum for that long period of time). I tend to be a little pessimistic, but the people are so thirsty for the Word! I praise God for that.

5/26/04
The Lord is good! I love Him so much. Today, I stayed back while the others were doing visitations around the refugee camp. I had a chance to really get in the Word. I started to sense inklings of home sickness but when I busied myself it went away. I had a chance to help with the Bible study today. It felt so good to finally give back spiritually. I can’t wait for Baptism day.

5/27/04
Today was pretty interesting. We got a chance to visit the school in the camp. I got a chance to go to a Biology class that was taking place. They were learning about the ocean currents and everything aquatic. It was very cool to see how science classes work in foreign countries. Also, some of the church ladies came and washed our clothes. I don’t know how they did it, because there’s no electricity out there, so they couldn’t toss it in a washer/dryer or iron it; but it came back clean and ironed. The culture here is different. When women need to feed their babies, they just whip out their breast wherever they are. Breast aren’t sexual things here, but you’ll never find a woman with a short dress here. The Bible study today was good. There were many questions about the Sabbath. The Adventists here seem to deal with the same issues that those in America deal with. Like working on the Sabbath, sports, etc. The kid problem at the evangelistic meeting is getting bad [Many of them have never seem a projector screen, so they kids crowd the front and they are really loud. It was taking too much to get them to sit down]. We will have to raise the screen so the kids will stop pushing to see.

5/28/04
Today was eventful. We went to the school, but they didn’t have Biology class that day, just general science. Everyone spoke Portuguese there so I really couldn’t understand anything. The elders built the elevated screen today and it turned out to work perfectly. The Bible study today was good; the Lord really used me, Derrick, and Ombati. Today there was an encounter with a demon possessed girl. But praise God, after much singing and prayer, she was delivered. Too bad I was sleeping the whole time. I guess the Lord was teaching me to always be alert cause you never know what could happen.

5/29/04
We had a late wake up today (around 8 a.m.), so I got some extra sleep [Usually we wake up around 5 in the morning. The people in Africa really seem to respect people that wake up early, rather than most Americans who don’t get started with their day till about 9 a.m.]. It was so cool; some kids marched to our camp singing and praising God’s name. They waited for us, and led us to the church. Moses’ [an American NAPS member] sermon was on point that day. He spoke on the rich man story (you know, the one where the rich man approached Jesus and asked him what he must do to get to heaven). After church, we had to shake EVERYONE’s hand ( I guess everyone there wanted to meet the American’s who had come so far help). Anyway, I was screaming for Purrell after that little hand shaking session. Today was just a peaceful day. At sun set, we showed Lion King to the kids [It was the Portuguese version], so many people came out; the most ever actually. Its amazing how the Lord works. By showing the Lion King video, and so my people came to see that, we got a chance to invite much more people to our evangelistic meetings; especially since our next sermon was on the Sabbath!!! Praise God!!!

5/30/04
Today was quite eventful. Darla and I worked on the English classes material today [We spent a lot of time teaching them about God, but we also decided to teach them English, because they really seemed like they wanted to know]. But before that, during morning worship, a truck pulled with Michelle, Tory, and my princess, Brittany [NAPS members from the other refugee camp]. They brought us much needed supplies. It was just so good seeing Brittany again. Tory also gave me an African knife that he had bought, and I was trying to cut everything! The evangelistic meeting tonight was on the Sabbath and the devil really showed himself today. First off, it isn’t rainy season, and when it isn’t rainy season in Zambia, it literally doesn’t rain; not at all. Lo’ and behold, at 4:00 p.m. [a hour before the sermon on the Sabbath started], it began to drizzle. We knew it was Satan, so we prayed. But God was also working. Tory and Andy came a second time to give us the backup laptop and Doc’s video camera; this was a blessing because (at the time), I didn’t know I needed to cover the wires on the light bulbs before it started raining. If I had left it, it might have shorted out all of our equipment. But because Tory and Andy had just pulled up, they gave me the right advice and gave me the help I needed to cover them quickly. The rain subsided, and we began our praying. About 30 minutes into the program, before the sermon, the generator stopping generating; for the 1st time ever. When I checked it, the generator was still running, but no power was coming out. Me thinking I’m Mr. Fix-It, ran back and got my tools, determined that I was going to fix it. After about 20 minutes of failure, I did what I should have done in the beginning; I prayed. I pulled the cord on the generator once, and it kicked up; talk about the power of prayer!!! There were so many people present to hear the message on the Sabbath, many newcomers too. The rain began to pour sporadically; I guess Satan was trying to widdle at the crowd. Then, the generator ran out of gas, which has never has never happened before either [Usually it ran the full length of the program with gas still left over]. Despite the devil’s workings, the meeting continued and many were blessed.

5/31/04
Today was quite packed in events. I actually played soccer with the kids today. It was really fun but it was tiring [I really have no idea how to play soccer, but if you really want to break down some walls in a foreign country, bring a soccer ball.]. Derrick, Ombati, and I worked on the Sabbath Bible study and the Lord really blessed with the planning of it. At first, I dreaded beginning the English classes, but it turned out to be very fun. It was funny seeing them trying to pronounce the numbers and colors [For some reason, that all had a really hard time pronouncing purple]. But many of them learned, which was good. When we actually had the Bible study, I knew that the Lord was using me. I really praise God for the Sabbath Bible study. Many came to an understanding of the Sabbath and why many people worship on Sunday. The evangelistic meeting went on that night without any problems, even though we preached on the State of the Dead. Tonight, the Lord gave me the opportunity to help cast out a demon from another possessed girl. Mondu’s (the girl) body was so heavy, and she sounded like her lungs were being sat on. We prayed a lot and sang hymns, and every time she jerked another demon left her. She was seriously possessed so we were there most of the night casting the demons out, but after awhile they were all gone. Praise God!!!

6/1/04
We had liquid shima again today; and wasn’t too bad [Shima is a local favorite here. It is actually ground up corn husk. It has absolutely no nutritional value, but the people here eat it just to feel full. Its really sad.].I finished my “10 things I love about Mukwayi” [A little poem I was writing for Brittany during my down time. Mukwayi is her Losi name. It means princess]book and then I planned for the State of the Dead Bible study. Tory came and surprised Darla for her birthday [they are dating too, but while we are on missions we usually voluntarily go to separate camps in order to keep our minds on the mission.] He walked about an hour and fifteen minutes to get here from the other refugee camp. The English class was great today; the people learned how to greet each other in English. The Bible study went well today also. I got Mondu’s testimony of being delivered on video, and also another testimony of a man who seemed to have been stricken with the same demon. Right before the meeting, Mondu collapsed, and started foaming at the mouth. There were still some demons inside her, which was very puzzling. We soon realized that voodoo worship was taking place in her house, so whenever demons were cast out, they would came back once she got home. It was a sad situation. Moses made the baptism appeal and 58 people came up to the front. Praise God!!!

6/2/04
Today we visited this couple in the camp. You could tell that they had been well off before the war. But now they had to run away. The husband had been a dentist and the wife was a nurse in the maternity ward in Angola. They were so nice, but were telling us that they had no work here and there was nothing to do. We got word that our first baptism is Sunday, and I can’t wait!!! We also got word that at first, the other church denominations in the camp were threatening excommunication if their members attended our evangelistic meetings. But now, they’ve all come together and sent all their kids to our meetings just to make noise and distract. I thought that was below all churches; I guess not. But the Lord’s work will continue, and more decided to get baptized today. Amen!

6/4/04
This morning, we went visiting around the camp. it was cool, kinda just saying hi to everyone. I was lying in my tent later thinking about Brittany when a note from her arrived. It feels so good to be loved. I had a good talk with Ombati and Derrick; we were talking about black mambas and other deadly animals in Africa. The English class went very well today. We had a lot of young kids. The Bible study went well also. I know the Lord is using me to do His work; at least in this place. Ten more people decided to get baptized today, which brings the total to around 89. The baptism will be on Sunday at 1 p.m. We have to walk to Nangweshe in order to do the baptism. It’ll be so tight!!!

6/6/04
Today was baptism day!!! At 9 a.m., all the baptism people and their family and friends arrived at our compound. We pulled out at 9:45 with everyone. The choir was leading us out as we walked to the Nangweshe refugee camp. The walk taught me so many lessons. The helpfulness of the people was amazing. Even though they had stuff to carry, they wanted to carry our book bags. I kept mine because I wanted a good work out. Also, many of the guys with prosthetics (from having limbs blown off during the war), were also making that 1 ½ hour walk. Many of them were moving faster than people that had two legs. On the way, one of the kids stubbed his toe on a tree stump that was hidden by the deep sand. He toe was bleeding pretty bad by the time I came up on him. I bent down, and took out my First Aid kit. I cleaned his wound and put a Band-Aid on it; he smiled, thanked me in Portuguese and ran off. I felt like a true doctor then and there. I felt like the Lord was telling me that that is the true job of a doctor; to help someone in pain and to see that smile when they feel better. As we rolled into Nangweshe about 130 deep, we were singing and praising God. It was a wonderful experience. Brittany ran out to meet me, and it was so good to see her again. I really love that girl. After about an hour or so, we set off for the Zambezi river [We brought our baptism candidates to the other refugee camp and met the other camps baptismal candidates. Then we all walked to the Zambezi river where the baptism would take place.] which happened to be another 50 minute walk ( I truly understand now why you hardly see any fat Africans). The people practically ran the whole time; I couldn’t keep up with them. On the way a horrible thing happened. A mother tripped and fell with her baby and her baby hit his head on the concrete; his head was bleeding. I felt so helpless without my first aid kit (I put it in the van). The baby wasn’t hurt too bad though, and someone else came and nursed its wounds. The baptism was so beautiful. The Zambezi was glistening and so many people were lined up to be baptized. The smile on their faces when they came out of the water was just wonderful!!! I think 140 were baptized that day. We ate back at the camp, then walked back to my refugee camp, which was another 1 ½ hour walk. We showed the Ten Commandments video but the generator was having problems. At first it wouldn’t start, so we prayed and it started, then it kept jumping like it would turn off. We prayed again and it ran fine after that. The Lord showed me through this how my faith has increased. He showed me that no problem is too small for Him, and I jut have to have faith and believe He will take care of it.

6/7/04
Today I heard news that was very troubling. One of the guys that had been baptized (into the Adventist church) on Sunday was beaten when he got back home. He was beaten by three men from his previous church, the Catholic church. The encouraging part is that he is still sticking with the faith. Also, tonight Moses made an appeal, and Mondu, the girl who had been demon possessed came up!!! This is such a blessing because the first time we talked about baptism, she received another demonic attack. She was foaming at the mouth and everything. Because of that, she didn’t hear the baptism message. But now, she has decided to give her life to Jesus Christ. Praise God!!! I think the total baptized in Africa was 803 (this includes those baptized from the other missions that were simultaneously taking place.)


I didn’t take any journals after this day, but nothing really happened after that. We planned a march in the capital city, Lusaka; a march against AIDS. Every school in Lusaka closed down, and the kids marched with us. After that, we hugged and cried with our Zambian friends and flew back to America. Three days later, I started my research at the University of Cincinnati, which is where my SDN journals first started off.

The journal I wrote in Africa was not written with the idea that other people would be reading it. So I understand that some parts my not be very clear, so just leave me a comment if you want clarification on something. I hope this journal has encouraged you all to sacrifice some of your time to do mission work. Some pictures are below:

more kaplan studying

July 7, 2005 by DoctaJay

Well, I was too anxious to wait for Kaplan to send my scores back, so (since I always circle my answers on the test booklet), I just plugged those answers in our online Kaplan accounts, and it graded it for me. And the score is…………………..DRUM ROLL PLEASE, lol……………….: PS: 8, VR: 8, BS: 9 = 25 Although it may be low by most people’s standards, I’m pretty happy. On my diagnostic, I got a 19, so for me to raise 6 points off the first test, I feel alright. I’m sure that for me to rise another 6 points to a 31 is exponentially harder, but at least its closer. Now I must admit that this might not be 100% accurate. For the PS section, when I took my test, I didn’t finish the last 2 passages and the last discreet questions. This means that I never marked them down in my test booklet, but I just fill them in on the answer sheet. So when I was putting my answers in online, and didn’t have the answers for the ones I guessed on, I just randomly put in letters. So it is possible that my random entering online was more accurate than my random bubbling on my practice MCAT answer sheet. I’m sure the scores aren’t going to differ by too much, but its possible that when Kaplan sends my actual scores back, I could have either a 24, 25, or 26 (if I was more lucky filling in on the real thing). One thing I noticed is that the curve on the PS section is tremendous. I got 70% right on the VR section, and got an 8, and I got like 47% right on the PS section, and got an 8. That’s kind of encouraging. Anyway, I feel good, but demoralized at the same time, because I’m studying for Physics. There are very few times where I just plain don’t get something, and this is it. I’m reading these chapters over and over, and doing the workshops, and I’m just not comprehending the concepts (magnetism, thermodynamics, SHM, etc.). Part of me just wants to wing the PS section, since I feel I won’t get it anyway, and ace the VS and BS sections, but my readers have warned that that isn’t smart. I don’t know, its just really annoying. Why should they make the part of the MCAT which conceptually is the most USELESS part of medical school, the hardest section on the MCAT? It doesn’t seem fair to me.

Anyway, that was my venting paragraph. In my next post, I’ll post my journals from AFRICA!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I took my first full-length practice MCAT today

July 5, 2005 by DoctaJay

Well I took my first full-length practice MCAT today, and it was pretty interesting. I tried to treat it as much as I would treat the real MCAT day. I woke up around 6:30, had my devotion, watched CNN, bathed, dressed, made lunch, ate a nice big breakfast, etc. The Kaplan test started at 9 a.m., but the real MCAT wants you to be there at 8 .a.m., so I tried to be out the house by like 7:40. Anyway, I picked up my g/f, got to the school, and basically chilled. The Kaplan guy handed out the answer sheet and our testing booklet. He read some instructions, and then we started the physical sciences section. It was pretty challenging to say the least. I tried to do the Kaplan strategy of doing the discreet questions before I did the passages, but I ran into some problems. When I do the Kaplan topical tests, the passages are first, and the discreet questions are at the end. On the MCAT full length, the discreet questions are mixed all through out passages, which really just wastes time as you flip through all the pages. So yeah, I just ended up going through the test as it was set up. I realized that I really needed a watch, not a cell phone, but a nice, cheap watch with a timer. I also realized that the diagnostic test we took was a CRAP LOAD shorter than the actual MCAT. I didn’t expect to have to complete 10 physical science passages and about 3 sections of discreet questions. By the time the Kaplan guy announced the 50 min. mark, I had only completed passage 4. That got me kind of nervous, and I started to rush. By the time he called 5 minutes, I had only finished 7 ½ passages and 2 of the discreet question sections. Since you don’t get counted off for wrong question, I just filled in the rest.

After the physical sciences section, we had a 10 minute break. Kaplan advised that we don’t talk to people during the breaks, because it can discourage you. So I just grabbed a newspaper and read it to get my mind in the mode for the verbal reasoning section. The VR section was actually pretty cool. I’m pretty sure I did alright on it, and I actually finished almost all the passages except I guessed the last 4 questions on the last passage due to time. I really have to work on my speed, especially for the PS section. After the VR section was done, we had a 60 min. break. I packed a sandwich lunch, so I kinda chilled and talked with people. I know we aren’t supposed to, but you can’t help it. So I found out that I wasn’t the only person that didn’t finish the PS section, so that made me feel a little better.

After the break, we went into our writing section. That section went alright, but the questions were really bland. I think I did well on the them, except I kept feeling like I was answering the 3rd question but kind of restating the answers to the first two questions. I guess I’ll have to work on that a little, but its not my priority. After this section, we had a 10 min. break.

By this time, I was really feeling the fatigue of the test. I like NEVER get headaches, but by this time, my head was throbbing a little. I’m not one to pop a pain reliever, so I just walked outside the whole break to get my blood pumping for the last section.

The biological sciences section was actually pretty cool. It had much less organic chemistry than I expected, which is always nice. I actually completely finished this section, and had time to look over some questions. By the time the test was over, I literally ran out of the testing center. They really weren’t playing when they said you needed endurance. Our test lasted about 7 ½ hours, but the Kaplan guy said that on MCAT day, our whole day will probably last more like 9 hours. But we have 4 more of these tests, and about 15 more full lengths we can do on our own, so hopefully I’ll have it down by that time.

I really wanna thank everyone for the very calm and fair conversation we had about evolution in my last post. No low blows were thrown, which is rare on SDN, lol. I also want to personally thank Uju and Jason. These two SDN readers sent me really encouraging e-mails, which I will certainly save and read constantly. Encouragement like that really helps me to keep on writing. I just wanted to thank you two personally.

Guess what???!!!! If anyone read my diaries from the beginning, you’ll remember me lamenting the fact that I couldn’t find my journals that I wrote while I was on the mission in Africa. Well, I found them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In my next post, I’m going to post all of my journal entries that I made while I was in Africa. Anyway, until then; Peace.

Although I’m horribly behind by Kaplan’s standards

July 1, 2005 by DoctaJay

Although I’m horribly behind by Kaplan’s standards, I feel pretty good about the way my studying is going. I’ve got a pretty good thing going right now. My strategy is to do the Kaplan subject tests first. Each one of these tests is about 30 to 40 questions, in the format of the discreet questions you would find on the MCAT. This test basically tests your raw knowledge of the subject. It shows you where you might have holes in your understanding of a certain concept, so you can patch it up. After I take the subject tests, then I take the AAMC passages that were assigned. The AAMC passages are definitely challenging, but it shows you whether you are thinking the correct way when it comes to the passages. The good thing about the AAMC and the subject tests is that no time was specified for either of them. So you can take your time, and think through them. Its good practice, because times ARE specified for the topical tests, so it’s good to work on your thinking with the subject and AAMC tests, so you’ll have it down when you actually have a time limit for the topicals. As for how I’m actually doing; I would say that I’m doing alright. The verbal passages seem to be coming pretty easy to me at this point; I got a good amount of 100%s on those passages. The organic passages are pretty challenging, but I’m doing alright on them. I got mostly 100%s on the AAMC biology passages, so that gave my confidence a nice boost. I still dread the Physics passages, because they seem so calculation heavy, but I hear that that is just the way Kaplan makes them, and that they are a little different on the actual MCAT; I truly hope that’s true. We take our first practice full length test on Tuesday, July 5th, so I’m pretty excited about that. I’ve only covered about 1/3 of the assigned information, but I feel that I’ve done enough practice questions to hold my own for this first test. Now if they through a bunch of higher end concepts like optics in there, I probably won’t do well, but we’ll see. I hear that there is a Caribbean festival in Nashville, TN, so I’m thinking of driving up there with a couple of friends. If not, then I’ll just study on Sunday, and go to a BBQ on Monday. Other than that, I’m feeling pretty good. My next post will probably be after I take the 1st full length test, so I can tell you all how I felt about it. ————————————————————————-
Oh yeah, I just wanted to share my devotion this morning, and probably what is going to be my inspiration as I study for this MCAT. Although I said everything is going fine with the MCAT studying, it still is pretty daunting. Many times I would just stop studying, because I felt like I would never be able to practice enough to do well. But this morning, as I was reading the story of Moses in Exodus 4; here’s the excerpt (the Lord is telling Moses that he must go to Egypt and free his people):

1 Moses answered, “What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say, ‘The LORD did not appear to you’?”

2 Then the LORD said to him, “What is that in your hand?” “A staff,” he replied. 3 The LORD said, “Throw it on the ground.” Moses threw it on the ground and it became a snake, and he ran from it. 4 Then the LORD said to him, “Reach out your hand and take it by the tail.” So Moses reached out and took hold of the snake and it turned back into a staff in his hand. 5 “This,” said the LORD, “is so that they may believe that the LORD, the God of their fathers—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob—has appeared to you.”

6 Then the LORD said, “Put your hand inside your cloak.” So Moses put his hand into his cloak, and when he took it out, it was leprous, like snow.

7 “Now put it back into your cloak,” he said. So Moses put his hand back into his cloak, and when he took it out, it was restored, like the rest of his flesh.

8 Then the LORD said, “If they do not believe you or pay attention to the first miraculous sign, they may believe the second. 9 But if they do not believe these two signs or listen to you, take some water from the Nile and pour it on the dry ground. The water you take from the river will become blood on the ground.”

10 Moses said to the LORD, “O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”

11 The LORD said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? 12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”

This last part truly touched me. Moses didn’t feel adequate for the job that was before him, but the Lord slapped some sense in him. As for me, I know that I feel inadequate for this MCAT beast, but the Lord spoke to me in this passage. As I was feeling this way, He asked me, “Who created the minds of the people who make the MCAT?” “Who created your mind?” “Who created in 7 days what biochemists, microbiologists, physicists, physicians, scientists, geologists, and astrologists for years have been trying to explain with their theories?” “Who spoke your molecules, atoms, and proteins into existence?” “Is it not I, the LORD?” Now go, and I will help you get the score you need to get.”

Kaplan proposes mentally putting all your anxieties and worries in a box and putting it on a high shelf, and associating the peace and tranquility that is left with a green dot when you get anxious about the MCAT. But this morning I found my green dot, I hope you all find yours too.

More MCAT studying

June 29, 2005 by DoctaJay

Well, the studying has been going pretty well so far. On Monday I did 17 AAMC verbal passages. Needless to say, by the end of the day, I was exhausted, but at least I’m pretty confident about verbal passages. I’m realizing that practice truly does breed confidence. I was almost terrified of organic passages, and now after doing a good amount, I’m still not comfortable, but I’m not scared either. The more passages and discreet questions you do, the more you realize that there is only so many ways they can ask you a nomenclature question, or a torque question, or a Chi squared question. Now I’m surely not busting 95%s on these Kaplan Organic Topical and Subject tests, but I’m learning from my mistakes. And that’s the biggest part of the battle. A lot of the people I know that are retaking the Kaplan this year said that last year, all they did was the requirements. I guess I’m about doing the opposite. I’m basically ignoring most of the requirements and doing all the strongly recommended material like the topical, subject and AAMC tests. I’m sure everyone has their own strategy, but mine is to not spend a whole lot of time reviewing foundational information. You took a whole year of the subject, that should be a good foundation. Just do the subject, topical, aamc, and full length tests, and then do the corrections. If there is a concept that you just flat out don’t know, then you should look back on your review material. I had a dream like night that I got a 33 R on my MCAT, wouldn’t that be nice, lol. From perusing the MCAT forum, I’m realizing that I’m not the only one dreaming of good scores. So yeah, yesterday I didn’t get much done. I started off pretty well, doing some verbal passages, and some organic subject tests, but then one of the girls in the Kaplan center saw a mouse. And since I was the only guy in the center at the time, I guess it was my ordained duty to find it and kill it. So for two bloody hours, I was looking for that thing. The first 30 minutes, I was looking for it, just so the girls would calm down. But the last 1 ½ I was looking for it cause it was hurting my pride that I hadn’t killed it yet. It was a fast little bugger. It kept hiding behind the desks and the wall. So I took a nice thin metal pole, and started jamming it back there. Lol, of course now all the girls are on top of the desks, studying while I’m trying to crunch this mouse. I heard a shrill screech from the mouse, and slid the desk from the wall so I could see if I kill it, but it ran away. We didn’t see it after that though, because I’m sure I injured it. Anyway it was a job well done, and even though I didn’t do well on the organic subject tests that day, at least I got to cause a mouse pain, :-). ( You know it amazing me, that women can pour hot wax on their legs, take some paper, and RIP the hairs of their legs, but they are scared of mice. Lol, the former seems much more intimidating.) Oh yeah, my $600 Pocket PC crashed. So now I’m phoneless, and of course my girlfriend is rubbing it in, seeing as how she didn’t want me to buy the thing anyway. Well, its still under warranty, so I’ll just send it off to the service station in Texas. But it is weird not having a cell phone. Its actually more peaceful. I don’t’ have to worry about anyone interrupting me while I’m studying, reading, crapping, whatever. It should be back at my house next week, so hopefully that works out. Oh yeah, Kaplan had been getting a lot of complaints about our Physics and G. Chem teachers, so they are offering to have extra sessions to cover those classes and they are replacing the teachers. I’m probably still not going to go to class, but at least my fellow Kaplan friends can have a respectable class. I still think the classes are too focused on review, and not really focused enough on strategy. But its whatever.

Did anyone see the BET Awards show last night? It was actually really good and classy. The duet with Stevie Wonder and John Legend was amazing and Will Smith and Jada Pinkett were hilarious as hosts. Two thumbs up from DoctaJay and Ebert. Anyway, since I obviously have nothing substantial left to say, I’ll try to write later. Peace.

Kaplan strategy

June 26, 2005 by DoctaJay

 I took the comments from my readers in my last post seriously, and I think I’m going to change my strategy. You see, first when, when it comes to actually attending the Kaplan classes, I’m finding that they are pretty useless. Not because all the teachers are bad, because some are good. But because the classes are 3 hours long, and for the 1st 2 hours, the teachers are reviewing information. They aren’t teaching you strategy, they are trying to review all the background information. We already took all of the classes required for the MCAT, there is no need for all that. Also, the way Kaplan does it; they give you all this information to preview before the class, then you have the class, then you have a crap load of information to review after the class. My schedule involves a lot of crap to do, but I’m thinking that I’m just going to glance over the review notes. Maybe take the online class, then head straight into topical and subject tests. Because that’s all I need really. 1) A little background information, and the review notes cover that; 2) some strategy for those types of passages and questions, and the online course should cover that; 3) and a crap load of practice passages and discreets, which the subject and topical tests should cover. Anyway, that’s what I think I’m going to do, because I’m slowly realizing that you can’t realistically do everything Kaplan wants you to do, and keep your sanity. If I had to do it all over again, I would have just paid to have access to the Kaplan materials, instead of having the classes included. I also wouldn’t have started working, because it truly slowed me down. This is a very important test, and if there is anytime that you need to be crazy focused, its now. As you all know, I quit my job, but it wasn’t all on my own thinking. I was at my biology chair’s house last Friday, and he saw me in my Bennigans uniform, since I just came from work. He poked some fun at first, by reading to me Acts 6: 1, 2. Its was kinda funny, but then he sat me down and told me something that a Jewish man told him a long time ago in NY. He asked me why I was working, and I told me, because I needed to save up for some things, pay some bills, etc. He said ok, and took out a piece of paper. He asked me how much I could probably make this summer if I worked at Walmart, and the total was about $10,000. Then he asked me what I got on my ACT, and I told him a 24. He told me that usually, the ACT score closely mirrors your MCAT score, so he said that I was poised to make from a 27-32. Then he asked me, how much med school would cost me over 4 years. And I said, probably $170K. He said ok, and then add interest which brought it up to about $400K. Then he kind of sketched out a flow chart. He said, “So you work for the summer, make about $10,000, which in turns causes you to get around a 25-26 on your MCAT. Then you get into medical school, having received no scholarship, and end up paying about $400,000 in the end for your education.” Then he told me what the Jewish told him. “Or, you can make a sacrifice this summer, and not work, so you can focus on your MCAT. Then you can score a 30+, on your MCAT, get a nice scholarship to medical school, come out with little or no debt, and be free from the clutches of the creditors to do the Lord’s work.” I’m sure I left out some parts, but it all made sense really. I could make $10,000 now, or save almost $400,000 later. It seems like a good trade off to me. So yeah, just some advice to you all, if you don’t have to, try not to work while studying or the MCAT. I more than anyone else, hates depending on my parents, but I had to swallow my pride and ask them to support me this summer while I’m studying, so when I get out of medical school, I can truly be free. Ok, I’m done with all that. I’ll talk to you all later. P.S.- What’s with these people clicking the 1 star rank 30 times to bring the rank of my post down. Do you really think that me or any of the other diarists care about how you ranked the post, LOL. Its our diary, and we can do whatever we want. Its just humorous to me to think someone actually took the time out to click the 1 star 30 times.

Never work and study for the MCAT

June 23, 2005 by DoctaJay

 Sorry I haven’t written in a long time, but I’ve been kind of stressed lately. I started my training at Bennigans on Tuesday, and it was pretty fun. Being a waiter was cool, but since I was training, I wasn’t allowed to get any tips. At the same time I’ve been studying for the MCAT through the Kaplan course. The amount of information that you have to review is absolutely maddening at times. There were times where I studied from 10 a.m. to 10 p.m. and I still didn’t complete half the things they recommended I do that day. At first, lets say for the Chemistry 1 class, I would read chapters 1-3 in the Physical Sciences review book. Each chapter is about 20 pages, and at the end of each chapter is a BUTTLOAD of questions pertaining to the chapter you just finished reading. It usually takes about 3 hours to complete this, and once you are done, your brain is kind of fried and you just want to take a break. So you bum off for about an hour, then try to get back to studying, but its lunch time now, so you chill some more. After you eat lunch, then its time to do the workshop for Chemistry 1, which is usually over the same topic as the chapter reviews. In our case, our workshop is on Quantum Numbers & Electronic Configuration. This online workshop is about 30 slides and it take about 1+ hours to finish it. Once you are done the workshop, then you take the online quiz over Quantum Numbers & Electronic Configuration. This quiz usually takes about 10 min. Once you are done with the quiz, if you missed the class session on Chemistry 1, you can view a full scale slide show of the information you missed. This will take you at least 1 ½ hours. After you do the class, then you can take the topical tests, and in our case there are 2 of them. The topical tests are composed of MCAT like passages, so they take a while, like a good 2 hours because you not only have to do the tests, but you also have to check your answers that you got wrong. Then you can do the 5-10 AAMC tests that are also recommended for that class, and also some subject tests which usually take about 3 hours each to finish. So as you can see, its always something to do. And me, like many other Kaplan students, am very behind. I think I’ve figured out how I’m going to study for these things. I’m going to read the review notes, but I’m not going to do the questions at the back of each chapter. They are too calculation heavy and they take too long, two factors which aren’t really MCAT-like at all. Other than that, I’m going to do everything else, but I’m really going to focus on doing a lot of practice questions. That means doing every topical, subject, and AAMC test they have available, and they really do have a lot of them. I’m realizing that the whole point of this thing is to recognize the type of questions they ask you, and know what concept they are testing. They can only ask you a kinematics or a chi-squared question in so many ways. Your job is to learn how to identify all these different ways so you’ll be ready for the real thing. Once you figure that out, everything else is cake. Repetition is the key here, and so I plan to truly do as many problems as possible, and I truly think you learn more by reading the explanations for the questions you got wrong than doing other things. Also, studying for this Physics section is really annoying me. I took a whole year of Physics and got A’s both semesters, and I still feel like I didn’t learn much. I was studying for much for the Physics section that I was neglecting my other sections. I’m realizing that I just may honestly never do well on the Physics part of the PS section. So my strategy now is to focus very hard on the other sections to offset whatever score I might get PS section. With the amount of stuff they are throwing our way, you have to kind of triage your studying time.

Today I’m going to quit my job at Bennigans. I know I just got it, but I just can’t continue to study for it and expect a 30 or above on my MCAT. I literally need to study at least 12 hours per day to even get through most of the information, and working a 5 hour shift during that time really puts me back. I figure that this is the most important test I’ll be taking in a good long while, so I really need make sure I’m giving it my all. Plus I paid $1,000 for this Kaplan course, so I’m trying to take everything I can out of it.

Oh yeah, I’ve just about decided that I’m not going to the classes anymore. The organic and verbal teachers are good, but I’m not weak in either of those subjects. I could be shooting myself in the foot, but I think I’ll accomplish more through individual study than through a teacher.

Oh yeah, MY GIRLFRIEND IS BACK FROM INDIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As you can tell, I’m pretty happy about that. They truly had a great time, and they baptized about 185 people, so it was a really good mission. I truly hope to be going on one next summer, or even over Christmas break.

Anyway, that’s all that’s happening with me now. With no job, and plenty of MCAT stuff to study, I’ll be busy. I’ll try to post more frequently.

No Kaplan Score Guarantee

June 13, 2005 by DoctaJay

Well, it looks to me like I’m probably not going to get my Kaplan Higher Score Guarantee. Kaplan has a higher score guarantee, where if you attend all your classes, do all your homework, and take all the tests, and still aren’t satisfied with your MCAT score, they will let you take the course again for free, or refund the money you paid for it. At this point, I’m almost sure that I will not WASTE MY TIME attending the classes. First of all, they are 3 hours. More importantly, those 3 hours are taught by people who are probably inept at teaching even 3rd grade biology, chemistry, or physics. Our first class was just an introduction to the strategies needed to take the test, and although it was obvious that she didn’t know what she was talking about, and was just reading out of the Kaplan book, we tolerated her, cause it had nothing to do with science. Our second class was Physics, and my goodness, after almost 2 hours, I had not learned ANYTHING. Our teacher was in a wheelchair, and so I felt bad about getting up and leaving, so I stayed, but most of the people in the class did. I missed yesterday’s General Chemistry class because I was at my sister’s graduation (which went well by the way), and I was a little worried that I missed a class that could have really helped me, cause PS was my weakest section. Well, I talked to my friends who took that session and they said that the teacher was worst than the Physics teacher. They said it was obvious that she didn’t even know how to teach science, much less General Chemistry. She couldn’t pronounce nucleus or fluorine, and just overall didn’t know what she was talking about. As bad as the Physics teacher was, for my friends to adamantly state that she was worse than the Physics teacher was really saying something. So, I have just about chosen not to go to the classes anymore. The online material is an exact duplicate of what we get in class, so I should be alright.

On to better news….I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So yeah, I’m a waiter at Bennigans. It’s a pretty laid back restaurant, where I can hopefully make some good money in tips. Other than that, nothing else interesting is happening. I fly back into Huntsville tomorrow to continue my studying for the MCAT, so wish me luck!

This MCAT studying thing is actually going pretty well

June 8, 2005 by DoctaJay

This MCAT studying thing is actually going pretty well. Yesterday, I went into the Kaplan center and watched one of their tapes, MCAT Strategy and Skills 1 . It was actually pretty cool. It basically expressed again how important this how MCAT thing is. And that you will only get out of it what you put in. They presented a couple of techniques for calming down when taking the test. They told us that the first thing we will see when we get to the MCAT test center is not the test, but a long line of people waiting to take the test. These lines usually make people very nervous, so they advised you take your Kaplan notecards and look over them; instead of worrying about the line. They also, beforehand, told us to close our eyes, and imagine ourselves putting everything else but the MCAT in a box, taping that box shut, and putting the box on a high shelf. Then, after we did all of that, we were instructed to open our eyes and the tape showed a big green dot. It said that every time we get anxious or nervous, we should look at the green dot, which should be colored on our hand during test time (Kaplan must be racist because there is no way that a green marker will show up green on my hand, LOL). It sounds ridiculous, but associating peace and tranquility with a green dot really does calm you down. Anyway, the tape gave me a lot of good advice. Later that night, at 6 p.m., we had our first class session where a Kaplan lady came in and taught us, MCAT Strategy and Skills 1 . I realized then and there that it really made no sense to come to class. She didn’t know what she was talking about, and the tape that I watched earlier that morning gave me more good information than she could. I’m going to still try to come in case there are some good teachers, but the online material and the Kaplan material are first rate. They truly have more questions, tests, and workshops than you can do. Although I plan to try my hardest to do everything, it really is a lot. Overall, I’m very glad I decided to take the class. They give you a very good structure on which to study for the MCAT. I usually study online anyway, but I’m not so good at planning studying over a long period of time. Kaplan does that for you, and it really makes things easier.

Anyway, we got our diagnostic scores back this morning, and here’s my break down: 7V 6B 6P = 19. We didn’t do a written section on our diagnostic test, so I don’t have that grade. Anyway, Kaplan chided us many times before we got out results that these are truly DIAGNOSTIC results, and we should significantly improve from these. Overall, I’m pretty happy about it, because I know that with a lot of hard work, I can score well. My strong point seems to be Verbal Reasoning, and I need a lot of work in General Chemistry and Physics. Its kind of weird though, I breezed through my Biology class, and struggled in Organic class, but I scored higher on the Organic part of Biological Sciences. Anyway, I know that its going to be a long struggle, but it is possible. One thing that the Kaplan lady did get through to me was that there is no gene for doing well on standardized tests, which I knew, but didn’t really know. I always thought that, “Well hey, I’m black, so I won’t do well on a standardized test.” That just isn’t true, as I now realize. Its all about critical thinking, and once I master that, then it should be fine.

We have our first Physics class tomorrow, so I’ll tell you all how that goes.

Well I took my Kaplan Diagnostic test,

June 6, 2005 by DoctaJay

Well I took my Kaplan Diagnostic test, and it was pretty hard. We were in the lecture hall, and the head guy at the Birmingham office was talking to us. He told us how lucky we are because all of our teachers are actually teachers, and not fellow students who have been hired by Kaplan. Anyway, after that, he went on to tell us how incredibly important the MCAT was, and how it could affect what we do for the next 50 years of our life. He got us nice and nervous and then handed out our diagnostic test. It only lasted for 4 hours, but I was still fatigued at the end. The first section was the physical sciences section, which literally ripped me a new one. I already don’t remember anything about general chemistry, and the physics they had in there seemed much more in depth than what I learned. The organic chemistry was crazy hard too, but not as hard. The biological sciences was much harder than I expected. I felt pretty good about the verbal section, so I guess 1 out of 3 aint bad, lol.

Anyway, I just felt quite demoralized after the test was finished. I guess I should have reviewed a little before the test, but I really wanted to rest before I started this course. Anyway, I guess that’s what this course is for. To get us ready for the actual test, so we’ll see how everything goes. Our first class is tomorrow, and I think its over Physics. I’ll keep you all updated on everything. We get our diagnostic test scores back on Wednesday, and we also get our online login info on Wednesday too. Peace.

Taking the future parents-in-law out

June 2, 2005 by DoctaJay

Last night I had dinner with Brittany’s parents. The purpose of the dinner was to ask their permission to marry her. I was pretty nervous at first, but it went pretty well. They inquired as to how I was going to support her. And I tried to explain to them the whole medical school loan thing, but it was hard for them to understand (Brittany is the first person in at least 3 generations of her family to go to college). All in all, it turned out great, and I have their permission. Now I just have to sell my body so I can afford a ring, lol. Today I’m going on a tour of the University of Maryland SOM. I’ll take some pictures and hopefully post it up. This is a short post because I leave for Alabama to study for the MCAT on Saturday. Our diagnostic test is on Sunday, so I’ll pick up my diaries from there.

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Alright, let me give u my impressions of my tour today. Overall, I have to say that I’m really impressed. The admissions office is in a fray right now because they are moving their whole office to another building.

First Ms. Hicks walked me out of the old admissions office, up some stairs so that she could show me the Office of Student and Faculty Development. Nothing really exciting there. As we were walking, I noticed that there was a significant, and I mean significant amount of construction going on inside the medical school. She told me that they are completely gutting the medical school out, and redoing it. I couldn’t go into the lecture hall that they were remodeling, but she showed me one they hadn’t remodeled yet, and it truly did need to be updated.

Next I asked her about the tuition at UMD SOM. She told me that it was about $20,000/year for Maryland residents. That truly made my heart flutter since Hopkins is like $13,000 more expensive. She personally felt that that cost was too high even for instate residents, but that kind of stuff can’t be changed, its only up from here.

Then she took me into the gross anatomy lab and a professor was actually working on a cadaver when we walked in. He was pretty cool, and told us we could go on. She showed me some cadavers, and I got to see the small lecture room where I guess they are taught before they head out to actually cut. The room was pretty massive, but overall, it was very old looking. Most of the medical school was very old looking, so I guess that’s why they are remodeling. I’m not sure how long its going to take for them to finish, but I’m sure it’ll look much better once its done.

Then she walked me around until we arrived in the building that the admissions office is moving to. It truly is brand spanking new, and much nicer than their office in the medical school. Its actually a research building, but they way they set it up, everything is connected. You can walk through the hospital, the medical school, and two research buildings, all without going outside. The medical school uses (extensively) the research buildings when they hold their classes. They call them ‘pods’ or something like that. Its just a whole bunch of research laboratories where they teach science students. She told me that they used to require each student to buy a microscope, but now they provide them for the students in these ‘pods’. Each pod consists of a couple of rooms, each with video cameras and TVs. The students can watch what the teacher is doing in one room, off their TV in their room. Its all pretty cool

Maryland provides laptops for all of their students. And the campus has internet ports just about everywhere. As we left the pods, she took me to this other area where they hold a lot of their small group sessions, which is integrated into their curriculum. It was pretty cool, cause each room had a white board, a big conference table, and plush seats. Your first two years, you are in class from 8-12, which isn’t too bad. They have a letter grading scale over there, but Ms. Hicks said that it wasn’t crazy competitive. Also, everything is online. Every lecture is videotaped and put online. And so are the notes from each lecture. So you really don’t have to go to class. We walked into one of the small group rooms and a student was their with her laptop surfing the internet. She was black and I got to talk to her for a little bit, she was pretty cool. I got to the see the laptop too, and it was pretty nice. It looked like one of those IBM ThinkPad laptops. We went into another room, and I saw two more black students, who were studying for their Step 1 boards. They look a little frazzled, but they seemed happy. After we left that room, I asked Ms. Hicks how many blacks were in the class. She told me that in this upcoming class, they accepted 37 black people, but some are dropping their acceptance for other schools. She said that what they really need are black men, because they really don’t have many of those.

Basically, the two research buildings are state of the art, and brand new. The actual medical school is getting renovated. So yeah, then she took me outside, and walked me around campus. Even though its in the city, the campus is actually kind of enclosed, because the UMD SOM buildings kind of cut off the campus from the surrounding city. All you have to do is walk another block and you know you’re in Baltimore, but it does seem different when you get in the middle of the campus. They are just doing massive amounts of building everywhere. She said they are expanding the campus west and north or something like that. They are building a completely new dental school, which will be the biggest and most state of the art dental school in the United State period, when it is done. They are also renovating major parts of the hospital, like the Shock Trauma center.

Then she took me to the Student center, where they have the book store, and a nice lounge with a lots of computers and a big screen TV. I could definitely see myself spending a lot of time there. They also have a couple more multi-million dollar research building on campus, dealing with AIDS and everything else. I’m sure there was more, but I can’t remember it.

The tour was over, and she sent me on my way. I was hungry, so I walked a couple of blocks to this historic place called Lexington Market. It has a whole bunch of places to eat, and its been there since 1780 something. As I was walking around in the city, I just got kind of sad. The state of the black people there is deplorable. You can tell that most of them don’t have any education, and majority of them were obese, smoking, cussin all around the place. I really hope that somehow, I can make a difference. Anyway, if you are uncomfortable being around a whole grip of lower class black people, you might not like the area IMMEDIATELY surrounding the medical school. It is truly in the city. Personally, I don’t care, because I want to be with my people, and help. But if that’s not your thing, you might want to think twice.

That’s all I can remember. Overall, I really like the school, and hopefully, I’ll get in.

P.S.- My friend just gave me the Common cd, “Be”. Its really good. Usually I don’t’ listen to much rap cause most of these rappers have horrible messages, but this CD is REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY GOOD. Check it out. Or Download it, lol.

This past week in New York was pretty fun

May 19, 2005 by DoctaJay

This past week in New York was pretty fun. While my grandparents visited the people they came up there to visit, I got one of my cousins to take me to the different med schools in New York that I was interested in. I didn’t get to see a whole lot, but I was able to draw my impressions. I was interested in NYU, Mt. Sinai, Albert Einstein, and Columbia University. I couldn’t visit Einstein because it was in the Bronx and we didn’t have time to go there, but the rest were in Manhattan, so I got to visit them. NYU SOM was the first school I visited, and I didn’t necessarily like the facilities too much. Everything looked pretty old, historic, but not nice historic, more like old historic. The admissions office looked very nice, so I guess that’s good. Their library (if they had another one, I didn’t see it) was pretty small. It didn’t seem very comfortable and overall I would prefer studying in the library at my school, which is saying a lot cause ours is HORRIBLE. Now they had a really nice outside courtyard where students were chilling on benches studying, so that was nice. I went to one of the auditoriums where they usually teach. It was gimongous, but still old looking. I sat in some of the seats, and they were creaky and uncomfortable. That probably won’t matter too much since I probably won’t go to lectures that much anyway. Oh yeah, there was a crazy amount of Asians there. It took a good bit of walking around before I saw a white student, and much more looking before I saw a black student. I could have just come at a bad time, but yeah, at first glance NYU didn’t seem too diverse. So yeah, that was my impression of the little I saw of NYU SOM.

From the facilities alone, Mt. Sinai looked wonderful! Everything looked new and modern. The cafeteria had nice looking food and it looked new also. They had two sanctuaries, one nondenominational sanctuary and a much bigger jewish sanctuary. Many of the classes were in session, but I peaked through the window into one of the auditoriums and it look pretty nice. Their library was really impressive and it had a lot more things that made it more conducive to studying like big cushy seats, lots of computers, individual cubbies, round tables, lots of windows, etc. I could really see myself studying in that library. Of course, as I was walking around, I saw a pretty good amount of Jewish students but when I saw a poster of last years graduating class, I realized that the class was pretty diverse. They also had this huge concert hall place where a lot of conventions are held. Overall, I really loved how Mt. Sinai looked.

When I got to Columbia and tried to go in, I was stopped by a black female security guard. You know, those are always the worst. Its like they try to prove to you that they actually have a penis. Anyway, she gave me a rough time saying that I couldn’t go in because they were having a graduation. Well, I had already passed the auditorium that they were having a graduation in, so I wasn’t intruding on that. I just wanted to see the facilities, but she slapped me with her imaginary penis and told me to go away. So I went back outside and I guess the graduation had just finished. The Columbia University College of Physicians and Surgeons Class of 2005 was outside taking pictures with their families. It was really nice to see that; to see what might lie in my future if I stick with this long journey. Well after that, I left Columbia and got some New York pizza, a cheese cake from Juniors, and some sorrel from Glorias. Overall, I had a great time in New York.

So yeah, I’ve been trying exercise more. I really only need to loose 10 lbs, so I guess I’ll have to get on the treadmill. As you all know, I work in my mom’s office in the afternoon. Some pretty interesting things happened there. First, I was being taught by one of the nurses that works there how to enter the checks received into the computer. I entered in most of them, but I was confused when I got to the MediCare and Blue Cross Blue Shield letters. There was no check attached, just a letter. One of the nurses read it and explained to me that they were denying payment for a service we had rendered. Now this service had been rendered on May of 2004!!! It took them that long to respond to us, and they weren’t even giving us money. That is absolutely ridiculous. My mom’s office doesn’t accept insurances, only cash and MediCare so that’s how they’ve been able to keep their head above water, but these offices that accept mainly insurances I’m sure are suffering from this crap. An hour later, my mom sent me up to the Safeway pharmacy to pick up a prescription she wrote for my dad. She gave me about $5 to pay for it. When I got there, the pharmacist told me that it cost $88, because the medicine my mom ordered, Cipro, was not covered under our plan. Well of course I wasn’t paying that amount, so I went back to the office. My mom seemed pretty pissed about the whole thing. You see, we get our insurance through my dad’s government job. I guess his job just renegotiated their health plan for their employees, and it looked like they got the cheapest plan for their government employees, a plan that denies most of the brand name medicines that doctors prescribe. My mom was saying that there are many times when we prescribes a drug for her patient, and the patient’s insurance refused to pay for it, and instead recommended a non-brand name drug that did the same thing. My mom was saying that basically, the insurance companies are deciding how doctors can treat their patients. These are people who aren’t doctors but they are telling doctors what they can and can’t prescribe for their patients. Its just a bad situation, that needs to be fixed. And I don’t think universal healthcare is the answer either.

Yesterday, while I was working at my mom’s office a black, clean cut man, with an Armani suit walked in. I could have sworn that he was a drug rep, just because he was dressed so nicely. He actually turned out to be a patient that was sent to us by the Annapolis Department of Health. This guy really made the nurses at the office mad. They told me that he’s bisexual and has HIV and syphilis. The history in his chart revealed that in the past couple of months he has had many sexual encounters with both male and females, some of which no protection was used. This guy shows that you really can’t judge a book by it cover. I know a lot of black women are looking for professional men, and this guy would certainly fit that desire. But it just goes to show you that these STDs know no class, hierarchy or tax bracket. Your best bet is to just wait until you are married. I know its easier said than done, but with guys like him lurking around, guys who wont’ tell you that they are HIV positive, it’s the only safe thing to do.

I got my Kaplan schedule in the mail today for this summer. Here it is:

Diagnosit and Science Diagnostic – 6/5
MCAT Strategy and Critical Thinking 1- 6/7
Physics 1 – 6/9
General Chemistry 1 – 6/12
Verbal 1 – 6/14
Organic Chemistry 1 – 6/16
Biology 1 – 6/19
Physics 2 – 6/21
General Chemistry 2 – 6/23
Verbal 2 – 6/26
Organic Chemistry 2 – 6/28
Biology 2 – 6/30
Full-Length Practice Test 1 – 7/5
MCAT Strategy and Critical Thinking 2 – 7/7
Physics 3 – 7/10
General Chemistry 3 – 7/12
Verbal 3 – 7/14
Full-Length Practice Test 2 – 7/17
Organic Chemistry 3 – 7/19
Biology 3 – 7/21
Full Length Practice Test 3 – 7/24
MCAT Strategy and Critical Thinking 3 – 7/28
Full-Length Practice Test 4 – 8/7
Full-Length Practice Test 5 – 8/14

I guess now, I just need to figure out my personal study schedule. As my mentors Donn and Brian told me, the key to the MCAT is doing practice questions. So I want to devote as much time to that as possible. Did anyone of you have a study plan that worked?

I saw Star Wars today, and it was freakin tight!!! Anyway, I’ll talk to you all later.

Well, I’m in Maryland now and I’m happy to be home

May 14, 2005 by DoctaJay

Well, I’m in Maryland now and I’m happy to be home. I got a $138 speeding ticket in Tennessee on the way up. The cop clocked me going 87 mph in a 70 mph area, but I know I was going at least 92 mph. I was going to point out his error but I decided against it, lol. Anyway, I’m not so happy about the ticket because now the money I was saving for my girlfriends ring, I have to use to pay the ticket; so that sets me back a bit. Do you all remember that admissions lady and Brittany and I met with at the University of Maryland SOM? Well I called her up the other day to see how she was doing, and she gave me some pretty good advice. She asked me when I was taking the MCAT, and I said this upcoming August. She told me that when I’m studying for the MCAT, make sure that I don’t neglect the verbal and written sections. She told me that the University of Maryland regards those sections as very important, and it would greatly help my admission into the school if I did well on the sections. They certainly care about the science parts also, but they feel that the verbal and written sections show that a person is well-rounded, which is something that UMD SOM cares about a lot. This probably isn’t new information, but I’m telling yall anyway.

So what have I been doing on my summer break, after a crazy hard school year? SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP. For the first time in awhile I get to stay up till 4 a.m. watching tv and dvds. It truly has been wonderful.

During the day, I work at my mom’s office. She was trained as a pediatrician, but she is doing family practice at this time. Usually when I work at her office, I basically stay in the front and check in patients and enter them into the computer. But the other day, my mom actually tried to make me feel like a doctor. A patient came in, and I started to enter them in the computer like I usually do. After I made the folder, I gave the folder to my mom; but this time she asked me to take the patient in the back and take their history. Now I know this sounds like nothing, but I was really excited, cause this was the first time my mom ever let do something doctor like. Of course I had absolutely no idea how to do a history so she had to run me through it. In the office setting, a history is pretty simple. Basically I just asked the patient why they came in today. From there the patient would proceed to tell me what was wrong with them whether it be a headache, dry cough, mucous cough, trouble breathing, warts on penis, etc. So I’m basically writing all of this information down on the history sheet. You also ask extra questions if they don’t mention it like how long they have been feeling that way, are they on any medications, allegories, etc. If they mention that they had a fever I would then check their temperature with the thermometer. Then I would take their height and weight, and other stuff. All in all, it was pretty cool although I did mess up some times. Like this girl and her mom came in, and the girl was feeling sick. The mom mentioned that she had a fever so I figured I needed to check the temperature. Realizing that I had never taken a temperature before, and also realizing that I had absolutely no idea where the thermometer was I got a little nervous. I finally found it, stuck it under her tongue, and took the temperature. I found out later that you aren’t supposed to directly stick it in the patients mouth. They have disposable covers for the thermometer that you put on it when you use it on a patient. I thought you just needed to rub it down with alcohol. Needless to say, I might have spread some sickness that day, but hey, its all about learning right? LOL.

Are any of my readers into computer gaming? I’ve been playing Half Life 2 non-stop since I got home. It is truly an amazing first person shooter. I’m a computer geek to the fullest and it would be nice to know that I have a fellow comp geek to talk to about computer games and hard drives ,lol.

My parents have really been stressing lately because they don’t know how they are going to pay for my sister’s college education. Middle class families are really in a bad place when it comes to financial aid these days. We don’t have enough money to pay our children’s tuition in full but we enough money to not be eligible for any kind of financial aid. It really isn’t fair. My parents are going to finally have to take out loans to pay for her education, which is not something they’re prepared to do. But I guess you got to do what you got to do. I just wish I could become really rich and help my parents but that’s highly unlikely. I guess if my mom chose a field that was more lucrative then everything would be alright, but she choose what she loves instead and now she’s suffering for it. Meh, I’m venting, ignore me.

I’m leaving for Brooklyn on Sunday with my grandparents. So that should be fun. I might try to check out my NY medical schools!!! Anyway, until then, I’ll hit yall up later.

Ah, yes, the wonderful serenity that comes with being on summer break.

May 4, 2005 by DoctaJay

Ah, yes, the wonderful serenity that comes with being on summer break. For the past week, I haven’t had to wake up to an alarm clock. Summer break is the best!!! So, what have I been doing thus far? The answer to that is a pretty good amount. Even though school ended last Friday, I’m still in Huntsville helping NAPS pack for their mission trip to India. My girlfriend is one of the NAPS members that is going to India, so helping them pack serves a dual purpose, because I get to see her alittle bit longer. This past Sunday, we were building a NAPS mission retreat center, and of course, since it’s a retreat center, the site isn’t accessible by cars, so all the materials have to be brought by foot…YIPPIE, lol. So yeah, and couple of weeks ago, we carried ONE HUNDRED AND SIXTY 80 lb. bags down to the retreat center. And last Sunday, we carried about ONE THOUGHSAND 40 lb. concrete blocks. My muscles are sore to say the least, but it was a good work out. Other than that, I’ve been labeling the bins that NAPS takes on their missions. This mission they are taking about 50 bins, filled with generators, stuff for children, stuff for the evangelistic meeting, stuff to build schools, etc. Its going to be a great mission, and I really wish I could go, but my little sister is graduating from high school, and I wouldn’t be back in time if I went. So yeah, I’m helping until Thursday, and then I’m leaving early Friday to get back to Maryland in time for Mother’s Day. Yesterday was a sad day for my school. Our school chaplain, Elder Humphries dropped dead from a heart attack. If you ever met this man, you would instantly feel comfortable; that’s just how he made you feel. His love for Jesus was also an aspect of him that couldn’t be ignored. He was a pastor for many years, and came back to Oakwood to serve as a chaplain. He wasn’t that old, I think around 53, and he left behind a wife and 2 little boys. Please pray for his family. His passing was a great loss to the school, but I know he was a man of God, so I know I will see him again. You know, it truly baffles me why people who think that I’m arrogant still read my posts. If I don’t like someone, I usually try to stay away from them. Maybe my true personality can’t be understood through mere words in a diary, and that is something I can understand. But regardless of what the diarist’s personality is like, why do people leave comments about it. Do they think that comments of random people on the internet will really change someone’s personality. It really is all funny to me, but yeah, like I said before, I won’t be responding to them anymore. As for the substance of my posts, when I first found out about SDN, the first diary I read was that of Brian Hartman. I really liked the way he wrote his diaries. He was detailed about his social life, and he also posted the grades he made on different tests and classes in med school. When I was given the opportunity to be a diarist, I mimicked his style. If that style is arrogant, then I guess that is what it is. But its not changing, so stop wasting your time. Most of my grades have been posted, and I’m not too pleased about some of them. Now before I talk about my grades, realize that I’m a grades whore. I love A’s, and I aspire for them all the time. It’s a part of my personality that I’m trying to work on, but for now, that’s how I am. Here are my grades:
Genetics (3 hours):A
Organic Chemistry (3 hours): A
Organic Chemistry Lab (1 hour): A-
U.S. History (3 hours): A
Volleyball (1 hour): B+
Health Principles (2 hours): A
General Physics (4 hours): A

Overall, I’m pretty happy about my grades for this semester. Genetics was a class that upper classmen had told me to fear. They told me that almost no one gets an A in Dr. Durant’s Genetics class, but this class taught me a serious lesson. Always approach a class with the mindset that you can do well, because if you come into the class with anxiety due to what other people said, you will already have the mindset of failure. I definitely felt a tinge of fear taking her class, because of what the other students said, but when I finally took that class, I realized that it wasn’t so bad after all, and those students must just have not known how to study for her class.

I got an A in Organic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I felt like that ACS exam had ripped me a new one, but I guess it went alright. The Lord truly came through in this class.

Volleyball, my freaking GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the grade that almost made me go postal. I got the first B on my transcript in VOLLEYBALL????? The reason why I’m pissed is because I truly don’t deserve this grade. First of all, the teacher NEVER gave us a syllabus, so we had no idea how we were being graded. Second, we only had 3 gradeable assignments!!! We had two skills tests, and one take home test the WHOLE SEMESTER!!! I’m pretty sure I did well on those things, but I can’t be sure since he never gave us back anything. Now I truly worked hard in Volleyball. I had never really played before, but I ended up being picked usually for the good team. I tried all semester to find out how I was doing in the class, and he kept telling me that, “I’d find out when the class is over.” I knew this grade had to be wrong, or if it wasn’t, I wanted him to justify how I received that grade. So I went to the PE department, and of course he wasn’t there. I’ve been there everyday this week, and he hasn’t been there. I went to the Vice-President of Academic Affairs, but he told me to see the chair of the PE department first. So I went there, and he was very helpful. He gave me Coach Roddy’s home phone number, and told me how to get to his house. As I was talking to him, the secretary brought in Coach Roddy’s gradebook. The chair, Dr. Shaw, looked at the grade book and shook his head in disbelief. All Roddy had in his gradebook was attendance. Coach Roddy didn’t even have the 3 assignments we did that semester in his gradebook. The chair told me to call him when I get a chance, and if things aren’t resolved, then I could go to Academic Affairs. I usually don’t raise hell, but I was truly wronged. My mom told me try to get it changed, but if I can’t don’t worry about it. She is kind of right, even though I don’t want to admit it. A B+ in a 1 credit class brings my GPA down like .01%, but it’s the principle of the matter. I didn’t earn a B+, I earned an A. Anyway, I’ll keep yall posted on what happens with that.

I deserved the A- in Organic Lab, but I’m not happy about it. The teacher changed the grading scale without telling us. Last semester, an A was a 90, and I got a 90.1%, so I got an A. This semester, an A is a 94%, and I got a 93%, so I got a A-. I just wish she would have told us, so I could have tried to work harder. Meh, whatever.

Health Principles was a breeze. That God for the A thought.

I got an A in Physics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know you all read in my previous entries about how I was struggling in that class due to one bad test. During finals week, I was really freaking out about the Physics test. I knew that I had to get a perfect on the final to squeeze out an A, and with the Lord’s help, I got a 102% on the final!!! It was a pretty serious exam, but I studied and prayed like there was no tomorrow, and everything worked out.

So yeah, all in all, it was a pretty good semester. On to stuff that is more interesting, I had a serious battle with diarrhea the other day. You all are going to be doctors, so I can share this with you. It started off early in the morning, and ended an hour or two later. I crapped so much that I thought my heart would be the next thing coming out of my hole. Eventually, I crapped so much that there were no more solids coming out anymore, it was just pure liquid. It truly felt like Niagara Falls was pouring out of me. Lol, I hope I wasn’t too real with you all.

A little while ago, I e-mailed the doctors that I shadowed this past summer to see how they were doing. Here are their replies; the first reply is from Donn. He’s a 5th year surgery resident:

Hey DoctaJay what’s up man! Great to hear from you. Congrats on what sounds like a successful year. Glad the fat whip didn’t corrupt the master plan. It definitely looked pretty tight in the picture. I assume you still have it? And your girl….ha,ha…given the attention that likely came with it.

It’s funny that I was just talking about you and the NAPS organization with a friend of mine the other day. I am on the board of an organization called Vilage Life Outreach that does medical brigades to Tanzania. They are organizing their second annual trip this Oct. and wanted to hire camera people to help document things on video. I told them about the video you showed me and how the power of the message and the mission can transcend the technicalities of amateur photography. To spend the money on a camera crew at this early stage would siphon much needed funds from the principal objective which is to provide service to people in desperate need. Unfourtunately I won’t be able to go with them again this year because of my schedule but I hope to make it next year. In fact I would love to do a NAPS trip too one day.

As for work…I am days away from finishing my last month ever of the trauma team. Johannigman offered me a spot to stay on as the fellow next year which was very cool. Although the thought crossed my mind when he said it, the reality is that I was really more honored than anything else. Truthfully I find trauma to be pretty depressing. I did another ED thoracotomy on Sunday. It was my 4th one total and you know what? Each patient looked exactly the same. -Just like you and I. The amount of inhumanity that goes on every day in our society is really sad. I am planning to do a Laparoscopic surgery fellowship when I get out of here and then likely go in to some variation of private practice. (i.e some teaching but not at a University).

I think Kaplan test prep is a good idea. I took it when I came through. I wasn’t too impressed by the actual classes but the books and testing resources did the trick. It also helps provide additional focus/discipline during the summer months. The goal would be to take the test one time and knock it out. Part of attaining that goal is learning the in’s and out’s of the test itself. Kaplan will give you that. Hopefully you got a scholarship because I remember it being pretty expensive. It’s a worthwhile investment regardless. With your GPA and extracurriculars, a bangin’ MCAT score will put you anywhere you want to be. Just remember that as you keep grindin’ away.

Keep in touch and let me know how things are going. I’m looking forward to big things from you. As you enter into finals just remember grades are just hoops that we are forced to jump through. Knowledge is power. These are the 4 A’s that really matter.

1) Always balance hard work with hard play. 2)Appreciate the good people around you because they will strengthen you. 3)Atttitude (yours)is the only thing in this world that you can always control at all times.4)All things are attainable with God as your plan.

Later
-Donn

Of course we can’t forget my med school mantra : Perserverance and endurance ensure success.

I really admire Donn, so of course I jumped like a giddy school girl when I got his e-mail. A couple of things he said jumped out at me. First that fact that he found Trauma to be pretty depressing kind of saddened me. I want to be a Trauma surgeon because of the experiences I had shadowing him, but I guess it all can’t be great. When I was shadowing, Donn did at least 3 ED thorachotomies, and they were all on black guys, under 25 years old. I can see how it gets sad after while, but I think that I’d actually be happy, but I’m serving a role in helping these guys in at least one aspect of their lives. Another thing that jumped out at me was when he told me that grades are just hoops that we are forced to jump through, but knowledge is power. I guess I honestly hadn’t focused so much on knowledge as I did grades. I mean, I certainly do have knowledge of what I’ve studied thus far, but I would probably fret much less about grades, if I was confident that I knew the material. Anyway, there’s some good advice in his e-mail, that’s why I posted it.

The next e-mail is from brian. He is a 3rd year emergency medicine resident:

what’s up big man??
nice to hear from you and nice to hear all is well on your end. as for myself, i’m currently on vacation so things are obviously going well on my end. work has been extremely busy as expected, but as rewarding as ever. so you got the ol’ MCAT coming up fairly soon huh? for me, this was the most stressful part about the whole medical school process.
i have several tips for you. first, try your absolute hardest to take this thing only once. if you can buck up, study your head off for one big test, you will get in the right mindset on your end that you have to (and will) do well. also, medical schools like the fact you won’t have taken it several times.

second, this is the most important thing i can tell you, is do as many questions/practice tests, etc. as you can!! believe me when i tell you that. you obviously have to study to increase your knowledge base, but as you start to do practice tests and questions you will learn that there is only a certain amount of ways that they can ask you questions. what i did was to study very hard, increasing my knowledge base, and then started doing questions. to continue, speed is important. if you feel rushed, you don’t think as well and will not do as well.

tips to increase your speed- 1) know how to take the test. this will come natural as you do questions and practice tests 2) even when you’re not studying for the MCAT, try to read anything and consciously try to remember the gist of it. example, if you’re just sitting around reading the paper, a magazine, etc. FINISH the article and soak it in. this may sound weird, but the more you read, the quicker you get, that’s all 3) when taking the actual MCAT don’t waste time by doing a question then bubbling in the answers individually. finish an entire question section, then mark all of those down at once. this saves several minutes. 4) when it is getting closer to the test, when you are doing questions, time them and try to mimic the actual test conditions from a time standpoint. this way, you will know if you need to speed up, and once again will become better at test-taking.

to continue, don’t waste anytime studying for the written section. unless things have changed since i took the test, medical schools really don’t care a bit about it. i literally did nothing to prepare for it, and got the second highest score possible.

well, i can’t think of too much more to tell you. keep me posted, and let me know how things are going. good luck to you man. you should do fine.

keep livin’ the dream,

B

Brian gave me a wealth of MCAT advice, so that is why I posted it.

I think I’m addicted to that show on ABC, Grey’s Anatomy . First off, the main character is pretty cute, and its about surgery residents, which is what I want to do. Anyway, this show has eclipsed my other favorite doctor shows like ER, Scrubs, and House. Do you all like it as much as I do?

I think that that is all I have to say today. I’ll keep yall posted if anything else happens.

Looking back on my college career so far.

April 29, 2005 by DoctaJay

Was I the first writer on Premeddiary.com? Its either me or Orlando. I was just wondering and couldn’t remember. Its amazing to see how this site has grown. So yeah, I told you all in my last post that this post was going to be very informative in regards to the premed journey. First I’m going to describe to you the track I’m taking, and why I’m taking that track. Then I’m going to take you through my freshman and sophomore year, describing my science classes, and just what I wish I had learned on a whole. The whole post will basically be along those lines. This is my track for my whole time here at Oakwood College

Freshman Year –Fall 2003(16 hours)
General Biology I w/ Lab (4 hours) : A
General Chemistry I w/ Lab : A
Freshman Composition I (3 hours): A
Survey of Calculus (3 hours): A
Orientation Seminar (1 hours): A
Physical Conditioning (1 hours): A

Freshman Year –Spring 2004 (18 hours)
General Biology 2 w/ Lab (4 hours): A
General Chemistry w/ Lab: A
Freshman Composition II (3 hours): A
Class Piano (1 hours): A
Psychology (3 hours): A
Fundamentals of SDA Beliefs (3 hours): A

Sophomore Year –Fall 2004 (18 hours)
General Microbiology w/ Lab (4 hours): A-
Organic Chemistry I (3 hours): A
Organic Chemistry Lab (1 hour): A
Fundamentals of Public Speaking (3 hours): A
Software Tools (3 hours): A
General Physics w/ Lab (4 hours): A

Current Sophomore Year –Spring 2005 (17 hours)
Genetics w/ Lab (3 hours)
Organic Chemistry (3 hours)
Organic Chemistry Lab (1 hour)
U.S. History II (3 hours)
Volleyball (1 hour)
Health Principles (2 hours)
General Physics w/ Lab (4 hours)

Junior Year –Fall 2005 (17 hours)
Art Appreciation (3 hours)
Introduction to Research (1 hour)
Plant Biology w/ Lab (3 hours)
Histology w/ Lab (3 hours)
Mammalian Anatomy I w/ Lab (4 hours)
The Gift of Prophecy (3 hours)

Junior Year –Spring 2006 (16 hours)
Undergraduate Research (1 hour)
Embryology (3 hours)
Mammalian Anatomy II w/ Lab (4 hours)
World Literature (3 hours)
Philosophy of Christian Education (2 hours)
Religion Course (3 hours)

Senior Year –Fall 2006 (11 hours)
Biology Seminar (1 hour)
Religion Course (3 hours)
Biochemistry w/o Lab (3 hours)
General Physiology (3 hours) w/ Lab
Physical Education Course (1 hour)

Senior Year –Spring 2007 (12 hours)
Philosophy of Science (2 hours)
Cell and Molecular Biology (3 hours)
Biology Seminar (1 hour)
Biochemistry w/o Lab (3 hours)
General Physiology (3 hours)
Total: 125 hours

That’s like 3 or 4 credits shy of what I need to graduate, but I think one of my AP classes will carry over, so I can apply it there. So yeah that’s what I’ve taken and will be taking while I’m in college. Besides the general required courses, I really do suggest that you take a track similar to mine. As you can see, the first two years of my track are packed with heavy courses. Biology and Chemistry my freshman year, and Microbiology, Genetics, Organic, and Physics my Sophomore year. Although this is a very challenging track, I recommend it because it allows you to take your MCAT twice before you graduate. With my track, by the time you finish your sophomore, you are qualified to take the MCAT, which is what I’m doing this summer. Lets say I don’t do well on this August MCAT, well, I can still take it during April of my Junior year or August of my Senior year…it just gives you more options, rather than doing a postbac due to bad MCAT scores. Also, I believe a track like this gets you serious about medical school. When you get to medical school, all of your classes will be science classes, so its good to learn how to balance a lot of science classes early. Although you technically don’t need Genetics and Microbiology to take the MCAT, these classes really do complement the MCAT, especially since this past year, the took away 3 Organic questions from the MCAT and added 3 questions on Genetics. Microbiology is literally another world with different names for things and different concepts, many of which are in scientific passages on the MCAT. I truly believe that both of these classes complement the MCAT well. Once again, I suggest this, but I’m not a trained advisor, so evaluate all of your options.

Now I’m going to go through the science course I’ve taken so far and give you advice on what I wish I had known, how to study for it, etc. I’m not going to talk about my general required courses, but as a small piece of advice, PLEASE GET A’s in these non-major classes. The science courses you will be taking are already going to whittle away at your GPA, making sure you do well in these non-major classes to pad your GPA. Plus it shows that you are well rounded if you have A’s in these non-major classes.

FRESHMAN YEAR

Survey of Calculus: This was the absolute best choice I made of all of my classes. The last math I took in high school was Algebra 2, so when I entered my freshman year, I enrolled in PreCalculus 1, so I could ease myself in. After sitting 3 days in that class, I knew I would fail, it was just too slow and repetitive. So I switched to Survey of Calculus, which is actually higher in course number than Calculus I, but it is much easier. It doesn’t go crazy deep into Calculus, but it gives you a general overview of everything. Most medical schools accept Survey of Calculus as equivalent with Calculus, and it is much less stress. Trust me folks, you will NEVER use calculus on the MCAT or in medical school. Don’t stress yourself out, the rest of your science courses will certainly do that. Check and see if you University or College has a class like Survey, which is more of general overview, than the deep stuff that Calculus gives you. It was still challenging, but it gave me what I needed to know, and nothing else. The teacher who teaches that class says that he has taught Survey of Calculus for 15 years, and he’s seen like 100 students get into medical school with that as their sole Calculus credit. Check it out.

General Biology:This class really depends on what kind of person you are. I can do math, but I don’t love it. I’m much more of a visual person, who likes dealing with molecules much more than equations. If you are that kind of person, General Biology should be fine for you. General Biology is a very visual course, where you will be confronted with a lot of a lot of things that require an imagination. Its not all memorization, because you have to understand the different cycles like glycolysis, Krebs, photosynthesis and much more. You aren’t going to feel like a doctor quite yet. The way you study for this class basically sets the tone for your college science career. I set the tone by READING READING READING. You can’t go off of what the teacher says in class, like you did in high school. Many times your test will be composed of stuff that he/she never said in class; this is an aspect of college that is very hard for people to transition to, but its vital to learn. You have to learn how to read a chapter, and deduce what is important, because everything certainly isn’t important. Highlighting the important sections wasn’t good enough for me. I learned much easier when it was asked to me in the form of a question. So what I did was I would convert everything I highlighted into a test like question (I would also type the answers). So when it came time to study for the test, I woudn’t even open my book back up, because everything I needed to know was in my questions. Usually I had from 60 to 100 questions and answers. This method might suck for people to hate to type, but it worked for me. You just have to find the method that works for you, because if you don’t, you will struggle for the rest of your time in college, especially as a science major. In most General Biology classes, maybe the second semester, you get to dissect cats. This is where you kind of feel doctor like, but it really is just the beginning. And just one more word of advice, that I wish I followed, please please read your chapters ahead of time. I really helps in the end, and will discourage you from procrastinating.

A word of advice for both General Biology and General Chemistry classes. DO WELL, AND TAKE YOUR LABS SERIOUSLY. Many times, these labs will be worth 20% of your grade. If you are not doing so hot in the main class, the lab can bring your grade up almost a whole letter!!! Don’t get into the habit of skipping labs, they will always be there, even in medical school!!!

General Chemistry: If you have a mathematical mind, you will LOVE GENERAL CHEMISTRY. This class is full of equations and theories about everything. You will learn about the electron, proton, neutron, etc. You will probably have to memorize part or all of the periodic table. You will learn how to balance equations, and how to find moles, limiting reagent, molecular orbitals, formal charges, etc. It’s a whole lot of calculations, which isn’t exactly my cup of tea, but it is cool at times. If you are absolutely not a math person, you will have a rough time with General Chemistry, so just make sure you hook up with someone that can help. LOL, every day my G.Chem teacher told us, if you can add and subtract, you can do chemistry. Its certainly more difficult than that, but it is relatively true. It’s pretty much a straightforward class, and actually, many people find General Biology more challenging because of the amount of stuff you have to understand and memorize. The second semester of G.Chem is usually more visual in the information taught, which was cool for me. So if you are struggling first semester because you aren’t really math orientated, take heart, because it does get better. I studied for this class by outlining my chapters. Meaning that I would go through my chapter, and highlight everything I thought was important. Then I would go back, and type up (I like to type, lol) a chapter summary, with only the things I highlighted. Some say that you can just study what you highlighted, but I found that when you study highlighted things in the book, you just get distracted from the rest of the crap in there. I rather have everything I need to know, isolated, so I can only focus on that. For some its chapter summaries, for others its flash cards, find your method.

As a freshman you will really be surprised about the number of people that start out as Chemistry or Biology majors, and change after your freshman year. Many can’t handle the sacrifice that being a science premed major requires. You can still party, hang out all the time, have an abundance of fun, and graduate, but your GPA will reflect it. If you are serious, there will be countless times when you can’t hang out because you are studying for a Organic test, or you have a really like Biology lab. It doesn’t get better, so if you aren’t will to make the sacrifice, you need to reevaluate your goals.

SOPHOMORE YEAR

General Microbiology: This is my first science class that I can honestly admit that I didn’t put my full effort into. Hence my A- in the class. Actually, the class was very interesting. The world of prokaryotes is a world in it of itself. Basically my teacher spent of good amount of time, telling us how important bacteria have been to the development of so many things we know. We learned what transcription, translation, replication, etc, was in like bacteria. In the lab, we learned different types of stains, how to correctly use a microscope, which I honestly didn’t know how to do, how to heat fix, serial dilutions, etc. All in all, it’s a very cool class, that requires a good amount of memorization, but it is worth it. And like I said before, many of the science passages on the MCAT and the GRE draw from concepts that are usually found in Microbiology. How did I study for this class?…I didn’t. And that is why I didn’t do to well. Many mornings, I would borrow my friend’s notes and study for test that was going to be given in a couple of hours. I really wasn’t serious, and that was probably because I wasn’t use to taking 3 science courses at the same time. It can get rough, but you must learn how to balance your time between all of them.

Organic Chemistry: My, my, my, this truly is a beast of a class. Organic is the kind of class where if you get it, you will always do well, if you don’t you will struggle. You start of with nomenclature, which is a HUMONGOUS part of Organic. By the end class, you will be able to look at the ingredients on the back of most products, and draw what most of the chemicals or substances look like. Next you’ll go into chirality, which I still don’t really understand, lol. Eventually you get to reactions, which is a BIG part of Organic. You can’t memorize the reactions, you must UNDERSTAND them. Really it is all part of understanding what the reagents do. You should be able to take most reagents, regardless of the starting material, and figure out what your reagent does to that material. Honestly, I felt like I was lost the whole first semester, but I started to understand when we started to learn the reactions in terms of synthesis and not just the reactions. For instance, you teacher should give you ethanol, and you should be able to show him (using the different reactions you know) how to get to a 6 carbon chain with a terminal alkyne. To do this, you have to apply all of the reactions you know, this truly helps you to study more. I studied for this class by doing chapter summaries, and by doing practice quizzes online. Most of these Organic books have online sites where they have practice quizzes. Do these, cause that is the only way you are going to get better.

Genetics: This class was truly fun to take. It was challenging, and it was a lot of work, but its not too hard. You honesty just go deeper into the stuff you learned during General Biology. There are A WHOLE LOT of enzymes, cyclins, CDKs, etc., that are at working in your cell cycle, and you will learn all of these. Its pretty much a straight forward biology class. I studied by taking very good notes. Since my teacher never used PowerPoint slides, everything she required you to know she told you in class. So I took really good notes, and it all worked out. If your teacher loves power points, make sure you do chapter summaries.

Physics: Honestly, Physics is a fun class. DO NOT TAKE PHYSICS WITH CALCULUS. Once again, I’m the kind of guy that doesn’t like to do unnecessary things. Unless you are a math whiz, Physics with Calculus is for engineering majors. Don’t stress yourself out, thinking that it will impress medical schools. An A will impress medical schools, not a C+ in Physics w/ Calculus. Know yourself, and make the right decision. Regular Physics is pretty much straight forward. If you teacher is caught up on conceptual stuff, that sucks for you. If not, Physics is cool. You learn an equation, and you apply that equation to different problems. It gets slightly hard when you have to derive an equation from 3 equations you already know. I these cases, Physics tutors help, since they already know these derivations. I studied by reviewing my quizzes, and doing practice problems. That’s all you really need to do too. Overall, it’s a plug and play class, and you will only have problems if math is a seriously weak point for you.

So yeah, that’s my advice for right now. I could really write more, but I’m still feeling fatigue from finals week. My next post will be with my grades for this past semester. Cross your fingers for all A’s!!!

Today was my LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

April 22, 2005 by DoctaJay

Today was my LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t believe that it ended so fast. The past two weeks have been from hell, but I made it. I got about 1 ½ hours of sleep last night, because I had like 3 reports and a test due today. I didn’t think I would get it all done, but everything is turned in. In Organic class, our teacher, Dr. LaiHing actually seemed kind of sad that the class was ending. Instead of teaching, he brought a PowerPoint slide which basically gave us an overview of Biochemistry. That seems like its going to be a really fun class; its much more visual, and I usually end up doing better in classes like those. I really wish that I had the kind of study ethics where I study a little everyday. BK seems to have it down pretty well. I never seem to do that, and I always end up studying it all at the end. I have a pretty good memory, and my logic makes up for what I can’t remember, so I do alright, but in medical school, they give you a butt load of information. I’m not sure whether I’ll be able to use the same study ethic. I know usually what I do, is I make summaries of each chapter, but I wonder whether that will be possible in medical school, with the sheer amount of information given. I have 4 finals next week. My first is on Monday, and its Volleyball. I know I can play volleyball, but I’m not sure I’ll do well if he gives a stupid written test. My next two tests are on Wednesday, and those are Physics and Genetics. My last is on Thursday, and that is Organic Chemistry, and the infamous ACS exam. I might just chill on Saturday night, and start my studying early Sunday morning. I guess I’ll see what happens.

I will not post again until I post that premed post, with a summary of what I’ve learned so far, and how I attacked each class. So look for that. Thank God for Friday.

Ah, yes, two more days of school, then finals next…

April 20, 2005 by DoctaJay

Ah, yes, two more days of school, then finals next week. Today went really well, probably because I took time to have devotion this morning, but also, this day was just overall good.

We had a genetics test today at 9 a.m. The test was pretty fat, but it was relatively straight forward. The information covered included somatic hybridization, conjugation, transformation, transduction, replication in prokaryotes and eukaryotes, transcription in prokaryotes and eukaryotes, and some translation. When I came out of the test, I felt pretty good about it. I really like the way Dr. Durant teaches Genetics. She really hates powerpoints, so she writes everything on the board or gives us handouts. I like this much more than powerpoints, because it doesn’t give teachers the chance to fly through slides and say they taught you. She still flies though (one time I had 3 pages of written notes from one 50 min session), but at least I have time to understand in class. When teachers flash through powerpoints, I might as well not come to class, because I could read the same thing in my book. But I guess that is where most teachers are moving now, so it makes no sense to complain. Since it was a ScanTron test that we took today, we got our results soon after. The highest grade was a 92%, and the next highest grade was a 84%. I’m not sure where I was ranked, or how many people scored higher, but I got a 81%. I expected higher, but at this point I know I did my best, so its whatever.

Another thing that made my happy today was the results of my organic test I told yall about in my last post; I got an 86%!!! I was ranked 7th in the class with a B- before this test, so this grade should put me where I need to be. My final test should bring my grade to an A, but that really all depends on how I do on the final. This final is different from most, because we are taking the ACS (American Chemical Society, I think) exam for our final. This test truly is a beast, and I’ll really have to review like crazy to be ready.

Well, my Physics teacher realized that the majority of the class didn’t do well on the test, so he gave everyone 5 points. So that pulls me to a ………53%, LOL, a higher F. I really appreciate all of the comments in my last post, but especially the posts by Rich, Shawn and Shahada. You all are right; while it really is nice to get an A, if you don’t, its not the end of the world. I guess I wanted to prove to myself that being off campus wouldn’t affect my grades, but I got a A- last semester when I was on campus, so I guess it doesn’t matter too much. Now, it is still possible that I might get an A in Physics if I blow the final out the water, meaning a 100%, but if I don’t (you all are right), it really isn’t the end of the world. People have gotten into medical with B’s and maybe C’s in Physics. Learn from my mistakes everyone, don’t give yourself an ulcer because you think you won’t get an A. Thanks for the encouragement guys and gals!!!

I have like two weeks left, before my girlfriend will be gone for 6 weeks. She’s going to India with NAPS this summer to do mission work. I really wanted to go, but my sister is graduating from high school on June 10, and they don’t get back to America until June 16. Sigh, lol, this sounds wimpy, I know, but I haven’t been apart from her for that long since I first asked her out 2 years and 4 months ago. We were in separate states this past summer when we did research, but at least I could call her whenever I wanted. I won’t be able to even hear her voice for 6 weeks, sniff, sniff. LOL, I guess I’ll make it, but it will be a different experience.

Today has brought a mixture of feelings for me. As…

April 18, 2005 by DoctaJay

Today has brought a mixture of feelings for me. As you all know, I was really worried about Organic in terms of me getting an A in that class. I hadn’t been doing so well this semester, and I was on the edge between a B and an A. I knew that on this upcoming test, I needed to do really well, in order to secure an A. So, I prayed, and studied, prayed, and studied, studied till 12 midnight, woke up at 4 a.m. this morning, prayed and studied some more. Going into the test today, I was really anxious, but I knew that somehow, the Lord was going to bring me out. When I went through the first page of the test in less than 5 minutes, I just knew that something must be wrong, but it wasn’t. The Lord was really bringing back everything I studied, and when I finished the test, I felt MARVELOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t wait for the results on Wednesday. I’d be happy for anything from a 78% and up. That would solidify my A.

Well, I came out of Organic test on a real high. I just couldn’t believe how good I felt, especially after an Organic test!!! The next class I went to was Physics, which was my 12 o’clock. I really didn’t want to stay because the guy really can’t teach, but I wanted the results for my test that we took on Friday, so I stayed. The general consensus on Friday was that no one really felt good about the Physics test, and I certainly agreed with them. I wanted at least a 70%, because I got 100%’s on the last 2 tests. When he plopped the test in front of me, my heart dropped, there in red was my grade, a 47% F. This was the lowest grade I’ve ever received on a test in my whole academic career (including kindergarten). I really began to get sad when I realized that this would definitely make it impossible to get an A in Physics, regardless of how good my last two test grades were. Overall, the class did pretty badly, and the last time that happened on a Physics test, Dr. Patel allowed us to take a similar test to make up some points. That was the first time he ever did that, and probably the last, but it was worth a try to ask. So after class, I asked him whether he would give us an extra credit test again, and he promptly rejected the idea.

I went to his office later today to talk to him about my grade. He tallied my current quiz, test, and homework scores, our lab grade wasn’t in yet, but he geusstimated that it would be about a 95%. With all my numbers in, I had an A-. He started adding in fake grades for my final test to see what I would have to get in order to get an A in his class. I started to get really discouraged when he entered in a 96% for the final test and my overall grade was still an A-. I asked him again whether he could possibly allow us to get an extra credit test, because it really wasn’t fair. My girlfriend scored a 39% on the test that he allowed us to take an extra credit test, and she brought her score up to a 69%. Now I have a 47%, and I’m stuck with it. He said that he’ll ponder the notion of giving us an opportunity to gain more points, but it wasn’t a definite thing. I left his office in despair. I had been praising the Lord’s name for how much He had blessed on my Organic test, and then I get this horrible news about my Physics test.

As I was driving back to my off-campus house, I was listening to a song that really slapped me back into reality. I was blaming God, asking Him how could He let me do so well on my Organic test, then let me fail my Physics test. But this song, reminded me that that if God does nothing else for me, just that fact that He died for me is enough. If God never helped me on another test, I have no right to curse His name; He really has already done more than enough. Everything else He does is just extra. Here are the words:

If You never kept me safe at night

If You never showed me wrong from right

I would still love You, I would still love You

If Your angels never showed they cared

If You never stopped to answer prayers

I would still serve You, I would still serve You

Even if I had no voice to sing, or legs to walk, You’d still be worthy of my praise

Cause You gave your life, and that’s enough for me

If He never did the things He does

If He never blessed me just because

I would still follow Him, I would still follow Him

If He left us soul-less wanderers

And He never sent the comforter

I still would love Him, I would still love Him

For the simple fact He’s given me another chance, He’s still worthy of my praise

Cause He gave His life, and that’s enough for me

And because You said Your coming back to take me home, You are worthy of my praise

Because You gave your life, and that’s enough for me

Lets remember, that we can’t only praise God when things are going right. We need to praise Him when things suck too. No matter what you are going through, it will only last for a short time. I’m going to pray about my Physics test, but even if He doesn’t allow me to receive an A, I’m keeping my trust in Him. He’s brought all of us this far, He won’t let us go now. For all those nearing the close of their semester, take heart; it’ll all work out in the end.

Anyway, I wasn’t planning on posting today, but I wanted you’ll to know how I was feeling at this moment. I’ll talk to yall later.

I was reading BK’s diary ( I just started)…

April 16, 2005 by DoctaJay

I was reading BK’s diary ( I just started) and I feel so sorry for her. Some of the readers on student doctor really attacked her. Meh, can’t say it hasn’t happened to me, but they really went after her. I guess most people don’t like the fact that she is going into medicine for the opportunities, not the “helping people” part. Although I truly do want to help people, I don’t think that that is an absolute requirement for becoming a physician. If B.K removes a tumor from a 30 year old mother of three, isn’t she helping them? She may not have a wonderful relationship with her patients, but she will certainly help them. Now this is not the doctor that I plan to be, and I truly feel that the more passionate you are, the better doctor you can be, but I don’t think that must be a requirement.

This week was really, really, really, really, really crazy. I almost killed myself on Monday and Tuesday to study for my Genetics test that was supposed to be on Wednesday, but the teacher went of town, and the person that was supposed to administer the test forgot. So we got extra time to study and the test will probably be next week. The next obstacle that came up was our Organic Chemistry Lab project. For 5 weeks prior to this, the class (broken into groups) had been working on synthesizing different products. Our group had to synthesize Benzocaine, which is normally used as a topical anesthetic. It seemed like it was going to be a really cool project, but Benzocaine proved to be the most difficult product to form. While most groups were done synthesizing their project by the 3 week, all of the Benzocaine groups were still in lab. Needless to say, only one group out of 6 formed Benzocaine, and they only got 5% yield. This was really frustrating, especially because this lab project was with 500 POINTS!!! So yeah, it was basically our whole grade and we hadn’t really started on it till Wednesday afternoon. I got home on Wednesday afternoon, and didn’t finish the project till 8 a.m. Thursday morning (yeah, I got like 2 hours of sleep somewhere in there). The presentation went fine, but of course there is always more stuff to do. The presentations started a 1 p.m. and didn’t end till 4:15. Then I had an OBMA officers meeting, which lasted until 5:30. Then I caught some lunch with my girlfriend in the café (hadn’t been in there in a long time, cause I’m off campus), then I had to go to a meeting at 6 p.m. with Dean of Student Affairs. Really the meeting was meant to address some issues that administration had with fraternities and sororities, but they invited the heads of all the clubs on campus. Anyway, that lasted until 7:30, and then I realized I had a Physics test and a U.S. History book review due the next day. I was so tired from my lack of sleep that I went to bed around 9 p.m., hoping to wake up at 3 a.m. to study for my Physics. I woke up, but I didn’t make to my desk until about 4:30 a.m. I got a good amount of studying done, but I didn’t have a chance to write my book review, so I decided to skip Genetics, U.S. History, and Organic to write it. Well, after 3 hours of furious writing, I finished my book review…whew….., but 2 minutes later I realized I had my Physics test in like 3 minutes. So I rushed upstairs to the math department to take my test. I really felt I studied, but Dr. Patel (our Physics teacher) decided to be retarded when he made the test. He had so many questions on there that we had never seen that I’m sure I got like a 70% on that test, but I was too busy to care, it was 11:30 a.m. and I had to rush to the History department to turn in my book review to my teacher before his office hours ended at 12 noon. And what do you know, he’s not there during his office hours ( I hate that), and he doesn’t accept papers under his door. So, in defeat after wasting 3 hours and missing 3 important classes I walked back to the Biology Auditorium where the OBMA meeting would be held. Overall, it had been a hectic and BAD day, and I was feeling really disparaged. Before I walked out from the History department, I kneeled down, and just asked God to bring me peace, because if anyone else talked to me at the moment, I would have went off. Thank god for serenity, because before I got to the biology department, I was smiling again. We had a good meeting, it was a handing over ceremony from the old officers to the new officers. Oh yeah, I didn’t tell yall, but I’m no longer the public relations officer for OBMA, I’m now Vice President. So yeah, after the meeting, I came home, chilled for a while, fixed something on my car, had worship to usher in the Sabbath, and decided to type this. So yeah, that has been my week, pretty mundane right? LOL.

In my last post, Christine left a comment guiding me to a site for black people, lol, called www.blackpeople.us. It has a really cool forum that is specifically for black premeds and medical students. For all the minorities that read my diaries, I really encourage you to go there and join up. No, don’t drop SDN, but it complements SDN’s forums quite well. There are many topics that have been raised by US, like why WE seem to struggle so much in medical school. They mentioned how blacks as a whole don’t support each other like Jews or Indians do. They also mentioned how it was interesting that immigrant black people that came to America seemed to perform equally with non-minorities, which is also quite true. My dad is from Jamaica and my mom is from a small island off Grenada called Caracoo (sp). As I grew up, it was always clear to me that I had to get an education. It was always clear to me that first came elementary school, then high school, then college, then your career. It was always shown to me that education was my key to success, and playing around in school and getting bad grades because I didn’t feel like working for it was a waste of everyone’s time. Many of the blacks I know that have no immediate ancestry to immigrants tend to have this lackadaisical attitude towards school, which truly befuddles me (yeah baby, I’m using big words today,LOL). It’s a culture thing, and its something that is seriously going to have to be addressed. Anyway, they have pretty cool topics and everybody is open and honest there, which is the first thing needed to address the problems that black premeds and medical students have. I applaud Brandon for starting that site, although I think that the domain name is kinda funny, lol.

I was reading Richard’s diary, and he encouraged me to list all of the science related courses I’ve taken, and my advice/suggestions/wish I had knowns for each one. This post is too long, so I’ll post it in the next one. I just wanted to give you’ll the heads up.

Its 12:23 a.m., and I really should be in bed by now. I’ll hit you all up later, probably in a couple of days, after my Organic test. That’s when I’ll give a post that is purely for premeds anxious about upcoming classes. I’ll do post my study habits and give advice overall for how to make it through Freshman year and Sophomore year. Until next time, PEACE!!!

LOL, my my my. I wonder if anyone still loves …

April 11, 2005 by DoctaJay

LOL, my my my. I wonder if anyone still loves me. I probably lost 70% of my readers with my last post. Anyway, this post is going to be short because all hell is breaking loose right now. I have 3 Physics quizzes due online at 10 p.m. central time tonight, a Health Principles Final tomorrow, a Genetics test on Wednesday, an Organic Lab Final on Thursday, a Physics test on Friday and a Organic test on Friday. Its like these teachers think as long the information flashed on a PowerPoint slide, then they’ve taught it. I guess I just need to stop complaining, it will probably be worse in medical school. Most people probably didn’t read the post about my schedule for next year, so I’ll post it again:

The Gift of Prophecy – This is a religion class that is required. I think the class is about Ellen G. White, and how she received visions from God.

Art Appreciation – A really really stupid required core class. It better not take up too much of my time.

Histology – From what I’ve heard from my upper classmen friends, this class isn’t too hard, but its just a crazy amount of memorization of all the tissues and stuff.

Histology Lab

Plant Biology– Now I know that I could just be being very close minded, but I really can’t see myself enjoying this class. I want to be a doctor who takes bullets out of patients, I really don’t care too much about photosynthesis and the different genre of vegetation. I’m only taking this class because it is required as a biology major.

Plant Biology Lab– This lab is for 3 hours on a Sunday!!! This adds to my dislike for the class. Not only is it on Sunday, but the lab starts at like 8 a.m. on Sunday!!!

Introduction to Research– In this class, we basically pair with a teacher of our choice, and they help us develop and write a proposal for our own research project. Its good if you plan to go into research, but as a physician I don’t see myself writing too many proposals. Anyway, its required for my major, that’s why I’m taking it.

Mammalian Anatomy I– THIS CLASS IS GONG TO BE SO TIGHT!!!!!. Yeah, Oakwood is one of the few undergraduate institutions that have cadavers in their science department. The lady who teaches this class, used to teach Gross Anatomy to the medical students at Loma Linda University, so basically we are getting taught the same way. That is why Oakwood graduates do so well their freshman year in med school, because they have already taken Gross Anatomy basically. So yeah, usually this class is reserved seniors, but I caught wind, that Dr. Maulsby (the teacher) was in need of lab instructors, because basically she was running every single mammalian lab (there are about 8 of them). Usually lab instructors are hard to find, since most of the students take the class their senior year, but every once and awhile, she lets some juniors in, if they promise to be a lab instructor their senior year. So that’s what I’m doing, and I’m so excited. DISECTING CADAVERS!!! Of course, this class requires ridiculous memorization of all the body parts, muscle insertions and origins, bones, etc. But I’m really excited, and plus I get to wear scrubs to class ( I know it sounds stupid).

Mammalian Anatomy Lab

So yeah, that’s my schedule for next semester. I think that I’ll be taking like 18 hours, but of course that doesn’t include the labs which don’t count for any hours, even though they each usually last for 3 hours per session.

The fact that I still get comments with racist statements shows me that affirmative action is still needed. There are still many out there who would love to keep minorities out, and the more racist comments I receive the more I realize that. I have to admit, I was against affirmative action at first because in Maryland, I had never experienced any discrimination. But SDN has helped me to realize that there are still many of yall out there.

The Oakwood Biomedical Association had elections, and I won the VP spot. I’m pretty happy about that, because I can kind of spend time working on personal projects, rather than contacting everyone as the public relations officer.

The money for the Kaplan MCAT prep is completely due by April 22. I think they want $899 by that date. I’m going to have to sell my body in order to get that money ( no one would pay for a 6’5 220lb black guy with a 4 pack right?). They also gave us the schedule, and the actual program starts on June 5th, which means that I basically have time to go home from May 9th to June 4th; then the studying starts. I had bought the Kaplan comprehensive review book this past summer, so I could start studying, but have I even opened it????? NOPE. So yeah, even though I’ll be on break, I’m going to at least try to start early and go through that book.

I also need to start saving money for an engagement ring. I know your saying, “But DoctaJay, you are only 19 years old, why are you thinking about that.” And to that I say, if you know what you want, and you find it, why deliberate? Of course by the time I marry her (after we graduate from Oakwood), we would have been dating for 4 years, which is more than enough time. I don’t know, I think that the married life would actually be kind of cool. Especially the sex part; I think I heard somewhere that married people have more sex than single people. I think that is wonderful, LOL. I’ve been waiting tttttttttooooooooooooo long, but I know it will be worth it. To know that what you are giving you wife, you’ve saved just for her, and no one else has had it, is kind of special. Of course sex isn’t the only cool thing about marriage, you also get to be around the person all the time, which I already enjoy. One thing that is going to be weird is saying, “Hey so and so, this is my wife”. To me that sounds so grown up, and I don’t know if I’m going to get used to it. Anyway, I aspire to get her a 1 carat diamond, but those things cost like $2000, so I’ll really have to work my butt of to get money. Sounds like no more gadgets for me!!! I was looking online, and I think I know what would look nice on her. I was looking at a princess cut diamond, with either a solitare setting or a cathedral setting. The solitare highlights the diamond, while the cathedral setting slightly covers the diamond, but I looks really classy. I don’t know, all this stuff is so hard….the things we go through for you girls -)

Do you all know of any jobs that I could do where I could make a lot of money really quick. I’ll only be home for like 1 month, so I’d need to do it then, cause I don’t think I want to work and study for the MCAT at the same time, that might be too much work.

Anyway, yall might now hear from me for a little while, because these tests are looking pretty rough. Pray for me that I do well, and I hope you guys do well on everything as your year wraps up too. I might not post, but leave me a comment, and I’ll definitely respond.

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April 9, 2005 by DoctaJay

******DISCLAIMER******* Hello everyone. I know having a disclaimer is weird, but this post is either going to offend a lot of people, or its going to make them think. I am a Christian, a Protestant Christian, a Seventh-day Adventist Protestant Christian. Anyone who knows about the Protestant church knows that it arose in opposition to the Catholic Church. With the recent death of the pope, the amount of attention given by Protestants truly troubled me. I was reading a book by a famous author, The Great Controversy, and chapter 35 seemed for appropriate for these current times. If you are an atheist, you can go read another diary today, because this is not for you. This post is for Protestants and maybe some Catholics who want the truth. Nothing that is in this post, can’t be proven from the Bible, so don’t attack me, read the Bible for yourself. I ask that before you post and comment, you read the following passage, in its ENTIRETY. But remember, when you post your comment, don’t come at me like this is my opinion. Instead, ask me where in the Bible can I find such and such. Or tell me, even though this is in the Bible, I don’t agree with you. Once again, if you don’t believe in God, this post isn’t for you, and I don’t really care for your comments today. For all others, please read with an open mind, and tell me what you think in a calm, collected, logical manner. Thank you. *******DISCLAIMER*******

Chapter XXXV. – Character and Aims of the Papacy.

Romanism is now regarded by Protestants with far greater favor than in former years. In those countries where Catholicism is not in the ascendency, and the papists are taking a conciliatory course in order to gain influence, there is an increasing indifference concerning the doctrines that separate the reformed churches from the papal hierarchy; the opinion is gaining ground, that, after all, we do not differ so widely upon vital points as has been supposed, and that a little concession on our part will bring us into a better understanding with Rome. The time was when Protestants placed a high value upon the liberty of conscience which has been so dearly purchased. They taught their children to abhor popery, and held that to seek harmony with Rome would be disloyalty to God. But how widely different are the sentiments now expressed. {GC88 563.1}

The defenders of popery declare that the church has been maligned; and the Protestant world are inclined to accept the statement. Many urge that it is unjust to judge the church of today by the abominations and absurdities that marked her reign during the centuries of ignorance and darkness. They excuse her horrible cruelty as the result of the barbarism of the times, and plead that the influence of modern civilization has changed her sentiments. {GC88 563.2}

Have these persons forgotten the claim of infallibility put forth for eight hundred years by this haughty power? So far from being relinquished, this claim has been affirmed in the nineteenth century with greater positiveness than ever before. As Rome asserts that she “never erred, and never can err,” how can she renounce the principles which governed her course in past ages? {GC88 563.3}

The papal church will never relinquish her claim to infallibility. All that she has done in her persecution of those who reject her dogmas, she holds to be right; and would she not repeat the same acts, should the opportunity be presented? Let the restraints now imposed by secular governments be removed, and Rome be re-instated in her former power, and there would speedily be a revival of her tyranny and persecution. {GC88 564.1}

A recent writer [JOSIAH STRONG, D.D., IN “OUR COUNTRY,” PP. 46-48.] speaks thus of the attitude of the papal hierarchy as regards freedom of conscience, and of the perils which especially threaten the United States from the success of her policy:– {GC88 564.2}

“There are many who are disposed to attribute any fear of Roman Catholicism in the United States to bigotry or childishness. Such see nothing in the character and attitude of Romanism that is hostile to our free institutions, or find nothing portentous in its growth. Let us, then, first compare some of the fundamental principles of our government with those of the Catholic Church. {GC88 564.3}

“The Constitution of the United States guarantees liberty of conscience. Nothing is dearer or more fundamental. Pope Pius IX., in his Encyclical Letter of August 15, 1854, said: ‘The absurd and erroneous doctrines or ravings in defense of liberty of conscience, are a most pestilential error–a pest, of all others, most to be dreaded in a State.’ The same pope, in his Encyclical Letter of December 8, 1864, anathematized ‘those who assert the liberty of conscience and of religious worship,’ also ‘all such as maintain that the church may not employ force.’ {GC88 564.4}

“The pacific tone of Rome in the United States does not imply a change of heart. She is tolerant where she is helpless. Says Bishop O’Connor: ‘Religious liberty is merely endured until the opposite can be carried into effect without peril to the Catholic world.'” “The archbishop of St. Louis once said: ‘Heresy and unbelief are crimes; and in Christian countries, as in Italy and Spain, for instance, where all the people are Catholics, and where the Catholic religion is an essential part of the law of the land, they are punished as other crimes.'” {GC88 564.5}

“Every cardinal, archbishop, and bishop in the Catholic Church takes an oath of allegiance to the pope, in which occur the following words: ‘Heretics, schismatics, and rebels to our said lord the pope, or his aforesaid successors, I will to my utmost persecute and oppose.'” {GC88 565.1}

It is true that there are real Christians in the Roman Catholic communion. Thousands in that church are serving God according to the best light they have. They are not allowed access to his Word, and therefore they do not discern the truth. They have never seen the contrast between a living heart-service and a round of mere forms and ceremonies. God looks with pitying tenderness upon these souls, educated as they are in a faith that is delusive and unsatisfying. He will cause rays of light to penetrate the dense darkness that surrounds them. He will reveal to them the truth, as it is in Jesus, and many will yet take their position with his people. {GC88 565.2}

But Romanism as a system is no more in harmony with the gospel of Christ now than at any former period in her history. The Protestant churches are in great darkness, or they would discern the signs of the times. The Roman Church is far-reaching in her plans and modes of operation. She is employing every device to extend her influence and increase her power in preparation for a fierce and determined conflict to regain control of the world, to re-establish persecution, and to undo all that Protestantism has done. Catholicism is gaining ground upon every side. [SEE APPENDIX, NOTE 10.] See the increasing number of her churches and chapels in Protestant countries. Look at the popularity of her colleges and seminaries in America, so widely patronized by Protestants Look at the growth of ritualism in England, and the frequent defections to the ranks of the Catholics. These things should awaken the anxiety of all who prize the pure principles of the gospel. {GC88 565.3}

Protestants have tampered with and patronized popery; they have made compromises and concessions which papists themselves are surprised to see, and fail to understand. Men are closing their eyes to the real character of Romanism, and the dangers to be apprehended from her supremacy. The people need to be aroused to resist the advances of this most dangerous foe to civil and religious liberty. {GC88 566.1}

Many Protestants suppose that the Catholic religion is unattractive, and that its worship is a dull, meaningless round of ceremony. Here they mistake. While Romanism is based upon deception, it is not a coarse and clumsy imposture. The religious service of the Romish Church is a most impressive ceremonial. Its gorgeous display and solemn rites fascinate the senses of the people, and silence the voice of reason and of conscience. The eye is charmed. Magnificent churches, imposing processions, golden altars, jeweled shrines, choice paintings, and exquisite sculpture appeal to the love of beauty. The ear also is captivated. The music is unsurpassed. The rich notes of the deep-toned organ, blending with the melody of many voices as it swells through the lofty domes and pillared aisles of her grand cathedrals, cannot fail to impress the mind with awe and reverence. {GC88 566.2}

This outward splendor, pomp, and ceremony, that only mocks the longings of the sin-sick soul, is an evidence of inward corruption. The religion of Christ needs not such attractions to recommend it. In the light shining from the cross, true Christianity appears so pure and lovely that no external decorations can enhance its true worth. It is the beauty of holiness, a meek and quiet spirit, which is of value with God. {GC88 566.3}

Brilliancy of style is not necessarily an index of pure, elevated thought. High conceptions of art, delicate refinement of taste, often exist in minds that are earthly and sensual. They are often employed by Satan to lead men to forget the necessities of the soul, to lose sight of the future, immortal life, to turn away from their infinite Helper, and to live for this world alone. {GC88 566.4}

A religion of externals is attractive to the unrenewed heart. The pomp and ceremony of the Catholic worship have a seductive, bewitching power, by which many are deceived; and they come to look upon the Roman Church as the very gate of Heaven. None but those who have planted their feet firmly upon the foundation of truth, and whose hearts are renewed by the Spirit of God, are proof against her influence. Thousands who have not an experimental knowledge of Christ will be led to accept the forms of godliness without the power. Such a religion is just what the multitudes desire. {GC88 567.1}

The church’s claim to the right to pardon, causes the Romanist to feel at liberty to sin; and the ordinance of confession, without which her pardon is not granted, tends also to give license to evil. He who kneels before fallen man, and opens in confession the secret thoughts and imaginations of his heart, is debasing his manhood, and degrading every noble instinct of his soul. In unfolding the sins of his life to a priest,–an erring, sinful mortal, and too often corrupted with wine and licentiousness,–his standard of character is lowered, and he is defiled in consequence. His thought of God is degraded to the likeness of fallen humanity; for the priest stands as a representative of God. This degrading confession of man to man is the secret spring from which has flowed much of the evil that is defiling the world, and fitting it for the final destruction. Yet to him who loves self-indulgence, it is more pleasing to confess to a fellow-mortal than to open the soul to God. It is more palatable to human nature to do penance than to renounce sin; it is easier to mortify the flesh by sackcloth and nettles and galling chains than to crucify fleshly lusts. Heavy is the yoke which the carnal heart is willing to bear rather than bow to the yoke of Christ. {GC88 567.2}

There is a striking similarity between the Church of Rome and the Jewish Church at the time of Christ’s first advent. While the Jews secretly trampled upon every principle of the law of God, they were outwardly rigorous in the observance of its precepts, loading it down with exactions and traditions that made obedience painful and burdensome. As the Jews professed to revere the law, so do Romanists claim to reverence the cross. They exalt the symbol of Christ’s sufferings, while in their lives they deny him whom it represents. {GC88 568.1}

Papists place crosses upon their churches, upon their altars, and upon their garments. Everywhere is seen the insignia of the cross. Everywhere it is outwardly honored and exalted. But the teachings of Christ are buried beneath a mass of senseless traditions, false interpretations, and rigorous exactions. The Saviour’s words concerning the bigoted Jews, apply with still greater force to the Romish leaders: “They bind heavy burdens and grievous to be borne, and lay them on men’s shoulders; but they themselves will not move them with one of their fingers.” [MATT. 23:4.] Conscientious souls are kept in constant terror, fearing the wrath of an offended God, while the dignitaries of the church are living in luxury and sensual pleasure. {GC88 568.2}

The worship of images and relics, the invocation of saints, and the exaltation of the pope, are devices of Satan to attract the minds of the people from God and from his Son. To accomplish their ruin, he endeavors to turn their attention from Him through whom alone they can find salvation. He will direct them to any object that can be substituted for the One who has said, “Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” [MATT. 11:28.] {GC88 568.3}

It is Satan’s constant effort to misrepresent the character of God, the nature of sin, and the real issues at stake in the great controversy. His sophistry lessens the obligation of the divine law, and gives men license to sin. At the same time he causes them to cherish false conceptions of God, so that they regard him with fear and hate, rather than with love. The cruelty inherent in his own character is attributed to the Creator; it is embodied in systems of religion, and expressed in modes of worship. Thus the minds of men are blinded, and Satan secures them as his agents to war against God. By perverted conceptions of the divine attributes, heathen nations were led to believe human sacrifices necessary to secure the favor of Deity; and horrible cruelties have been perpetrated under the various forms of idolatry. The Romish Church, uniting the forms of paganism and Christianity, and, like paganism, misrepresenting the character of God, has resorted to practices no less cruel and revolting. In the days of Rome’s supremacy, there were instruments of torture to compel assent to her doctrines. There was the stake for those who would not concede to her claims. There were massacres on a scale that will never be known until revealed in the Judgment. Dignitaries of the church studied, under Satan their master, to invent means to cause the greatest possible torture, and not end the life of their victim. The infernal process was repeated to the utmost limit of human endurance, until nature gave up the struggle, and the sufferer hailed death as a sweet release. {GC88 568.4}

Such was the fate of Rome’s opponents. For her adherents she had the discipline of the scourge, of famishing hunger, of bodily austerities in every conceivable, heartsickening form. To secure the favor of Heaven, penitents violated the laws of God by violating the laws of nature. They were taught to sunder every tie which he has formed to bless and gladden man’s earthly sojourn. The churchyard contains millions of victims, who spent their lives in vain endeavors to subdue their natural affections, to repress, as offensive to God, every thought and feeling of sympathy with their fellow-creatures. {GC88 569.1}

If we desire to understand the determined cruelty of Satan, manifested for hundreds of years, not among those who never heard of God, but in the very heart and throughout the extent of Christendom, we have only to look at the history of Romanism. Through this mammoth system of deception the prince of evil achieves his purpose of bringing dishonor to God and wretchedness to man. And as we see how he succeeds in disguising himself, and accomplishing his work through the leaders of the church, we may better understand why he has so great antipathy to the Bible. If that book is read, the mercy and love of God will be revealed; it will be seen that he lays upon men none of these heavy burdens. All that he asks is a broken and contrite heart, a humble, obedient spirit. {GC88 570.1}

Christ gives no example in his life for men and women to shut themselves in monasteries in order to become fitted for Heaven. He has never taught that love and sympathy must be repressed. The Saviour’s heart overflowed with love. The nearer man approaches to moral perfection, the keener are his sensibilities, the more acute is his perception of sin, and the deeper his sympathy for the afflicted. The pope claims to be the vicar of Christ; but how does his character bear comparison with that of our Saviour? Was Christ ever known to consign men to the prison or the rack because they did not pay him homage as the King of Heaven? Was his voice heard condemning to death those who did not accept him? When he was slighted by the people of a Samaritan village, the apostle John was filled with indignation, and inquired, “Lord, wilt thou that we command fire to come down from heaven, and consume them, even as Elias did?” Jesus looked with pity upon his disciple, and rebuked his harsh spirit, saying, “The Son of man is not come to destroy men’s lives, but to save them.” [LUKE 9:54, 56.] How different from the spirit manifested by Christ is that of his professed vicar. {GC88 570.2}

The Romish Church now presents a fair front to the world, covering with apologies her record of horrible cruelties. She has clothed herself in Christ-like garments; but she is unchanged. Every principle of popery that existed in past ages exists today. The doctrines devised in the darkest ages are still held. Let none deceive themselves. The popery that Protestants are now so ready to honor is the same that ruled the world in the days of the Reformation, when men of God stood up, at the peril of their lives, to expose her iniquity. She possesses the same pride and arrogant assumption that lorded it over kings and princes, and claimed the prerogatives of God. Her spirit is no less cruel and despotic now than when she crushed out human liberty, and slew the saints of the Most High. {GC88 570.3}

Popery is just what prophecy declared that she would be, the apostasy of the latter times. [2 THESS. 2:3, 4.] It is a part of her policy to assume the character which will best accomplish her purpose; but beneath the variable appearance of the chameleon, she conceals the invariable venom of the serpent. “We are not bound to keep faith and promises to heretics,” She declares. Shall this power, whose record for a thousand years is written in the blood of the saints, be now acknowledged as a part of the church of Christ? {GC88 571.1}

It is not without reason that the claim has been put forth in Protestant countries, that Catholicism differs less widely from Protestantism than in former times. There has been a change; but the change is not in the papacy. Catholicism indeed resembles much of the Protestantism that now exists, because Protestantism has so greatly degenerated since the days of the reformers. {GC88 571.2}

As the Protestant churches have been seeking the favor of the world, false charity has blinded their eyes. They do not see but that it is right to believe good of all evil; and as the inevitable result, they will finally believe evil of all good. Instead of standing in defense of the faith once delivered to the saints, they are now, as it were, apologizing to Rome for their uncharitable opinion of her, begging pardon for their bigotry. {GC88 571.3}

A large class, even of those who look upon Romanism with no favor, apprehend little danger from her power and influence. Many urge that the intellectual and moral darkness prevailing during the Middle Ages favored the spread of her dogmas, superstitions, and oppression, and that the greater intelligence of modern times, the general diffusion of knowledge, and the increasing liberality in matters of religion, forbid a revival of intolerance and tyranny. The very thought that such a state of things will exist in this enlightened age is ridiculed. It is true that great light, intellectual, moral, and religious, is shining upon this generation. In the open pages of God’s holy Word, light from Heaven has been shed upon the world. But it should be remembered that the greater the light bestowed, the greater the darkness of those who pervert or reject it. {GC88 572.1}

A prayerful study of the Bible would show Protestants the real character of the papacy, and would cause them to abhor and to shun it; but many are so wise in their own conceit that they feel no need of humbly seeking God that they may be led into the truth. Although priding themselves on their enlightenment, they are ignorant both of the Scriptures and of the power of God. They must have some means of quieting their consciences; and they seek that which is least spiritual and humiliating. What they desire is a method of forgetting God which shall pass as a method of remembering him. The papacy is well adapted to meet the wants of all these. It is prepared for two classes of mankind, embracing nearly the whole world,–those who would be saved by their merits, and those who would be saved in their sins. Here is the secret of its power. {GC88 572.2}

A day of great intellectual darkness has been shown to be favorable to the success of popery. It will yet be demonstrated that a day of great intellectual light is equally favorable for its success. In past ages, when men were without God’s Word, and without the knowledge of the truth, their eyes were blindfolded, and thousands were ensnared, not seeing the net spread for their feet. In this generation there are many whose eyes become dazzled by the glare of human speculations, “science falsely so-called;” they discern not the net, and walk into it as readily as if blindfolded. God designed that man’s intellectual powers should be held as a gift from his Maker, and should be employed in the service of truth and righteousness; but when pride and ambition are cherished, and men exalt their own theories above the Word of God, then intelligence can accomplish greater harm than ignorance. Thus the false science of the nineteenth century, which undermines faith in the Bible, will prove as successful in preparing the way for the acceptance of the papacy, with its pleasing forms, as did the withholding of knowledge in opening the way for its aggrandizement in the Dark Ages. {GC88 572.3}

In the movements now in progress in the United States to secure for the institutions and usages of the church the support of the State, Protestants are following in the steps of papists. [SEE APPENDIX, NOTE 11.] Nay, more, they are opening the door for popery to regain in Protestant America the supremacy which she has lost in the Old World. And that which gives greater significance to this movement is the fact that the principal object contemplated is the enforcement of Sunday observance,–a custom which originated with Rome, and which she claims as the sign of her authority. It is the spirit of the papacy,–the spirit of conformity to worldly customs, the veneration for human traditions above the commandments of God,–that is permeating the Protestant churches, and leading them on to do the same work of Sunday exaltation which the papacy has done before them. {GC88 573.1}

If the reader would understand the agencies to be employed in the soon-coming contest, he has but to trace the record of the means which Rome employed for the same object in ages past. If he would know how papists and Protestants united will deal with those who reject their dogmas, let him see the spirit which Rome manifested toward the Sabbath and its defenders. {GC88 573.2}

Royal edicts, general councils, and church ordinances sustained by secular power, were the steps by which the pagan festival attained its position of honor in the Christian world. The first public measure enforcing Sunday observance was the law enacted by Constantine. [A. D. 321.] This edict required townspeople to rest on “the venerable day of the sun,” but permitted countrymen to continue their agricultural pursuits. Though virtually a heathen statute, it was enforced by the emperor after his nominal acceptance of Christianity. {GC88 574.1}

The royal mandate not proving a sufficient substitute for divine authority, Eusebius, a bishop who sought the favor of princes, and who was the special friend and flatterer of Constantine, advanced the claim that Christ had transferred the Sabbath to Sunday. Not a single testimony of the Scriptures was produced in proof of the new doctrine. Eusebius himself unwittingly acknowledges its falsity, and points to the real authors of the change. “All things,” he says, “whatsoever that it was duty to do on the Sabbath, these we have transferred to the Lord’s day.” But the Sunday argument, groundless as it was, served to embolden men in trampling upon the Sabbath of the Lord. All who desired to be honored by the world accepted the popular festival. {GC88 574.2}

As the papacy became firmly established, the work of Sunday exaltation was continued. For a time the people engaged in agricultural labor when not attending church, and the seventh day was still regarded as the Sabbath. But steadily a change was effected. Those in holy office were forbidden to pass judgment in any civil controversy on the Sunday. Soon after, all persons, of whatever rank, were commanded to refrain from common labor, on pain of a fine for freemen, and stripes in the case of servants. Later it was decreed, that rich men should be punished with the loss of half of their estates; and finally, that if still obstinate they should be made slaves. The lower classes were to suffer perpetual banishment. {GC88 574.3}

Miracles also were called into requisition. Among other wonders it was reported that as a husbandman who was about to plow his field on Sunday, cleaned his plow with an iron, the iron stuck fast in his hand, and for two years he carried it about with him, “to his exceeding great pain and shame.” {GC88 575.1}

Later, the pope gave directions that the parish priest should admonish the violators of Sunday, and wish them to go to church and say their prayers, lest they bring some great calamity on themselves and neighbors. An ecclesiastical council brought forward the argument, since so widely employed, even by Protestants, that because persons had been struck by lightning while laboring on Sunday, it must be the Sabbath. “It is apparent,” said the prelates, “how high the displeasure of God was upon their neglect of this day.” An appeal was then made that priests and ministers, kings and princes, and all faithful people, “use their utmost endeavors and care that the day be restored to its honor, and, for the credit of Christianity, more devoutly observed for time to come.” {GC88 575.2}

The decrees of councils proving insufficient, the secular authorities were besought to issue an edict that would strike terror to the hearts of the people, and force them to refrain from labor on the Sunday. At a synod held in Rome, all previous decisions were reaffirmed with greater force and solemnity. They were also incorporated into the ecclesiastical law, and enforced by the civil authorities throughout nearly all Christendom. {GC88 575.3}

Still the absence of scriptural authority for Sunday-keeping occasioned no little embarrassment. The people questioned the right of their teachers to set aside the positive declaration of Jehovah, “The seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord thy God,” in order to honor the day of the sun. To supply the lack of Bible testimony, other expedients were necessary. A zealous advocate of Sunday, who about the close of the twelfth century visited the churches of England, was resisted by faithful witnesses for the truth; and so fruitless were his efforts that he departed from the country for a season, and cast about him for some means to enforce his teachings. When he returned, the lack was supplied, and in his after-labors he met with greater success. He brought with him a roll purporting to be from God himself, which contained the needed command for Sunday observance, with awful threats to terrify the disobedient. This precious document–as base a counterfeit as the institution it supported– was said to have fallen from Heaven, and to have been found in Jerusalem, upon the altar of St. Simeon, in Golgotha. But in fact, the pontifical palace at Rome was the source whence it proceeded. Frauds and forgeries to advance the power and prosperity of the church have in all ages been esteemed lawful by the papal hierarchy. {GC88 575.4}

The roll forbade labor from the ninth hour, three o’clock, on Saturday afternoon, till sunrise on Monday; and its authority was declared to be confirmed by many miracles. It was reported that persons laboring beyond the appointed hour were stricken with paralysis. A miller who attempted to grind his corn, saw, instead of flour, a torrent of blood come forth, and the mill-wheel stood still, notwithstanding the strong rush of the water. A woman who placed dough in the oven, found it raw when taken out, though the oven was very hot. Another who had dough prepared for baking at the ninth hour, but determined to set it aside till Monday, found, the next day, that it had been made into loaves and baked by divine power. A man who baked bread after the ninth hour on Saturday, found, when he broke it the next morning, that blood started therefrom. By such absurd and superstitious fabrications did the advocates of Sunday endeavor to establish its sacredness. {GC88 576.1}

In Scotland, as in England, a greater regard for Sunday was secured by uniting with it a portion of the ancient Sabbath. But the time required to be kept holy varied. An edict from the king of Scotland declared that Saturday from twelve at noon ought to be accounted holy, and that no man, from that time till Monday morning, should engage in worldly business. {GC88 577.1}

But notwithstanding all the efforts to establish Sunday sacredness, papists themselves publicly confessed the divine authority of the Sabbath, and the human origin of the institution by which it had been supplanted. In the sixteenth century a papal council plainly declared: “Let all Christians remember that the seventh day was consecrated by God, and hath been received and observed, not only by the Jews, but by all others who pretend to worship God; though we Christians have changed their Sabbath into the Lord’s day.” Those who were tampering with the divine law were not ignorant of the character of their work. They were deliberately setting themselves above God. {GC88 577.2}

A striking illustration of Rome’s policy toward those who disagree with her was given in the long and bloody persecution of the Waldenses, some of whom were observers of the Sabbath. Others suffered in a similar manner for their fidelity to the fourth commandment. The history of the churches of Ethiopia and Abyssinia is especially significant. Amid the gloom of the Dark Ages, the Christians of Central Africa were lost sight of and forgotten by the world, and for many centuries they enjoyed freedom in the exercise of their faith. But at last Rome learned of their existence, and the emperor of Abyssinia was soon beguiled into an acknowledgment of the pope as the vicar of Christ. Other concessions followed. An edict was issued forbidding the observance of the Sabbath under the severest penalties. But papal tyranny soon became a yoke so galling that the Abyssinians determined to break it from their necks. After a terrible struggle, the Romanists were banished from their dominions, and the ancient faith was restored. The churches rejoiced in their freedom, and they never forgot the lesson they had learned concerning the deception, the fanaticism, and the despotic power of Rome. Within their solitary realm they were content to remain, unknown to the rest of Christendom. {GC88 577.3}

The churches of Africa held the Sabbath as it was held by the papal church before her complete apostasy. While they kept the seventh day in obedience to the commandment of God, they abstained from labor on the Sunday in conformity to the custom of the church. Upon obtaining supreme power, Rome had trampled upon the Sabbath of God to exalt her own; but the churches of Africa, hidden for nearly a thousand years, did not share in this apostasy. When brought under the sway of Rome, they were forced to set aside the true and exalt the false Sabbath; but no sooner had they regained their independence than they returned to obedience to the fourth commandment. [SEE APPENDIX, NOTE 12.] {GC88 578.1}

These records of the past clearly reveal the enmity of Rome toward the true Sabbath and its defenders, and the means which she employs to honor the institution of her creating. The Word of God teaches that these scenes are to be repeated as papists and Protestants shall unite for the exaltation of the Sunday. {GC88 578.2}

The prophecy of Revelation 13 declares that the power represented by the beast with lamb-like horns shall cause “the earth and them which dwell therein” to worship the papacy–there symbolized by the beast “like unto a leopard.” The beast with two horns is also to say “to them that dwell on the earth, that they should make an image to the beast;” and, furthermore, it is to command all, “both small and great, rich and poor, free and bond,” to receive “the mark of the beast.” [REV. 13:11-16.] It has been shown that the United States is the power represented by the beast with lamb-like horns, and that this prophecy will be fulfilled when the United States shall enforce Sunday observance, which Rome claims as the special acknowledgment of her supremacy. But in this homage to papacy the United States will not be alone. The influence of Rome in the countries that once acknowledged her dominion, is still far from being destroyed. And prophecy foretells a restoration of her power. “I saw one of his heads as it were wounded to death; and his deadly wound was healed; and all the world wondered after the beast.” [REV. 13:3.] The infliction of the deadly wound points to the abolition of the papacy in 1798. After this, says the prophet, “His deadly wound was healed; and all the world wondered after the beast.” Paul states plainly that the man of sin will continue until the second advent. [2 THESS. 2:8.] To the very close of time he will carry forward his work of deception. And the Revelator declares, also referring to the papacy, “All that dwell upon the earth shall worship him, whose names are not written in the book of life.” [REV. 13:8.] In both the Old and the New World, papacy will receive homage in the honor paid to the Sunday institution, that rests solely upon the authority of the Romish Church. {GC88 578.3}

For about forty years, students of prophecy in the United States have presented this testimony to the world. In the events now taking place is seen a rapid advance toward the fulfillment of the prediction. With Protestant teachers there is the same claim of divine authority for Sunday-keeping, and the same lack of scriptural evidence, as with the papist leaders who fabricated miracles to supply the place of a command from God. The assertion that God’s judgments are visited upon men for their violation of the Sunday-sabbath, will be repeated; already it is beginning to be urged. And a movement to enforce Sunday observance is fast gaining ground. {GC88 579.1}

Marvelous in her shrewdness and cunning is the Romish Church. She can read what is to be. She bides her time, seeing that the Protestant churches are paying her homage in their acceptance of the false Sabbath, and that they are preparing to enforce it by the very means which she herself employed in by-gone days. Those who reject the light of truth will yet seek the aid of this self-styled infallible power to exalt an institution that originated with her. How readily she will come to the help of Protestants in this work, it is not difficult to conjecture. Who understands better than the papal leaders how to deal with those who are disobedient to the church? {GC88 579.2}

The Roman Church, with all its ramifications throughout the world, forms one vast organization, under the control, and designed to serve the interests, of the papal see. Its millions of communicants, in every country on the globe, are instructed to hold themselves as bound in allegiance to the pope. Whatever their nationality or their government, they are to regard the authority of the church as above all other. Though they may take the oath pledging their loyalty to the State, yet back of this lies the vow of obedience to Rome, absolving them from every pledge inimical to her interests. {GC88 580.1}

Protestants little know what they are doing when they propose to accept the aid of Rome in the work of Sunday exaltation. While they are bent upon the accomplishment of their purpose, Rome is aiming to re-establish her power, to recover her lost supremacy. Let history testify of her artful and persistent efforts to insinuate herself into the affairs of nations; and having gained a foothold, to further her own aims, even at the ruin of princes and people. Romanism openly puts forth the claim that the pope “can pronounce sentences and judgments in contradiction to the right of nations, to the law of God and man.” [THE “DECRETALIA.”] {GC88 580.2}

And let it be remembered, it is the boast of Rome that she never changes. The principles of Gregory VII. and Innocent III. are still the principles of the Romish Church. And had she but the power, she would put them in practice with as much vigor now as in past centuries. Let the principle once be established in the United States, that the church may employ or control the power of the State; that religious observances may be enforced by secular laws; in short, that the authority of church and State is to dominate the conscience, and the triumph of Rome in this country is assured. {GC88 580.3}

God’s Word has given warning of the impending danger; let this be unheeded, and the Protestant world will learn what the purposes of Rome really are, only when it is too late to escape the snare. She is silently growing into power. Her doctrines are exerting their influence in legislative halls, in the churches, and in the hearts of men. She is piling up her lofty and massive structures, in the secret recesses of which her former persecutions will be repeated. Stealthily and unsuspectedly she is strengthening her forces to further her own ends when the time shall come for her to strike. All that she desires is vantage-ground, and this is already being given her. We shall soon see and shall feel what the purpose of the Roman element is. Whoever shall believe and obey the Word of God will thereby incur reproach and persecution. {GC88 581.1}

Hey everyone!!! Thank God its Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…

April 8, 2005 by DoctaJay

Hey everyone!!! Thank God its Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This week has been absolutely hectic. Next week is going to be even worse. We have 2 weeks have class left, then finals start. I have like 4 tests next week, and even more tests next next week. I don’t have too much to say today, but I did register my classes for next semester. Here they are:

The Gift of Prophecy – This is a religion class that is required. I think the class is about Ellen G. White, and how she received visions from God.

Art Appreciation – A really really stupid required core class. It better not take up too much of my time.

Histology – From what I’ve heard from my upper classmen friends, this class isn’t too hard, but its just a crazy amount of memorization of all the tissues and stuff.

Histology Lab

Plant Biology– Now I know that I could just be being very close minded, but I really can’t see myself enjoying this class. I want to be a doctor who takes bullets out of patients, I really don’t care too much about photosynthesis and the different genre of vegetation. I’m only taking this class because it is required as a biology major.

Plant Biology Lab– This lab is for 3 hours on a Sunday!!! This adds to my dislike for the class. Not only is it on Sunday, but the lab starts at like 8 a.m. on Sunday!!!

Introduction to Research– In this class, we basically pair with a teacher of our choice, and they help us develop and write a proposal for our own research project. Its good if you plan to go into research, but as a physician I don’t see myself writing too many proposals. Anyway, its required for my major, that’s why I’m taking it.

Mammalian Anatomy I– THIS CLASS IS GONG TO BE SO TIGHT!!!!!. Yeah, Oakwood is one of the few undergraduate institutions that have cadavers in their science department. The lady who teaches this class, used to teach Gross Anatomy to the medical students at Loma Linda University, so basically we are getting taught the same way. That is why Oakwood graduates do so well their freshman year in med school, because they have already taken Gross Anatomy basically. So yeah, usually this class is reserved seniors, but I caught wind, that Dr. Maulsby (the teacher) was in need of lab instructors, because basically she was running every single mammalian lab (there are about 8 of them). Usually lab instructors are hard to find, since most of the students take the class their senior year, but every once and awhile, she lets some juniors in, if they promise to be a lab instructor their senior year. So that’s what I’m doing, and I’m so excited. DISECTING CADAVERS!!! Of course, this class requires ridiculous memorization of all the body parts, muscle insertions and origins, bones, etc. But I’m really excited, and plus I get to wear scrubs to class ( I know it sounds stupid).

Mammalian Anatomy Lab

So yeah, that’s my schedule for next semester. I think that I’ll be taking like 18 hours, but of course that doesn’t include the labs which don’t count for any hours, even though they each usually last for 3 hours per session. My girlfriend flew home to Maryland for the weekend, so I’ll be lonely this weekend, sniff sniff. Anyway, I’ll hit yall up later if anything else interesting happens.